SKZ Little Space Oneshots

Jisung x Skz, (?)-> finally free

Little: Jisung, ?
Caregiver: Skz

Plot: Jisung has been forced to kill for his whole life. But when suddenly a mafia pulls up and kidnaps him a new chapter of his life starts. Is it good? Read to find out

TW: description of murder, PTSD/ trauma, fighting, forcing a person to be a little, drug use, panic attacks, somehow Stockholm syndrome, kidnapping, sexual harassment

(Happy ending, mostly fluff)

This is also 16.000 words since I couldn't find a point where I could stop, so it's more like a story.
So if fighting scenes trigger you, you can skip a bit, but somewhere in the middle there is another figting scene where a main character nearly dies, but out of this its mostly fluff :)

And Skzlover2018, idk if that's enough for your requested ship. If not you can tell me and I'll write something else with them

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Jisung wants to cry.

But he can't.

He can't be weak.

If he looks weak he will be dead.

"Finish placing your bets for the final battle. It's the finals for this week so make sure you place your money on the right champion.
Only a few seconds are left for the finals, the battle of the champions."

The thunderous cheers make Jisung flinch. He will never get used to the loud noises

He doesn't want to go out there to kill another person again.

Or should he just give up?

How long has he been here? Six years? Maybe Seven or more?

Heavy footsteps come closer to his cage and Jisung sees the familiar man again. He wants to bet that smug grin from his face but the man is too strong.
He had tried one time and never again. The scars on his back will forever remind him of this guy.

The man unlocks the cage and pulls on the leash that is attached to the metal choker around his neck.

Jisung quickly scrambles to his feet and follows the man through the endless maze of corridors. A newcomer would get lost here but Jisung knows this maze better than himself.

He's pushed into his dressing room where a stylist is already waiting for him. His usual outfit is already layed out for him.
It's all in white, matching his blonde hair. It makes him look like a real angel.

Maybe that's why people call him

Angel of Anguish

_____

"Why do we have to be here?"

"Shut up Felix. It's important business. They force people to fight for their lives and this has to be put to an end." Jeongin barks.
Felix rolls his eyes but doesn't comment.

"Can we look out for a playmate for Min?"

Chan grips the steering wheel so hard that his knuckles turn white.

"Seo Changbin! How do you find someone who will be easy to take care of, when all of them are completely disgusting assholes that watch people fight for their lives?"
Changbin sighs and also shuts up.

Something doesn't sit right with him. He has a feeling that they will find someone for his baby today, but the other won't believe him obviously.

"Okay, just to make a few things clear... We are on an official mission to take down this place. I want no one to stay alive tonight! Understood?
Your focus isn't on finding a playmate for Min, but taking the place down!"
All of the members nod and their boss seems happy.

"Good. Hyunjin. Give the men the command to circle in the building and to shoot everyone out of us who comes out of the building."
Hyunjin nods and goes back to the car.

"Jeongin, what about the fighters?" Jeongin lifts an eyebrow.

"What about them?"

Chan bites his lips and thinks before speaking. "They're mostly innocent. Maybe we can recruit them or let them run free..."

Jeongin sighs. Chan is right. The fighters are all innocent.

"Okay, don't kill everyone. If you see of the fighter and they don't attack you then let them live."

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"I hope all of your bets are placed because it's finally time to start the battle. Only the champions of the champions will win!"

Jisung stands infront of the gate, clenching his fists around the golden daggers.

He knows he won't die if he fights tonight.

But if he continues to fight then this will never end.

"I hope you're ready angel. The fight will start any second." The man next to the gate says. He smiles creepily at Jisung, but the champion doesn't care anymore.
The man is all bark, no bite. He would never touch Jisung since he knows that Jisung will do his best to defend himself.

"And now, get ready for our biggest battle this year.
Open the gates for our Champions!"

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The gang has finally made their way inside and are seated infront of the huge battle ring.

"Innie, can I call dibs on killing that weirdo," Changbin asks his boss after the announcement just ended.

"I don't care who kills him but as long as he's dead then it's fine."

Changbin grumbles but is later distracted when the gates finally open and 9 Champions step into the ring. All of them are bulky and stacked muscles.

But one gate stays closed.

"Welcome to the battle, the champions of the champions. Please welcome our best fighter, the Angel of Anguish!"

Finally, the last gate is opened and a small, fragile figure steps a bit out of the shadows, not enough to show themselves fully.
The blades shine with the light and his completely white outfit makes him look like a real angel.

"Innie, we have to recruit him!" Felix mumbles and leans forward, hoping to get a better view of the champion. Jeongin doesn't comment on it. He's too occupied to look at the boy.

"Let the battle begin!"

When the shot falls all of the fighters storm to the boy in white.

But he already knows that they will die today.

He will survive!

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When Jisung sees the nine men run to him he closes his eyes and takes a breath.

He has to fight.

He can't let these people live. They kill people and don't feel any guilt.

As he opens his eyes he looks like a completely different person. All of his emotions are turned off and he gets into position, waiting for the first man to approach him.

When one of the men comes too close to him, he jumps onto him and pushes the blade into his head, killing him on the spot.
Some of the men are taken aback and start to fight each other, not wanting to fight him.

But Jisung doesn't care how scared his opponents are. He simply wants this to end.

As the men fight against someone other than him he starts to perfectly aim his attack and slices them open.

He doesn't care about the blood that is staining his outfit.

Only one of the men is still standing. Probably the hardest to take down.

Jisung stays on distance but the man always comes closer. Ashe starts a surprise attack he's unable to push the blade right into the man's heart. Instead, he's grabbed by the neck and forced on his knees.

"This is your end, angel." The man smirks and squeezes harder, making it hard for Jisung to breathe.

But Jisung won't give up today. He takes the blade which is still in his left hand and stabs it into the man's arm, forcing him to let go of his neck.
With a quick movement, he's kicked to the floor and Jisung is on top of him.

"I will live. I'm the champion of the champions and you're nothing!" Jisung slowly pushes the blade into the man's heart.

"There we have put winner, the Angel of Anguish remains the champion of champions!"

"Start the mission! I want everyone dead but not him. I want to see him before I decide what we do with him." With that, Jeongin stands up and gives Hyunjin the okay sign.

Jisung is harshly shoved into his cage again. A meal is waiting there for him. His prize for winning. It's nothing too special. Some mashed potato with some sauce.
Just to keep him alive. His last meal was already a few days ago when he had his last battle.

"You'll get a bath tomorrow." The man says and slams the door shut. Jisung sighs. He knows that the man will forget about it. But it's better like this.
He won't be seen naked and humiliated for his bruised body.

He can't even eat his food before he suddenly hears screams. But they're not happy screams from a battle.

The screams are featured with Gunshots.

Jisung's head snaps up.

If he's lucky the police have finally found them. Maybe they search the basements of this building and find him.

But what will they do with me?

Will they let me be free?

Jisung's head hangs low. He just wants to be out of this hellhole. He wants to get the freedom back he didn't have for years.

But will he get it?

A long time later the gunshots finally stop. But footsteps approach the room Jisung is in. The door is opened a bit light falls onto him.

"Is this him, boss?" Jisung's head snaps up at the voice. It's very deep and scares him.

With a whimper, he crawls to the back of his cage. He can't keep up the mask he was wearing in the ring.

"It's him. He's still covered in the blood... Can't these assholes at least give him something appropriate to wear in such a cold room?" Another voice.

Jisung doesn't know how many of them are there and it makes him even more scared. What will they do to him?

"Hey, you don't have to be scared. They're all dead." The voice sounds like the person is close to him.

"Jeongin, he's so broken. We can't kill him!"

Suddenly the door of his cage is opened.

"Come out. We won't harm you.. for now." Jisung slowly crawls out of the cage as far as the collar around his neck allows him and stands up.

"Did you kill all of them,?" He asks.

"Yes. You're one of the only ones that's left."

"What will you do with me?" Jisung is shaking. He's completely cold and scared.

"If you join us we will get you out of here and if you don't join us then you'll join all of them." The deep voice makes him flinch again.

Jisung shortly thinks about the offer.

"No... I don't want to fight. I want to be free."

That's all Jisung wants. He can't stand the burden of killing more people.

"You can't." A person steps out from the shadow and it's clear that he's the boss. The others part to make a way for him and he only stops infront of Jisung.

"Then kill me. I just want it to stop." Jisung whimpers. His legs finally give up and he sinks to the dirty floor.

"Stupid boy." Someone mumbles and Jisung hears how they come closer to him.

He closes his eyes and waits for someone to kill him.

But he's suddenly engulfed in a warm hug. The hug is so comforting that Jisung can only break down. Tears roll down his cheeks and he clings to the person.

"You'll ours now!" Jisung's eyes widen and he tries to get out of the person's hold, but they're too strong. Suddenly a needle is pushed into his neck and his head is held by the person as he pushes the fluids from the needles inside of him.

Jisung cries even harder. He doesn't know what they just put inside of him. Everything is so scary right now. Even if he should hate the person now he clinches even more onto them as he feels the effects of the drugs set in.

The guy gently rocks him back and forth, keeping his arms secured around him.

After only a few seconds Jisung is completely unconscious.

"Bang Christopher Chan!" Jeognin seems pissed and Chan understands it.

"Jeongin. He's so broken. Min would love to have a playmate and he seems so perfect.." Chan explains and stands up with Jisung in his arms.
The boy is so light that it's already concerning.

"What did I say? I told you that we would find the perfect match for our boy." Changbin proudly says.

Jeongin rolls his eyes.

"Okay, he's cute but he doesn't look like he'll give in easily. He fought for years and was traumatized. Having too many people will make him uncomfortable, so we have to be very careful with him."
Chan and Changbin happily give each other a high five.

They finally get out of the building, Changbin is carrying the unconscious boy and carefully places him in the backseat of their car.

"Why did you bring a murder," Hyunjin asks and crosses his arms.

"The boy is traumatized and we couldn't kill him, so he'll become Min's playmate," Felix explains and places himself next to the boy.

"He's such a cutie. Min will love him!"

When they arrive at their home, Changbin carefully carries Jisung to the basement, making sure that their little won't see him already.
He and Felix bring him down to their little old room. It's cutely decorated and Changbin feels old memories come up.

"Hyung. Let's change his clothes and clean him." Felix says and gets out the clothes out of the cute closet. Changbin brings the boy to the bathroom and lets water into the tube.

Felix helps him to carefully place Jisung in the tube and holds his head so the boy won't drown. Changbin begins to scrub down the dirt and blood from Jisung's body.

"Poor baby." Changbin's gaze darkens as he sees the huge amount of scars on Jisung's body. "We'll treat you so much better." He whispers and presses a kiss on the boy's forehead.
He gently lifts Jisung out of the tube and places him on the changing table and Felix dresses Jisung.

Changbin chooses when he sees Jisung in his favorite clothes. He carefully places the boy inside of the crib and tucks him in.

The boy looks so cute in the bed. A plushie inside of his arm. His round cheeks make him look even cuter and Changbin can't understand how this cutie could be such a cold fighter.

With a sigh, he turns around and walks out of the room when his gaze falls onto the shelf. The eye of the puppy plushie is shining in a faint red.
He smirks, knowing that Jeongin has turned on the camera again.

As he stepped out of the room, he quietly locked the door. Now Jisung was unable to escape.

_______

When Jisung woke up, the first thing he saw wasn't his usual cage bars. Instead, he was met with a baby blue ceiling and stars that were glued onto it.

He blinked and slowly looked around.

Is this real?

Did I die?

Jisung was absolutely confused. He didn't know where he was and what sick dream he was dreaming.

As he slowly sat up, he noticed the soft blanket and the plushies that were in the bed with him. He raised an eyebrow and took the plushie that had been resting in his arms.
It was a little squirrel and Jisung finds it absolutely cute.

When he was done studying the plushies he noticed that the thick collar around his neck was missing. Instead, there was a bandage around his neck, as well as his arms.
The blood had been washed of him and his scars had been treated with some cream.

But the worst thing about this was, that he was wearing

A freaking onesie and a nappy?!

Jisung had been okay with most of the things that he had noticed, but this was a newfound nightmare.

Instead of wearing boxers and some normal clothes, he had been dressed in a diaper and a onesie. A very childish onesie!
It was baby blue with stars on it and it was so embarrassing.
Jisung wasn't going to lie, it was comfortable, but who in his right state of mind would dress him like a freaking child?
Do his Kidnappers have a thing for people who dress up as a child or children?

Jisung knew about his small frame and even if the Kidnappers had wanted a child, they could easily pretend that he was the same.

With a disgusting feeling in his stomach, he stood up and looked around the room.

The rest of the room wasn't any less confusing. There were all sorts of drawings and stickers all over the walls, and he only then realized that the stars shining on the ceiling were actually projected by a nightlight.
The whole room was looking like it belonged to a child.

The floor was completely covered in a soft carpet with different motives, most of them resembling cars but most of it didn't make sense to Jisung,
He didn't even know the name of most of the things, since he had never grown up with them, but he wasn't curious to try them out.
This was obviously kids toys and if his calculations were right, then he should be an adult now.

"What kind of sick dream is this?..." Jisung muttered and sat down again. He felt like he would throw up the little meal he had before he was taken.

A tear escaped his face and he pulled his knees to his chest. Nothing made any sense and that. scared Jisung more than the fighting ring.
There he knew what to do.

Fight, kill, and win.

Here, he knew nothing. He didn't know the people and what they wanted to do with him, out of dressing him up like a child.

"Why can't I be free?" Jisung sobbed. His body was shaking.
Everything was so unfair to him. First, he was kidnapped a few years ago and now he was in the hands of some freaks that had a thing for children.

"Hey, baby. Everything is okay." A deep, calming voice said. Jisung shook his head and sobbed louder. He didn't want to look at his Kidnappers.
They were bad people and Jisung hated bad people.

"Hey, please look at me and let me explain the situation." Jisung finally lifted his head up and looked at the guy infront of him.

"You kidnapped me and dressed me as a child. Nothing is okay!" Jisung screamed and threw a plushie at the man who easily caught it.

"Send Chan-hyung or Binnie-hyung. Our baby is throwing a fit." The man had pressed a hand against his ear and Jisung could see a small earpiece there.

In the next second the door opened and another man entered.

"Hold him down, Lix. He shouldn't move when we do it."

Jisung shot an angry glare towards the guys, but even if the first guy, Lix, looked like wasn't strong, he manhandled Jisung easily onto his back and held him there.

The other guy helped to open the onesie, so he had access to Jisung's hip.

The boy whimpered when the needle was pushed into his sensitive skin. He could feel it when the fluids were injected into him again.

Only a few seconds passed until Jisung could feel the effects kicking in. His body became heavy and he couldn't feel anything.
He blinked in panic, unable to move anything else than his head.

"Baby, don't panic. It's only for a short time. We had to make sure you wouldn't jump at us when we would introduce you to the others.

"I'm Felix and he's Chan." The first guy introduced themself. Jisung stared at them, not caring what they said. They injected some stuff into him again and Jisung absolutely hated them for this.

Suddenly he felt something wet and warm at his crotch. His eyes widened and his cheeks burned in embarrassment.

He had just wet himself.

"Aww, did someone have an accident?" Chan asked with a sweet tone, which made Jisung want to bury himself in the ground.

"Let's clean him up. Someone can bathe him later." Felix said and took the needle from Chan. The other bent down and lifted Jisung up.

"Our baby is so light, we have to make sure he eats well," Chan commented and carried Jisung to the changing table.

Jisung felt humiliated to the point where he wished himself to be killed in the arena back then. Chan had undressed his lower half and had changed the nappy.
But none of them mocked him or did something for him. It seemed concerning normal for them.

While Chan was changing him, Felix was whispering praises into Jisung's ear, distracting him a bit. His small hand was holding Jisung's hand. Even if the boy couldn't feel much of his body, the little touch made him a bit more comfortable.

"All done." Chan only needed a few minutes to change Jisung. He picked the boy up and helped Jisung to wrap his legs around his waist.

"Let's introduce you to everyone and then eat something," Chan said in a baby voice and Jisung immediately cringed. He wasn't a little child.

Chan easily carried him upstairs without even breaking a sweat.

"How often do we have to explain to Min that he should tidy up when he finished playing?" Felix asks when he sees the mess in the living room. "I bet that he played with Binnie!"

Children's toys were lying everywhere and Jisung hoped that his assumptions wouldn't become reality.

"Yeah, I saw them play earlier, but I didn't think that they would leave such a mess," Chan said and tried to walk through the living room without stepping onto one of the toys and balancing Jisung on his arm.

Jisung's thoughts were running wild. He had thought of escaping but the house was way too big for him to mesmerize everything. And since Jisung had already spotted two cameras he knew that there was no way out for him.
But if there was another person that was trapped here like him, then Jisung could hopefully persuade them to try to run away together.

"Do you want to eat something, Baby?" The deep voice from Felix forces him back into reality and he finally notices that they arrived in another big room, which is filled with a big table and chairs.
Five people are sitting at the table, not looking at them.

One of them is also wearing a onesie like Jisung and is sitting on one of the men's lap. But to Jisung's surprise, he doesn't seem to be uncomfortable.
He's happily humming a song while drawing in a children's book.

Suddenly Chan coughs and all of them turn their heads to look at them, the chatter immediately dying down.

Jisung shrinks at the intense stares and wants to run away, but Chan's arms that are wrapped around him prevent it.

"Well, well, well, look who finally woke up." The buffest man amongst them says. He gives Jisung a comforting smile but the other can't return it.
Instead, he wishes to be returned to his old home.

"Good morning sleeping beauty." Another man says. Jisung recalls him to be the leader of this fucked up gang.  "Was the baby a bit fussy?"

Chan nods and walks over to the free chair next to the leader. When he sits down Jisung is pushed against his chest since he can't hold himself up because of the injection.

"We injected him with the typical meds but I think he's only hungry. Look how thin he is. It feels like a stick." Chan complains and shows Jisung's skinny, yet slightly muscular arms.

Jisung shyly looks into the round of unknown people. He only stops when he finally sees the face of the other boy who hadn't looked up the previous time.

The first thing Jisung wants to do is to jump up and run to him but the drugs prevent him from doing so. Instead, he can only sit and stare at his old friend.

He changed over the years but Jisung would be able to recognize the puppy-like features everywhere.

"Minnie?" He whispers. His old friend stares back.

"Appa, who dis?" He asks and Jisung can't help but cringe at the childish voice. He doesn't have any time to process what Seungmin said when another speaks up.

"I think we should do a short introduction round." The others nod in agreement.

"Okay, little one. Like you already, I'm Minho and Felix is next to you" Chan started. "—then there's Hyunjin next to him—"

"Hey."

"—and then there's Minho, and the one sitting on his lap is Seungmin—"

"Yo."

"Hi!" beamed the boy in the onesie. "—and then next to them is Changbin,—"

"Hello," murmured the blonde-haired man, offering a small smile. "—thyre Minnies caregivers, and finally, there's Jeongin!"

There was some awkward silence since Jeongin didn't bother greeting Jisung again and Jisung was completely fine with it. If the leader wasn't too fond of him then it would be easier to get kicked out.

"-what's your name, little one?" Jisung bit his lip. He didn't want them to find out his name.

"If you don't give us your name well just give you another name!" Jeongin threatened.

"Jisung..." He mumbled and fiddled with his hands. "My name... is Jisung."

"Aww, how cute!" beamed Changbin.

"Sungie!" cheered Seungmin, making the others chuckle.

"That's a really cute name, baby," agreed Minho, patting his head.

"Yeah! Sungie's Minnie's new friend?"

"He will be, but it'll take a little while before you two can play together," Minho explains to the little one.

"S'okay, Minnie can wait, Eomma." Jisung was crying at the words. He didn't know what his former best friend had gone through to talk like a child.

Did they brainwash him?
Had they abused him?
What would they do to him now?

"Why are you crying, baby?" Chan asked.

Jisung scoffed. Was this piece of shit trying to act innocent now?

"What did you assholes do to him? Why is he acting like a fucking child and calling you appa?" Jisung burst. He let all of his anger from the last few hours out.
Seeing what they were probably planning with him was even worse than he expected. He had expected them to make him their slave or little toy. But acting like a child and addressing them like he would address his father??

"Sungie, calm down. We can explain it to you." Felix tried to calm him down but it wasn't working. Jisung was still angry at them and wouldn't stop shouting.
His ears were blocking out every word and it was making him even more angry.

At that point, he was only screaming and trying to trash around in Chan's hold. The latter threw Changbin a helpless gaze and the man stood up to help him to handle Jisung.

"Bring him to my office. I want to talk with him later." Jeognin said and walked out of the room.

Jisung was held still by Changbin and Chan, while Felix injected him with another dose of some drugs. Within the next few seconds, Jisung's body became limp and Changbin carried him to Jeongin's office.

Seungmin had started crying and was being comforted by Minho and Hyunjin.

"It's okay baby. Sungie is only a bit confused." Hyunjin whispered and Seungmin slowly calmed down.

"Hyunjin... what's going on." Seungmin had slipped out of little space and didn't know what was going on.

"Seungmin, do you know a Jisung?" Minho asked and Seungmin slowly nodded. He was a bit confused about how his friends had found out the name of the person he hadn't seen in years.

"Yes. He was my best friend since we were born. We went to the same school and everything. He would always pick me up in the morning since I lived closer to the school, but one morning he didn't show up. My mom still forced me to school. In the middle of the day, the police picked me up and brought me home.
Someone had seen Jisung being forced into a black van but they couldn't help. Since they spotted the same Van around again my parents were scared for my safety and decided to move.
I still don't know what happened to him but I hope that he is okay..." Seungmin finished.

Minho furrowed his brows.

"How long has it been since this happened?" Seungmin shrugged with his shoulders.

"We were 10 when it happened. So 13 years ago." Hyunjin gasped and stood up. This entire situation felt sick to him. He couldn't believe that Jisung had been in the hellhole for 13 years. No wonder why he was so defensive.

With quick steps, he was out of the room to search for Jeongin.

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When Jisung woke up again he found himself in another baby bed. The room also looked different. Instead of being child-friendly like the room where he first woke up this room looked boring.
It was way too clean for a child's room and not a single toy was lying around.

"Finally awake." Jisung turned his head and looked at Jeongin. The boss was sitting at a table and typing on something.
He pushed his chair back and rolled it over so he could sit infront of Jisung.

"What do you want." Jisung spat out and glared at Jeongin.

"Wow, I'm so attacked by your love, little one." He leaned back and crossed his arms.

"We want to help you Jisung. We can't let you back into the world after the things you experienced. You know nothing about the world!
It changed and you wouldn't be able to survive." Jisung raised an eyebrow.

"I haven't been there for that long. I would be able to survive." Now Jeongin was the confused one.

Did Jisung even know how long he was there or how old he was?

"Jisung. Please answer my question. What year is it and how old are you."

"It's 2018 and I should be 18, why?" Jeongin shook his head.

"It's 2023 and you're 23, Jisung. They kidnapped you 13 years ago."

Jisung felt like someone had dumped a bucket of ice-cold water on him.

It hadn't been a few years, he had been there for more than a decade. 

"What?" He choked out. "But why does it feel so much shorter."

"You probably lost memories. It's normal from all the trauma and abuse you experienced." Jeongin explained and came closer to Jisung.
The boy was shaking, still not believing that he had been fighting this long.

Carefully zJrongin lifted Jisung out of the bed and placed him on his lap, rubbing circles over his back and rocking him back and forth to calm him down.

"What did you do to Minnie? Why does he behave like a child? Do you have something for children or people that behave like a child?" Jisung asked when he had managed to calm down a bit.

"It's called little space. And no it's not sexual like age play or other things. It's a headspace for Seungmin where he is safe from everything.
When we met him a few years ago, a few years after you were taken, he wasn't in a good mental state and now he's much better.
He is doing this out of his free will and is always allowed to slip out of it, but he prefers to be in his headspace." Jeongin explained.

"But why do you keep him here and look after him like this?" Jeongin sighs.

"We're the head of one of the biggest mafias in Seoul and all this violence and abuse would make us go insane. Minnie is the only thing that keeps us sane.
We can look after him and he lets us pamper him the whole time.
And we wish to do the same thing with you. You and Seungmin could play together and we will spoil you. You won't have to give us anything else than your time.
We don't want your body or your fighting skills. Taking care of you is the only thing we want to do."

"Does Seungmin remember me?" Jisung decides to switch the topic. He doesn't want to act like a child for some psychopaths.

"When he's out of headspace." He says. "Do you want to have something to eat?" Jisung's stomach grumbles on command. He doesn't even know when he had a good meal for the last time.

Jeongin stands up and goes into the kitchen with Jisung on his hip.

"Minho, can you warm up Jisung's food." The other man was already in the kitchen and took out a plate from the fridge.

Jisung sees that it's a big plate of oatmeal, but he doesn't care. As long as he gets some food into his system, that's something else than mashed potato, everything is fine.

As the food is warmed up, Minho puts in a big spoon of peanut butter and some berries on top. Jisung's stomach growls even louder when the food is placed infront of him.
He wants to lift his hands to take the spoon but then he realised that he's still drugged.

Jeongin takes the spoon and brings it to Jisung's mouth. But before the spoon can touch his lips he turns his head, not wanting to be fed.

"Jisung, please turn your head back and let me feed you. Didn't I just explain everything to you?" Jeongin raises an eyebrow at Jisung and turns his head to him.

Jisung closed his eyes and opened his mouth. He's angry at himself for giving in so easily, but Jeongin's words had lured him in and he wanted to eat something.
So he either opened his mouth or would eat like a dog and the last one didn't sound very pleasing.

When the food is in his mouth he happily sighs. It tastes heavenly. He hadn't tasted berries since he had been kidnapped and was so used to the taste of mashed potatoes or cold oatmeals without anything added to make it taste a bit better.

Within a few minutes, the oatmeal was empty and Jisung was full. He wanted to eat more, but then he would probably throw up.

"Was it good?" Jisung nodded and moved himself onto a more comfortable position on Jeongin's lap. He could already feel the drugs wearing off.
He could finally use his fingers again while lifting an arm or leg was still impossible.

"Do want to go see Minnie?" Jisung nodded.

This time Minho scooped him up and carried him to the living room. Seungmin was sitting on the couch with Hyunjin, his eyes fixed on the TV. An episode of Tom and Jerry was playing.
Jisung immediately relaxed when he heard Seungmin giggle. He was happy that his friend had found happiness in this, but he knew that he could never.

Minho sat him next to Hyunjin who placed an arm over his shoulder.

"Do you have any requests, little one?" Jisung shook his head. He had forgotten all of his favorite series.

They continued to watch the cartoon and when it ended Seungmin managed to convince Hyunjin to play another one, since Jisung hadn't seen the first half of the last cartoon.
Without a thought Hyunjin played the next cartoon that popped up, forgetting to look at the summary.

The drug in Jisung's body had finally worn off and Jisung could move all of his limps again.

He could've tried to run away but he knew that he would be easily caught and spending some time with Hyunjin and Seungmin wasn't as bad as he thought.

His eyes were glued to the TV until a sudden fighting scene came up. Tom, the cat was inside of a boxing ring, fighting another cat.

Jisung immediately froze and clenched his fists. Hyunjin had noticed it the same second.

"Seungmin! Run and get Binnie or Channie!" He jumped up and turned off the TV but it was already too late.

Jisung's ice-cold gaze had returned. Even if his legs were a bit wobbly he got into position, his gaze trained on Hyunjin.

"Jisung, don't do this! I'm your friend." Hyunjin tried to calm Jisung down with words and keeping his distance but Jisung couldn't listen to him.

With a few steps and a jump he landed on Hyunjin and pushed him to the ground. Even if Hyunjin was a good fighter he didn't have the years of experience Jisung had.

Within a few quick moves, Jisung had put him in a chokehold, cutting off Hyunjin's air. Hyunjin tried his best to shove Jisung off but he was running out of air and he could feel his world becoming dark and blurry.

Suddenly Jisung was pulled off of Hyunjin's nearly limp body. Changbin stood behind him and he, had his arms behind his back, making it harder for Jisung to fight back.
But Jisung knew all the tricks of fighting and kicked his leg back, hitting Changbin's crotch. The man let out a whimper but continued to hold onto Jisung.

"Hyung, I can't hold him any longer!" Chan had also arrived and tried to tilt Jisung's head to the side, pushing the syringe filled with ketamine into his neck and injecting it into Jisung's system.

Jisung screamed and continued to kick but after a few minutes, his body fell limp into Changbin's arms.

Chan was kneeling over Hyunjin and the latter had gained consciousness again.

"It's my fault Hyung. There was a fighting scene and it triggered him. Don't punish him too hard for this, he was trained like this." Hyunjin admitted.

"We'll still put him into isolation. We can't have it happen again." With the help of Chan, Changbin carried him back to Seungmin's room in the basement.

-

Jisung absolutely hated himself. Not only for attacking Hyunjin, but for being triggered so easily. This morning Minho and Chan had visited him, explaining why he had reacted this way.
They wouldn't punish him for being trained this way, but they wanted to get some distance between him and Seungmin, since the little one had been very disturbed.

Jisung could understand it and didn't put up a big fight. He hated being trapped in the room but it started to be better than his cage.

One of them brought him a meal every few hours and when Jisung asked he also received a snack.

But even if they treated him this well Jisung would continue to hate it. He had banged at the door for the last hour and screamed that they should let him to the bathroom, but no one came and it was starting to hurt very bad.

Jisung remembered that he was wearing a nappy, but he was still disgusted with the thought to piss himself and wait for someone to clean him up.

Sobbing he slid down the door, onto the floor, and hugged himself.

"Fucking assholes!" He hissed. He curled up inside of the bed and held the quokka plushie in his arms. He sobbed even harder as it became even harder for him to hold everything.
A few droplets escaped and Jisung stopped cramping up.

He dug his nails into his skin until he finished.

Only a few seconds later the door opened and Hyunjin stepped in. Jisung wanted to glare at him but he still felt guilty for choking him.

"Hey, baby." Hyunjin squatted down infront of him and wiped the tears away. "It's okay Sungie. It also happens to Minnie."

Jisung clutched harder onto the little stuffie and looked at Hyunjin with big eyes.

"Let me bathe you." Hyunjin helped Jisung out of the bed and brought him to the bathroom, where a bubble bath was waiting for him.

Jisung's cheeks burned when Hyunjin undressed him and threw the full nappy away. His gaze never wandered to Jisung's private parts, making the boy a bit more comfortable.

Carefully, so Jisung wouldn't slip out of his grasp, Hyunjin helped Jisung into the bath and kneeled down next to him.

"I'm sorry for attacking you," Jisung mumbled with a lowered head.

"It's okay. I don't blame you for this. I should've known that something like this can trigger you." Hyunjin admitted and patted Jisung's head.

His gaze fell onto Jisung's body. Scars were all over his body, some had already held and wouldn't fade much more, while others were still new from his last fight.
Mindlessly he touched one of the scars. Jisung looked at him with wide eyes and followed every movement of Hyunjin's hand.

When Jisung realized that Hyunjin's touch meant no harm, he leaned into his touch and let Hyunjin's hands explore the scars on his body.

"You're so beautiful, Sungie," Hyunjin whispered and pressed a kiss onto Jisung's hair. Jisung shook his head. He hadn't received a compliment in years and he knew that the scars made him even more ugly.

"You are Jisungie! Don't let that people tell you lies. I bet they all looked like a failed lab experiment." Jisung had to smile at the joke. "Probably some mix of a naked Mole-Rat and a Star-nosed Mole!" Hyunjin added.
He pulled his hands away and Jisung whined and pouted.

"I can give my baby a massage later if he lets me wash him now." Hyunjin teases and Jisung nods happily. Without a fuss Hyunjin manages to wash Jisung completely, giving him a short scalp massage and Jisung loves how Hyunjin spoils him.
It doesn't sit right with him since he had choked Hyunjin a day ago, trying to kill him and now he's sitting naked in a tube while Hyunjin is massaging him.

Hyunjin takes one of the softest towels Jisung has ever used and wraps him inside of it.

When they're back in Jisung's room, the boy notices that someone has placed new clothes and another towel with a bottle of expensive-looking oil and cream.

Hyunjin puts on the nappy and places him on the towel on the floor.

"Only the best for the baby." He whispers when he begins to massage Jisung's back. The boy immediately relaxes when Hyunjin massages him.
It feels like all of his worries are washed away and he closes his eyes, and starts to fall asleep.

The next few days Jisung still gets his daily bath but Hyunjin never intends another massage and Jisung is too shy to ask for it. 
Only Hyunjin and Chan had dropped by. Chan always brought him food and fed him, while Hyunjin played a bit with him and bathed him.

During his alone time in the room, Jisung started to explore the room. He started to read the books or sometimes played with a few of the toys out of boredom.

Today was the same. Hyunjin had just bathed him and Chan should drop by any minute to bring him his food. But when the door was opened, Seungmin and Jeongin came in.
The boss was carrying a tablet in his hands and sat it down on the floor.

Seungmin happily waddled over to Jisung and hugged him. He was sucking on a paci and was carrying a cute stuffed puppy.

"Missed chu, Sungie." He said. The pacifier fell out of his mouth but was caught by the chain that was attached to his onesie.

"Please don't hurt Minnie," Jeongin whispered to Jisung before leaving the room.

Jisung turned to Seungmin, who gave him a shy smile. He was happy to finally spend some time with his best friend.

"Sungie wanna pway or eat?" Seungmin asked and sat down infront of Jisung. The other thought for a moment before pointing to the tablet with snacks on it.
Seungmin's face brightened a bit and he crawled over and pushed the tablet closer.

He grabbed a few of the gummy bears. Jisung took some of the pretzel sticks and munched on them. It was a comfortable atmosphere and Jisung enjoyed the time with his best friend.

At first, he was a bit hesitant when Seungmin asked him to play a few games with him, but no one, not even Jisung was immune to the puppy eyes and the pout.
So he gave in and played with Seungmin what he wanted.

"Can Sungie read Min story?" Seungmin asked and showed Jisung a book. Jisung nodded he had read it a few times already and had also found a liking to the book.

"Once upon a time in a magical forest, there were two inseparable friends named Jiho the Puppy and Hyun the squirrel. They loved to explore the woods together, chasing butterflies and sharing stories under the shade of the old oak tree.

One sunny day, as they were playing near the shimmering pond, a gentle breeze blew through the forest, carrying with it a mysterious swirl of sparkling dust. Before they knew it, Jiho and Hyun found themselves on opposite sides of the enchanted woods.

Jiho ran through meadows, crossed babbling brooks, and climbed small hills, searching for her dear friend. Meanwhile, Hyun scampered over moss-covered rocks, swung from tree branches, and called out for Jiho with every ounce of his tiny voice.

Days turned into nights, and the friends faced challenges in the unfamiliar parts of the forest. Jiho met wise owls and kind butterflies who offered guidance, while Hyun made friends with chatty birds and helpful ants who pointed him in the right direction.

One magical night, under the glow of the full moon, Jiho and Hyun heard a familiar laughter in the distance. They followed the sound until, at the edge of a beautiful meadow, they spotted each other. Jiho's and Hyun's eyes lit up with joy as they rushed into a warm embrace.

The enchanted forest, sensing the strength of their friendship, revealed that the swirling dust had been a playful trick. Jiho and Hyun learned that no matter how far they wandered, their friendship would always guide them back to each other.

From that day on, Jiho and Hyun continued their adventures together, exploring the magical forest with a newfound appreciation for the bond that kept them forever connected. And as the sun set over the trees, Jiho, Hyun, and their forest friends gathered under the old oak tree, sharing tales of their adventures and celebrating the enduring magic of true friendship."

When Jisung finished his eyes felt heavy. Seungmin was placed on his lap, already asleep. Within the next Minute Jisung had also fallen asleep.

"Innie! You have to look at that!" Felix hissed over the phone, forcing Jeongin to come down to Jisung's room. Since none of them had checked the cameras it turned out to be a surprise for Felix as he saw Seungmin sleeping on Jisung's lap, the older also fallen asleep with a book in his hand.

Not even a minute later Jeongin was downstairs and couldn't help but choo at the two boys. Over time he had grown very fond of Jisung and nearly loved him as much as he loved Seungmin.

"They are such cuties, I hope Seungmin can help Jisung to slip into headspace sometime." Felix giggled and came into the room to help Jeongin to carry Seungmin into his own room.

-

When Jisung woke up without Seungmin he was all pouty and wanted to see Seungmin again but Hyunjin and Chan always changed the topic when Seungmin came up.

Jisung knew Seungmin was happy and he started to understand how Seungmin saw them. They weren't treating him like he was made out of glass but still managed to spoil him.

Jisung felt the urge to give in. But he didn't want to.

He wanted to see the world instead of being inside of a kid's headspace, having the same routine and only playing games.

He wanted to be free and make his own choices. Not some people that would decide everything for him.

He wanted to actually live.

Now Jisung was back in his old routine. Hyunjin bathes him once a day and Chan brings him the food.

"Chan! I want to see Seungmin!" He angrily stomped his feet on the ground and Chan couldn't help but give him an amused look.
The angry pout on Jisung's lips made him look so cute.

"Throwing a fit won't help you. Be a good boy and eat your food." With that Chan was out of the room again. Jisung huffed but still ate his food.
Starvation was useless and he loved their food too much to not eat it. After this, he would go for his usual nap.

This time he had a nightmare.
He was completely alone in the battle ring, surrounded by most of the people who had been killed by him. They were shouting at him but there were so many voices, that Jisung couldn't understand much.
But the words that he heard brought tears to his eyes.

Ungrateful

Murderer

You should've died

No one likes you

.
.
.

He screamed and begged them for forgiveness while also calling for Seungmin.

"Min..minnie!" He shouted and opened his eyes. Everything was spinning and the voices of the victims were still ringing in his ears.

"Chan... Hyunjin..! Please make them go away!

Can someone hear me?" He curled up into a ball, shivering from fear.

The door was pushed open and Jeongin stormed in. The worry was visible in his eyes and he immediately went to Jisung it hug him.

"Everything is fine, Sungie. It was only a nightmare. Nothing of that is true." He whispered into Jisung's ear. The boy hiccuped and looked at Jeognin with teary eyes.

"All of them were there... everyone that was killed by me..." Jisung whispered and buried his head in Jeongin's chest.

"They can't harm you, Sungie. And if you feel guilty for killing them, remember that you were forced to do it and they also wanted to kill you." Jeongin reminds him. Jisung sighs. He knows that he was trained to be a killer and that if he hadn't fought back he would've been killed and someone else would be killing like him now.

The boy slowly calms down, still clinging to Jeongin.

"Sung, do you want to take a bath?" Jeongin asks. He knows how the bath
Jisung hesitantly nodded. No one out of Hyunjin and Chan had seen him naked. Probably someone else when they had changed his nappy while he was knocked out, but it wasn't that big of a deal for Jisung.

They never humiliated him and didn't dare to look too long at his private for too long or touch him inappropriately or without consent.
With a smile, Jeongin carried him to the bathroom and let in a bubble bath for Jisung, while the latter stripped himself.

"Jisung, we have some news for you. I wanted to tell you this tomorrow, since we're very busy, but we want to move you during the next few days. You'd be next to Seungmin's room and also our rooms.
It depends on how busy we're going to be but we want you upstairs in the next three to four days." Jeongin suddenly said and Jisung showed his best gummy smile.

"Thank you, Jeongin!" He squealed and hugged Jeongin, not even realizing that he was making everything wet.

Jeongin smiled and patted Jisung's bare back, not caring about the mess.

"I hope you realize that we really care about you and won't take advantage of you. Even if we had a rough start I hope you can start to trust us and open up some more." Jisung smiled and nodded.
He doesn't know how he fell for them this easily but he feels safe and loved around them. He doesn't remember when he felt this comforted and loved the last time.

"I'll trust you Jeongin. I realized that you really mean no harm. It was just with my past and everything, that I thought you would trick me into doing your dirty work or forcing me to be some plaything for you and the rest of the group.
But after our talk, it got a bit clearer for me.
I realised that I know nothing about the world and that it's much better for me to stay with you and the group. I mostly don't know how to use normal things like the stove.

I also saw how much you cared for Seungmin and how well you treated him. You never raised your voice against him and always made sure he was comfortable around you.

And when I nearly killed Hyunjin you didn't even punish me for doing this nor screamed at me. You always kept calm with me and it made me trust you.

But for the future, I don't know if I can be like Seungmin and actually forget my past..." Jisung has tears running down his cheeks while he speaks.
He had thought the last few days about this and noticed how he started to trust them more and more.

He was thankful that they took him under their wing and didn't kill him or force him to live on his own.

Jeongin's heart ached at Jisung's little speech. Now he was the one that was hugging Jisung.

"Baby, you don't have to be like Seungmin and you don't have to forget your past. You have all our support and if you need someone to talk to someone will always be there for you. We want to give you the freedom you deserve and that you can handle.
I hope that you understand how important you are to us." Jisung nodded.

"Jeongin, can we cuddle?" He asked with a bit of blush covering his face. Jeongin sighed. Jisung had wrapped him around his pinky finger and the usually cold-hearted leader couldn't do anything else than strip out of most of his clothes, only leaving his boxers and climbing into the tube behind Jisung.

He wrapped his arms around his waist and pulled Jisung closer to his chest.

Jisung had immediately relaxed in his hold and layed his head onto Jeongin's heartbeat, listening to the heartbeat of the other.
Jeongin mindlessly massaged the other's scalp, sometimes looking at his visibly relaxed face.

An eternity passed until the bathroom door was suddenly opened and a surprised Minho stood there. He raised an eyebrow, questioning what the two had done.

"Relax! He had a nightmare and needed some comfort." Jeognin snarls and rolls his eyes. "He trusts us and seems genuinely happy to be here."

Minho nods and helps Jeongin to lift Jisung out of the tube. They dry and dress him before putting him back into his bed where another surprise is waiting for him.

-

Something wet is falling onto Jisung's cheek. At first, he tries to turn away but when he hears a sudden sob he's awake within seconds.

Seungmin is lying next to him and he looks like he's out of his headspace.

"Is this really you, Sung?" Seungmin sobs.

Jisung smiles. He forgot that only little Seungmin, who didn't know him had met him.

"It's me, Minnie," Jeongin confirms and Seungmin lets out another sob before throwing himself onto Jisung and hugging him to death.

"I thought I would never see you again." He cries out.

"What happened to you in all these years? How did they find you?" Within seconds Seungmin had calmed himself down and started questioning Jisung.

"I was kidnapped and taken to some battle ring. They forced me to fight all this time and I was lucky that they took the organization down and that Chan decided to take me without Jeongin's permission." Jisung explained and Seungmin was even more shocked.
Tears started to roll down his cheeks again.

"I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of this shit." He sobs and holds onto Jisung like he's going to be taken any second.

"It's not your fault Minnie. These assholes did this and now they are dead and I'm with you again. And I won't leave you ever again. Promise!" Seungmin smiled through the tears and hugged Jisung again.

"I missed you so much Sung, I can't even put it into words-"

"Then show it like you always did," Jisung says and makes grabby hands. Seungmin shyly smiles and starts to press kisses all over Jisung's face.
The older happily giggles and holds onto Seungmin's shoulders. Both are happy that they finally found each other again.

Just like in old times, Seungmin kisses every spot on his face. Jisung happily sighs when their lips meet.

Jisung has never learned what kissing someone meant. He had always done it with Seungmin and when he was taken no one taught him anything about all of this.
But it wasn't important. Surviving was more important than learning what a kiss is.

Seugnmin hums when he breaks their kiss and pulls Jisung into another hug.

"Never leave me again, Pablo! I'll personally come after you and drag you back!" Seungmin threatens playfully.

They cuddle for a while and the silence is comfortable but Jisung is becoming too curious about Seungmin's headspace.

"Minnie, how do you do this thing? And how does it feel?" He finally asks.

Seungmin lifts his head and thinks for a moment.

"I have known them for a few years now. I think four, nearly five and I've been their little since at least three years. One day they suggested this to me and helped me to slip.
It was a little weird for me at first since I didn't understand what was happening but now I mostly prefer my headspace over being 'normal'. They always play with me and make sure that in cared for."
Jisung watched Seungmin about his life with a spark in his eyes.

"Minnie, could you maybe help me with this?" Seungmin stopped talking and looked at Jisung in surprise. Jisung slapped a hand over his mouth and flushed red.
He had talked without even thinking.

"You really want to try?" Jisung only nodded.

"Let's go out of bed and play with some toys. It helped me when I was able to play with some toys while someone would guide me through it."
The friends climbed out of the bed but Jisung stopped before they went to the toys and picked up the squirrel plushie. Seungmin smiled and placed himself next to Jisung.

"I want you to relax now, Sung. Try to clear your mind and try to remember the happy memories we made in our childhood.
For example, remember how we watched our favorite series and tried our best to be just so our parents wouldn't notice that we weren't asleep yet?l
Jisung softly smiled and closed his eyes. He remembered it again. It was a precious memory.

"Is it right if I feel a bit drowsy?" Seungmin hums.

"Yes. It might feel a little weird for you but it's fine. Just relax and don't try to fight it. Let go of all your bad thoughts and think of playing with me."

With Seungmin guiding him through everything, Jisung can slowly feel himself slipping into a different headspace. It feels like all of the stress from the previous days and years is falling off him, just washed away."

"Sungie?" Seungmin whispers and Jisung opens his eyes. The other smiles when he sees that his best friend has slipped.

"Min Min?" Jisung looks at him with big doe eyes. The, now little, Jisung crawls onto the other's lap and snuggles into his arms.

"Does Sungie want to play with Minnie?" Jisung rapidly nods and Seungmin helps the little one to sit up. Jisung looks a bit helpless and lost in the new experience but Seungmin can see how much he loves it already.

Within a few minutes, Seungmin also slips into the headspace and crawls over to Jisung, who's already sitting in between the toys and picking one to play with.

"Minnie? Can we pway this?" Jisung holds up a puzzle and Seungmin nods.

For the next few minutes, the littles are engulfed in solving every puzzle they find, until the door is opened and Minho and Changbin come in.
Seungmin quickly shows them the puzzle they solved and the two praise the littles for it.

"Do you want to come up and eat breakfast with us? And if you behave we will let you play in the garden." Seungmin beams and drags Jisung up.
The little is a bit wobbly on his legs and if it hadn't been for Minho standing next to him, he would've fallen onto the ground again.

"Careful, Minnie. Sungie is still new to this." Changbin lightly scolds Seungmin who quickly apologised.

"Sungie wan' piggyback wide!" The little demands and makes grabby hands. Changbin sighs and gets onto the ground to let Jisung climb up on his back with Minho's help.
What he wouldn't do for the littles.
Seungmin also makes grabby hands at Minho who picks him up like usual.

The two carry up the littles to the kitchen and place both littles onto two extra chairs. The food is already reheated since they couldn't help but watch the two friends interact after being apart for years now.
The kiss surprised them but they didn't mind. It was heartwarming to watch when Seungmin guided Jisung through everything and helped him to slip into headspace.

"Did you sleep well, little princes?" Felix asks teasingly and wants to press a kiss on both of their cheeks. Seungmin, who's already used to it lets him, but Jisung is quick to shove the squirrel in between his cheek and Felix's mouth.

The others laugh when Felix's lips meet the plushie and Jisung whines at the attention.

He had been promised food, not kisses!

He pouts when Hyunjin also comes for a kiss, but Jisung also manages to successfully block his attempt.

Finally, the breakfast is placed on the table and Jisung doesn't know what he wants to try first. Everything looks so yummy.

"Sungie, what do you want? Any specific wishes?" Jisung points to the Bibimbab. Chan puts a big spoon on his plate and places it infront of Jisung.
He helps the little one to eat so he won't make a big mess.

After breakfast, Jisung is so stuffed that he constantly whines about his stomach hurting.

"You shouldn't have tried everything, baby. We still have lunch and dinner left." Changbin reminds him as he helps Jisung in the living room.
Seungmin had convinced their caregivers to let them watch a few episodes of some series.

This time Changbin would be staying with them and looking at the summary of each episode before playing. So nothing would go wrong.

Seungmin and Jisung had a great time watching the episodes. Both had snuggled up on Changbin's side and the older was happy that Jisung had somehow become comfortable with them over such a short time.

After the third episode, Changbin turned the TV off and brought the littles outside.

Jisung was stunned when he saw the whole garden. He hadn't seen so much nature for 13 years.

The garden was very huge, you could at least build two castles on it, and it had perfect spots for playing hide and seek.

"Sung wan' play ball?" Seungmin asked and rolled a ball towards Jisung. Since it had been some time since Jisung had seen a ball for the last time, he inspected it at first, and also wanted to taste test it but Changbin managed to prevent him from this.

He sat Jisung on the grass and the little one let out a delighted noise as he started rubbing his hands over the grass, letting out small giggles when it tickled his palms. However, with his current attention span, he soon lost interest in touching the grass and grabbed the ball again.

Changbin showed Jisung how to roll the ball towards Seungmin and the two littles exited lay played the game.

They had a nice time outside. It didn't take long for Jisung to completely warm up to Changbin, who really was the best when it came to occupying energetic littles. He could make up all sorts of games on the spot and, considering Jisung's short attention span, the man's creativity and endless energy truly were a blessing.

They spent about two hours outside, constantly switching between directly playing with the new little, and letting him crawl around to explore the whole garden.
Shortly before Hyunjin came to pick Jisung up for his usual bath, Seungmin had the great idea to introduce Jisung to hide and seek.

Changbin groaned and tried to stop the two but Jisung had already started to count while Seungmin stuck his tongue out and ran away.

And like Changbin had thought, it ended in a disaster.

It was Changbin's turn to count and he had been searching for 10 minutes and couldn't find the littles.

"Hyung? Where's Sungie? I want to bathe him." Hyunjin came to pick up Jisung up but the little and his friends were nowhere to be found.

"Can't find them. Seungmin convinced him to do a round of hide and seek and I bet he made the perfect hiding spot for him and Seungmin and wanted to try it out." Hyunjin smirked. He knew how he would be able to find the littles.

"Minnie, do you want to take a bath with Sungie?" He shouted and within seconds he heard a loud "Yes" as a response.

He and Changbin walked in the direction of where the sound came from and finally found the littles in the middle of the small sunflower field, trying their best to hurry out of it.
Both of their onesies were covered in dirt and other unidentifiable things.

"My, my, you're all dirty! I think it's time for a bath, hm?" The littles nodded and before the caregivers could save themselves and their clothes the littles were already in their arms.

"This was my last clean shirt!" Changbin whined and tried to peel Jisung off, but the little one had koala-ed himself onto him and wouldn't let go.

"Binnie, wanna come with us? Since you're responsible for how dirty he is," teased Hyunjin and held Seungmin on his hip.  "And you're also not the cleanest." He eyed the buff man from head to toe.

Changbin rolled his eyes, but nodded and followed Hyunjin with Jisung in his arms.

"Chan-hyung, I'll borrow some of your clothes, since SOMEONE forgot they were on wash duties!" Changbin shouted through the living room, hoping that the older one heard him, but he absolutely didn't care if he didn't."

While he got the clothes, Hyunjin let in a bath and also got out a few of Seungmin's toys. Both of the littles were already sitting in the tube and playing with the toys when Changbin came into the room.

"You gave them toys and bubbles?" He asked and Hyunjin nodded, already regretting his choice to put the two of them in the same bath with bubbles and toys.

"They should definitely make edible bubbles. Sungie wanted to try them but Seungmin's bad experiences with this stopped him." Changbin nods and kneels down next to Hyunjin, pulling Seungmin closer.
They give the littles a quick scrub and let them play in the tube while they take a short shower.

When it's lunchtime, both of the littles are extremely tired and in a bad mood since Hyunjin and Changbin made them stay up after the bath.

Both of them are cuddling on the couch, close to falling asleep when Minho calls them for lunch. They pout and cling to each other, not wanting to get up.
Suddenly Jeongin stands next to them, his arms are crossed infront of his chest and one eyebrow is raised.

"Minnie, I thought you were a good boy..." He starts and within a second Seungmin sits up. He gives Jeongin a nasty look and drags Jisung to Minho.

Jeongin rolls his eyes and follows them. He knows Seungmin hates to be called a bad boy but sometimes he's bratty enough to be one.

After lunch, they finally get their well-deserved nap. For the first time, Jisung sees Seungmin's room. It's huge but perfect for him.
A queen-sized bed is standing at the wall and since Seungmin often slept there when he was a little, Chan had built the bed a bit differently so he wouldn't be able to fall out.
On the open side of the bed is a cutely painted board, which often saved Seungmin from falling out.

When Jisung wakes up he's out of little space.

He smiles when he sees Seungmin still sleeping. The younger has his arms and legs wrapped around Jisung, spooning him.

Jisung feels too comfortable and relaxed for his liking.

He officially gave in. But it felt good and he knows that he wants to do it again.

Carefully he peels Seungmin's arms and legs off him and lets him hug a pillow. He quietly slips out of the room and searches for one of the guys.

The house is so big that he doesn't know how he suddenly finds himself in Jeognin's office. The other is as surprised as him, but doesn't mind and opens his arms for Jisung.

"Hi, baby." He mumbles as Jisung climbs onto his lap and makes himself comfortable.

"Hi, Innie." The nickname just slipped out of Jisung and he looks into Jeongin's face but the other doesn't react to the nickname.
The others also call him this, so why should Jisung not do it,

"How was it with Minnie?" He asks instead and rests his hands on Jisung's back.

"Very comfy and relaxing. A bit weird at first, but then I got used to feeling a bit floaty and I want to do it again." He admits and Jeongin happily smiles.

"Thank you for trying it out and wanting to stay with us." Jisung nods. He doesn't know why Jeongin is thanking him. "It really makes me happy to see you this happy again and Seungmin is also happy to have his friend back again."

Jisung finally understands. Jeongin isn't thanking him only for becoming their little but also for making Seungmin happier.
They know that if Jisung demanded to leave now he would break Seungmin. They hadn't seen each other for half of their lives and now they were finally reunited and could .

And he also understands what Jeongin meant yesterday, when he said that they wanted to give him the freedom that he deserved and could handle. Then this is the freedom they can give him and that he can handle.

If they wouldn't have kept him he wouldn't be able to be free. He would be sent into some sort of clinic where he would be forced to follow a routine that he didn't like and would be pumped full of drugs, which were "medications" that would numb him and make him an empty shell.

Out there he had no one. Here he had Seungmin and his other friends. They supported him and he was happy.

He was free.

He didn't have to worry about money, a roof over his head, and his social life. Even if he wouldn't see anything else than the house or the garden for the rest of his life he would gladly choose this life over everything.

"Thanks for giving me the freedom that I can handle." He whispered and Jeongin smiled. Jisung had finally understood their intentions and seemed willing to stay with them for the future.

"I want to stay here if you want. But I want some rules or at least a compromise." Jeongin raises an eyebrow but nods, signaling for Jisung to continue.

"I don't want to always be in the headspace like Minnie is. I can play with him if he's little but I don't feel ready to slip as often as Minnie right now.
And I also want to be able to choose a bit more what I want. I like it when you pick my outfits and I find them cute but I don't want only have to walk around in onesies. Some pants and a shirt or hoodie are also okay. But I want to be able to control my life a bit more.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be in dependent so I can run away one day, but I want to finally be able to control a bit of my life again after all these years." Jisung's voice breaks at the last words and Jeongin quietly comforts him.

"I understand you, Sung. If I'd be in your place I'd also want some control of my life back. If you want we can take you out one day.
It's a shame that you haven't seen the world for this long. You only saw these monsters that wanted you to kill.." Jeongin's voice sounds bitter when he thinks back in time.
If he could he would kill then people another time for hurting his precious Jisung.

"We'll give you the freedom of slipping whenever you want and doing things you want around the house. You deserve it. And if you want you can tell us in the evening if you want to wear a onesie or some pants the next day and we can still pick them out for you.

I promised you that we will spoil you and your opinion counts in that. If you don't want something then we expect you to speak up. Seungmin also does. We will respect your opinion but you also have to keep in mind that we sometimes are right and that even if you want this we can't do it.
For example, if we'd go out we may spot dangerous people and want you to be safe. So you have to listen to us and not get pouty or bratty." Jisung nods and holds out his pinky.

"I'll promise that I'll speak my opinion but that I'll also listen to you." Jeongin links their pinkies and gives them a short shake.

"Do you want to wear something different now?" Jisung blinks but gives a shy nod. How can Jeongin read his thoughts?

Jeongin picks him up and brings him to his room and opens the walk-in closet.

"You're free to choose anything from the right side. There are the comfortable clothes. Unless you want to dress up." Jeongin wiggles with his eyebrows and Jisung walks into the closet with a red head.

There are way too many things to choose from so he goes with plain black sweatpants and a dark grey hoodie.

"Do you want to let the nappy on? We won't force you to wear it." Jisung's head peaks up. He has started to adjust to that annoying thing in between his things but he would take any chance to wear normal underwear again.

"I think I'll go with normal underwear for now but if I slip it would be better if you'd change it to the nappy." Jeongin hummus and gives him a pair of his boxers.

Jisung quickly changes the clothes. It finally feels normal for him.

The clothes are a bit big on Jisung's small forms but he doesn't mind. It's as comfy as the onesie and if Jeongin doesn't pay attention to his wardrobe it'll be robbed.

"You look even cuter than in the onesie." Jeongin teases and gives the boy a back hug, showing him how big the clothes are on him.
Blush tints Jisung's cheeks at the compliment and he looks down at Jeongin's strong arms wrapped around his small waist.

Butterflies dance in his stomach and he intervenes in their hands.

Jeongin wants to say something but at the same moment, Felix comes up the stairs and smirks as he sees the two.

"Minho wants you to come down. Dinner's ready." He says and turns around to go down. Jeongin rolls his eyes and lets go of Jisung.
The boy immediately pouts and turns around.

"Piggybackride." He demands and gives Jisung his best puppy eyes. As if he needs them for Jeongin.

"My poor heart..." Jeongin mumbles and goes on his knees so Jisung can climb up his back.

During dinner, they tell the rest of them the new compromise and decide to go shopping the next day since Chan has a very good gut feeling that Jisung will rob one of their wardrobes otherwise.

So the next day Jisung wakes up way too early, already too excited to finally see the world.
It's only 3 am when he is in Jeongin's room and jumps on his bed to wake him up.

"Innie, when can we go?" He asks while shaking the poor guy.

"It's the middle of the damm night, change your clothes and go to bed," Jeongin grumbles, clearly half asleep. Jisung glared at him and stood up, angrily stomping over to the closet.
If Jeongin won't go shopping with him now then he'll just rob his closet again.

Dressed in different sweatpants and a shirt he slips under the covers next to Jeongin and pushes the other closer to the wall so he has more space.
As Jisung wraps his arms around Jeongin's chest the other also wraps his arms around Jisung and pulls him closer.

Within a few seconds, Jisung is asleep again.

"Sungie!" Jisung's eyes fly open and he is even more startled when he looks into Jeongin's face. Only then does he realize that he's hugging the other.
With a quick apology, he lets go of him and scoots to the other end of the bed, nearly falling out.

Jeongin laughs when Jisung yelps and falls on his butt and helps him on the bed.

"Why am I here?" Jisung wonders and tries to remember when he wanders over to Jeongin's room.

"Oh, my baby was getting very impatient and wanted to go shopping in the middle of the night." Jeongin teases and ruffles through Jisung's hair.

"I'm sorry for disturbing you." The boy mumbles but Jeongin shakes his head.

"It's fine. I liked your company. Minnie isn't coming over this often anymore and you're not always rolling around so you didn't disturb me that much." Jeongin explains.

"Innie, have you seen-..." Chan suddenly storms into the room, searching obviously for Jisung. 

"Oh, he's here. Then everything is fine. Breakfast is ready in 15 minutes and we'll leave directly after this." With that Chan closes the door again.

Jisung blinks and shrugs. Without another word he stands up, going for Jeongin's closet to rob some clothes again.

"It was a good idea to take you shopping today. Otherwise, I won't have any clothes left at the end of the week." Jeongin grumbles and also stands up.

This time Jisung chooses some normal pants with a shirt and jacket.

"Jisungie found a liking to your clothes." Hyunjin teased when he saw the two coming into the kitchen and smirked. "That's innies favorite hoodie," he explains, and Jisung blushes.

"Could've said something.." he mumbles and fiddles with the hoodie, but doesn't show any intentions of giving it back. Jeongin could be happy if he would get it back.

Jeongin glared at the boy and sat Jisung on his chair.

The breakfast was surprisingly calm. Seungmin wasn't in little space and had started teasing Changbin about everything the poor guy did.

"Minnie, do you want to go shopping later?" Chan asked with a raised brow and Seungmin let out a huff before focussing on his food.

"Jisung, we're going to split up when we go shopping since it's safer. With whom do you wanna go?" Jisung wants to pout but then remembers the promise he and Jeongin made.

"You can decide I'll put up with anyone." He said and stuffed his mouth full of food, making his cheeks stick out. Jeongin pokes one of them and Jisung shyly smiles.

"If you don't decide then I'll take Minho, Lix, and Binnie with me," Seungmin speaks up and distracts the two a bit. "Wouldn't want to separate the live birds." He mumbles after that and Changbin has to suppress his laugh.

Jeongin wants to comment on this but they all know that Seungmin is right. No one had ever managed to wrap Jeongin this easily around their finger.

-

Jisung happily skips through the mall, holding Hyunjin's and Chan's hands. Jeongin had to stay behind since he had to make an important phone call.

"Channie, can we go there?" He looks at the older with puppy eyes and points to a shop where many skirts are displayed in the front window.
Chan clears his throat and looks at Hyunjin, who only shrugs with his shoulders.

"I don't want to always wear a onesie or things in little space but I think I would like this." Now they understand. Jisung had probably forgotten the 'gender norms' over the years and would wear whatever he wanted.

"Whatever our baby wants," Hyunjin says and drags the others into the store.

"Choose whatever you want," Chan says and goes outside to wait for Jisung.

Jisung doesn't let go of Hyunjin's hand and drags him everywhere and also uses him to carry all of his choices.

When Jeongin finally comes into the store, poor Hyunjin is fully stacked with clothes. The staff is already giving them worried glances, since Hyunjin can't see where he is going.

"Sung, baby. Why don't you throw the things on before Hyunjin's arms give out? Jisung nods and drags Hyunjin over to the d hanging rooms and immediately kicks him out when he has unloaded the clothes.

"You can have him," Hyunjin grumbles and rubs his hurting arms.

"You can't deny that he's absolutely cute a nod deserves to be spoiled," Jeongin says and Hyunjin rolls his eyes.

"That's not what I meant and you know this. You have your eye on him and he likes you. If he doesn't like you then why is he this affectionate with you?
You allow him everything, things you didn't allow Seungmin, and you also find him cute and spoil him." Hyunjin patts Jeongin's back. "Try it. He isn't like the last one."

Jeongin nods and hoods his tears back. He doesn't want to cry when he thinks of his first and last boyfriend. The one that sold them out to another mafia.
They were lucky enough to have a plan if anything like this happened.
Even if they hadn't lost much of their resources and fighters, Jeongin lost the most important of himself and became the cold leader of stray kids until they found Seungmin.

Suddenly Jisung comes out of the dressing room. He is wearing a pink skirt with white thigh-high socks and a white sweater.

"This is so cute." Jeongin compliments and Jisung gives him a spin.

"Sung also finds it pwetty." He babbles and Jeongin's eyes widen.

"Sung, baby, go back in the room and change into your normal clothes. I'll buy everything for you but we have to get out of here." Jeognin pushes Jisung back into the changing room.
He can't have people see Jisung in his little space. He knows that they will only comment on it. 

"But sung wan' wear this now!" Jeongin hears the little stomp in the room and wants to slap himself. He should've known that Jisung would probably be overwhelmed and with all of this cute thing he would be most likely to slip.

"Sung, Innie has to pay for it. Then you can wear it. So please give me the clothes and then I'll pay for them and give them back to you." He pleads. Jisung huffs on the other side but strips out of the clothes and throws them at Jeongin.

Jeongin hurries to pay for the things and doesn't mind the weird look from the staff.

Before Jeognin opens the door he realises that Jisung will go out in the clothes. Without another thought, he goes back to get Jisung a pair of leggings.
No one is allowed to look at his baby!

"Sung? Can Innie come in?" Jisung opens the door and lets Jeongin in.

"You can wear them but I want you to also wear the leggings. For your safety." Jisung understands. He knows that Jeongin loves him and that he will probably be right with this suggestion.
With the help of Jeongin, the little is quickly dressed and already up for new adventures while Chan and Hyunjin have to get his other clothes out of the cabin to pay for them.

"Innie, sung wan' stuffie!" Jisung doesn't wait for a response and drags Jeognin over to a kid's store. Jeongin sighs and lets Jisung do what he wants. He knows that they won't be coming here any time soon and Jisung deserves to experience a bit more than their house and harder and the memories of his cage and the battle ring.

"Innie, look! It's chu." Jisung comes back to Jeongin and shows him a fox plushie. It really looks like Jeongin. He remembers when Seungmin came here the first time and wanted to have the squirrel since it reminded him of someone.

"And they also 'ave Binnie, Minnie, jinnie, Channie, Lixie, and Min!" He exclaims and forces Jeongin the follow him. And the plushies indeed represent their little group.

"Does Sung want all of them?" Jisung eagerly nods and gives Jeongin puppy eyes. Jeongin nods and Jisung picks out one of the plushies out, out of the quokka since he has one already.

As Jeongin pays for the plushies, Jisung wanders off a bit and as he looks at another plushie he suddenly feels a hand grab his butt.
His body automatically freezes. The boys would never do this, Minho would sometimes slap someone's ass but they didn't grab each other's ass.

"You're such a beautiful chick." A dark voice whispers into Jisung's ear. That man is clearly mistaking him for a woman and what's such a type of man even doing in a child's store?

"Hey." Jeongin's voice is loud and he definitely receives the attention of the entire store. "I don't want your disgusting hands on him. So back off!" The man flinches at the tone but doesn't let go of Jisung's ass.

"Who are you to tell me what I should do and this cute chick clearly is clearly single." Jeongin is starting to question every choice in his life by now.

"I hope that the entire store heard that this man can't see the difference between a man and a woman. A bit embarrassing, huh?" Laughter erupts and the people in the store can't hold it in anymore.
Finally, the man takes a glance at Jisung's face and takes a big step back when he realizes that he accidentally hit on a guy.

"Sorry," he mumbles and rushes out. Jeongin immediately engulfed the little in a hug and pressed a kiss on the forehead.

"You're safe, Sung. Innie won't leave your side ever again." Jisung cuddles himself closer to Innie.

"Sungie wan' home and cuddwe with Innie." He whispered as he clinged into the other.

"Then let's find the others and go home." Before Jisung can say anything else, he gets lifted up and Jeongin carries him out of the store.
He ignores the stares from some of the people and sits down with Jisung. He texts Hyunjin and Chan to hurry their asses to their location and Jisung starts to get interested in the phone.

"Want to watch a show until Channie and jinnie arrive?" Jisung nods and shifts so he's completely sitting on Jeongin's lap.
Jeongin chooses another episode of Tom and Jerry and draws small circles on Jisung's back to keep him calm.

As Chan and Hyunjin arrive, they find Jisung curled up on Jeongin's lap, completely engulfed in the cartoon that's playing on the phone.

"Some asshole touched him and he's a bit shaken up and wants to go home," Jeongin explains and hands them the bag with the stuffies. "Call the others if they want to come home too, but if Seungmin wants they can stay until dinner."  With that Jeongin picks Jisung up and carries Jisung to their car.
The little continues watching the cartoon and hands the phone to Hyunjin when the episodes has ended.

They helped Jisung climb in the car and forced their driver to hurry up since Jisung was feeling very uncomfortable in the seat and they only wanted the best for their baby.

"What do you want to play later?" Chan asks. Jisung looks over to the bag that's filled with the stuffies.

"Wan' pway with stuffie an' Innie and cuddle!" Hyunjin gasped and clutched his chest.

"Hyung, he's already picking favorites." He teases and fake cries. Jisung's eyes widen and he wants to crawl over to Hyunjin but Jeognin holds him.

"Sungie not picking, but Sung never pwayd with Innie." He pouted and Hyunjin's nodded.

"It's okay if you want to play with Jeongin. I was just teasing."

When they arrive Jeongin insists on carrying Jisung again and the little happily lets him.

"Sung, want to see a surprise?" Jisung nods and Jeongin glares at Chan. They didn't want to show him this until the evening when all of them would be there.

"Remember when I suggested for you to get your own room?" Jeongin asked and Jisung nodded until he realised what Jeognin was implying.

"Sungie's new room???" His eyes were big and Jeongin could swear that there was a spark in his eyes.

"Yes, our baby deserves a new room and it's right next to mine,"  Jeongin says and brings the little one up to his new room.
It's indeed next to Jeognin's and just like Jisung had imagined his room.

The walls were white, leaving much space to draw on them, while the floor was covered in a light blue carpet. Just like he knew from Seungmin's bed, his queen-sized bed was pushed against and an unpainted board was on the free side of the bed.
The room isn't only huge, but also has a walk-in closet, which had been filled with the clothes they bought since Chan had sent them home.

"That's for Sungie?" Jisung gasps and is too stunned to bring anything else out. His eyes are wide and he can't close his mouth.
When the biggest wave of shock is over, he comes to the trio and hugs all of them.

"Thank chuuu!" Chan smiles and pats his head. Hyunjin and Jeongin are also more than satisfied with his reaction.

"Does Sung want to play now?" Jeongin asks and lifts the bag with the stuffies, but the little one shakes his head.

"Sung wan' cuddles!" He said and waddles over to the bed. Jeongin smiles and turns around and faces the other boys.

"Don't worry, we'll leave you alone," Hyunjin says and throws Jeongin a fake smile while dragging Chan out. Jeongin rolled his eyes and turned to Jisung, who had started to undress himself.

"Sung, what are you doing?" Jisung furrows his brows and looks down, as if the answer isn't clear.

"Sung wan' appa's clothes!" He explains and Jeongin can't believe his ears. Jisung wasn't a little for long and already trusts him so much that he feels comfortable enough to call him Appa.

"One moment, appa will grab some clothes." And with that, Jeongin runs out of the room, right into Hyunjin and Chan who haven't made it further than his room.

"He called me appa!" Jeongin beams with happiness and Hyunjin comes to him to hug him.

"You deserve this, Innie! Don't let your head get in your way and accept how much Sungie adores you." Jeongin nods and disappears into his room to grab the clothes he promised Jisung.

"It's too good to be true," Chan mumbles and rests his head on Hyunjin's shoulder. Hyunjin hums. It wasn't easy when they had to whiteness when Jeongin's heart was shattered into pieces and watched him grow into a cold and cruel leader.

"It's the best that could happen to him. Maybe he can start over and be our Jeognin, just like he was before." Hyunjin nearly cries when he tries to remember the last time Jeongin had smiled before they had helped Jisung.

Back with Jeongin and the little one, Jeongin had dressed Jisung in his clothes and also put on a nappy since it had been some time since the little had been in the bathroom. 

Both of them were lying on the bed and Jisung was cuddled up into Jeongin's warm eyes. The other had just finished reading Jisung's favourite story and both of them were very tired.
This day had drawn all the energy out of the little and even Jeongin had to admit that he was feeling very exhausted today.

"Sung wan' sleep now..." Jisung mumbled and yawned to underline his words. Jeongin hummed and pulled Jisung closer, which was impossible unless Jisung would somehow enter his body. (Challenge: Don't think dirty!
Most of you probably failed, but anyway...)

"Promsie appa to eat a good breakfast tomorrow." Jisung nods and sticks out his pinky finger and dozes off while Jeongin seals their promise.

"Goodnight, Sung"

"Night, Appa." Jisung mumbles and closes his eyes, drifting into the dreamland.

Soo, I got a few requests to write a part 2 or 3 of some chapters, so comment which chapter you'd want to have another part.