The day Justin admitted his feelings for you didn't end up being the last day you spoke to him, or saw him for that matter. What happened between the two of you after he led you up to his room was so incredible that you just couldn't leave him alone like you thought you were going to. You called him the very next day asking if the two of you could keep what you had going and he agreed to it, but under one condition.. you had to break up with Chase.
Breaking up with Chase was something that you never even thought of doing. Chase is good to you. He's a great listener, he's caring and thoughtful, and just an overall sweetheart. Even if he is lacking in the sexual part of your relationship, he shows you daily how much he loves you so you didn't want to hurt him. You didn't tell Justin that, though. You just agreed to his little demand and told him to give you time to think of a way to do it gently. That same night you were back at his house. It was easier than you thought.
It's been a month since that night and everything was going smoothly. You and Justin spent a lot more time together and have grown into more than just the f*ck buddies you were. He's actually a really cool person and he's fun to be around. Sometimes you wondered what it'd be like to seriously be with him instead of pretending to be into this idea of you being his girlfriend. If you actually put effort into it, it'd probably work but you didn't want to do that.
About two weeks after you agreed to break up with Chase, Justin got suspicious. He came to you asking when did you think it would be the "right time" and saying that you two shouldn't have sex until you broke up with him so you had to lie and say you did it at some point. He hasn't said anything about it since then and you were glad.
You dialed Justin's number out of habit. He saved it into your phone a week ago but you were so used to typing it in that you continued to do so whenever you needed to reach him. It rang twice before he answered.
"What's up, y/n?"
"Hey. Is it still okay if I come over tonight?" you asked him. There was a long moment of silence after you did. "Hello?"
"Yeah, um... Why don't I come to your house?" he asked. You furrowed your eyebrows.
"Why can't I just come over there like I always do?"
"Because I've still never been to your house. You broke up with him two weeks ago and still haven't invited me over. Why is that?" he asked. You bit your lip.
"I don't know, I just never thought of it. You can come over if you want, I'll text you the address." you told him. You didn't want him coming to your house because you didn't want him running into Chase to be a possibility but you couldn't have him getting suspicious and questioning you either.
"Okay. I'll leave once I get the text, babe." he told you. You said your goodbye and hung up, texting him your address right after. As you waited for him to arrive you straightened up a little, making sure that Chase didn't have any jackets or clothes lying around from his last visit. You also made sure to hide every picture you had of the two of you on display.
About thirty minutes after you sent the text, your doorbell rang. You smiled to yourself and went to answer it, knowing it was Justin. You didn't even look through the peephole before you opened the door but as soon as you saw Chase staring back at you, you wished you would've.
"Chase? What are you doing here?" you asked as he stepped into your house, closing the door behind him. He gave you a kiss before he answered.
"I was around so I decided to stop and see you. What are you up to?" he said.
"I was just about to go to bed." you said, forcing a very loud yawn to leave your mouth.
"Go to bed? It's like eight o'clock. Since when do you go to bed this early?"
"I'm just really tired. I had a long day." you said. You were hoping he'd take the hint and leave before Justin arrived. You didn't know what you were going to do if he was still here when Justin came.
"Okay, so how about this. I'll cuddle with you until you fall asleep, then I'll leave." he said. You gave him a small smile that was surprisingly genuine. He's such a sweetie that even though you didn't want him to stay, you were still happy about his offer. If Justin wasn't coming you'd take him upstairs, but that's unfortunately not the case.
"No, that's oka-" you were cut off by your doorbell ringing, signaling that Justin was now here. You looked from Chase, to the door and back at him before speaking. "You know what, head upstairs. I'll be up after I see who's at the door." you told him. You gave him another kiss so he wouldn't question you then watched as he headed upstairs. You made sure he was out of sight before you went to the door.
You opened it without looking and mentally slapped yourself. You really should've learned your lesson from what just happened. Justin had a cross between a smirk and a smile on his face when you opened the door. He walked through the doorway and kicked the door closed before he picked you up, making you wrap your legs around his waist. You grabbed his neck as he kissed you and walked a little further into the house.
"Justin." you said before you allowed yourself to get too into anything he was trying to start. As much as you wanted to let him do whatever he wanted right now, you couldn't with the boyfriend that you weren't even supposed to have upstairs waiting on you. For the first time since you started this thing with Justin, you didn't know what you were going to do.
You knew you had to get one of them to leave but Chase was already upstairs and that'd be too tricky. It had to be Justin. But Justin... he's too.. suspicious, too smart. He'd know that something was up if you tried to make up an excuse to be alone after you called him to make sure you could see him tonight. Somehow you had to get him out before he saw Chase, though, and vice versa.
"Um, can we.. can we go somewhere?" you asked him once you managed to get him to keep his lips off you for five seconds. You kicked your legs, signaling that you wanted to get down so he let you.
"Go somewhere? Like where?" he asked with his face slightly scrunched up.
"I don't know, the beach? I just want to clear my mind and relax."
"I got something that'll relax you. I'll give it to you if we just go upstairs..." Justin came closer to you, grabbing your waist and kissing your neck.
"Or." you said, moving your head back so he'd stop kissing you. "You could give me what you have at the beach." you finished. His face lit up and made it clear that he liked that idea. Without saying a word, he took your hand and moved to the door. You giggled to yourself, both at him and as a way to let out your relief about getting out of the situation you found yourself in. You'd explain to Chase later why you left. He was easier to convince than Justin so you knew he'd believe you.
Justin was reaching for the door when you heard something that made your heart stop. You immediately dropped Justin's hand when you heard it. It caused both of you to stop in your tracks and turn around to see the source of the sound: Chase.
"Y/n? I came down to see what was taking so long." he said.
"Oh. Um. Justin, this is Chase. Chase, this is my friend Justin." you said. Soon as you said that Justin's head snapped towards you.
"Friend?"
"I didn't know you were expecting company... I thought you were about to go to sleep.. with me." Chase said. Your heart was going a mile a minute as you thought of a way to twist this situation, a way to make it seem another way than it clearly was.
"I wasn't. Um. Justin was just leaving." you said, looking at Justin. You hoped and prayed he'd go along with it but you knew that was unlikely since, to his knowledge, you had broken up with and stopped speaking to Chase weeks ago.
"Yeah. And you were coming with me, remember?" he said. He crossed his arms as he looked at you with an amused expression, probably wanting to see how you'd try to manipulate the situation now.
"So you were leaving? Y/n, what's going on? If he's your friend why haven't I met him before or heard you talking about him?" Chase asked. He was getting upset and you could tell. That didn't make you feel any better.
"She's been playing you."
"Justin." You looked at him, your eyes were begging him not to do what he was about to.
"She's been cheating on you with me for most of your relationship." Justin said, looking at Chase. "I thought she broke up with you a couple weeks ago like she said she did, but no. Instead she's been playing me, too." he finished. A bitter laugh left his lips when he did. You didn't say anything as you looked at Justin. You were beyond annoyed with him right now. You can't say you expected him to handle this any differently, though. You lied to him. You actually thought he'd react worse.
"So, should I take your silence as confirmation that what he just said is true?" Chase asked. You looked at him, sympathy and guilt now consuming your entire body. He looked so hurt and you were the only one to blame for it.
"Chase, I'm-"
"Don't even worry about it. You can keep my stuff, I'd rather just not see you or talk to you again." he said. He walked right past you and Justin afterwards and left without another word. As soon as the door closed Justin started up, making you sigh.
"I can't believe you lied to me like that... I guess I shouldn't expect anything more from someone who cheated on her boyfriend for over a year with no remorse for how he might feel."
"Don't try to act like you're any better. You knew and agreed to it. It's not my fault you caught feelings and wanted more than what we agreed to." you told him.
"Really, y/n? You lied to my face and acted like you wanted to be with me! For what? Sex? Is it that important to you? If so, I would've given it to you and so much more if you just would've let me."
"I told you why I wouldn't be with you, Justin. I don't want to go over this again."
"Whatever. You can't love him that much if you were cheating on him for so long. You were about to leave him, your boyfriend, upstairs while you went off with another guy. Does that sound like love to you?" Justin said. He was really upset with you and no matter how many times you tried to tell yourself that he shouldn't have changed what you agreed to, you understood why.
"Okay, Justin. I get it. I actually do feel bad about this. I never wanted to hurt Chase or you when I found out how you felt. I lied to you for my own selfish needs and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hurt you, but I can't take it back so I don't know what you want me to do." you said.
You felt really bad about all of this. You could finally see, really see that what you did to both of these guys was wrong. Two great guys got hurt because you wanted to satisfy all of your dumb needs. You wished you could take it back, but you couldn't, and that's what bothered you the most. That after tonight you'd just have to go on without either of them and that there's nothing you could do about it.
"I'm glad you feel bad. At least it means you learned from this." Justin spoke. His voice was softer, probably because he wasn't expecting you to apologize. He walked the short distance between the two of you and put his hands on both sides of your face. He lifted your head so you would look at him and looked into your eyes once you were.
"As much as I want to forgive you and forget about this so we can start over, I can't. You don't want me and I have to accept that. So... I guess this is goodbye... again." He kissed your forehead and pulled back to look at you again. You could really see the pain in his brown eyes as he took a minute to just look at you. He placed a soft kiss on your lips then dropped his hands and walked out the door, leaving you alone. Now all you had were the sound of your thoughts replaying what just happened and judging you for all your decisions that led you to this point.
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