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Your PoV
Most people start to judge when they first met him.
"He is your Crush? I mean he is good looking and a god but he is really arrogant, angry, manipulative and mean, you know? Personally, I wouldn't start a relationship with him. It for sure would be a toxic one." Nowadays, I just nod and ignore these words because they don't know the Ranmaru I know.
They only see the outer part of him and start to judge the outer facade he tries to hold up so desperately. It is his inner soft warmth that makes me smile everyday and that causes the giddy feeling when I hug him.
On one side I could understand these people. Yeah, he is mean and arrogant but aren't we all imperfect? You can't expect from someone to be perfect if you aren't perfect yourself.
My mother used to say that 'every pot has its own fitting lid' and I pretty much agree on that. Before I can see his owner, Nobunaga jumps into my arms so that I am barely able to catch him in time .
"Whoa, hey Nobunaga. You know that you shouldn't scare me like that!" I laugh as the pet rubs his soft cheeks against mine. The dog shows me everytime how much he likes me because he forces me to cuddle with him every time we see each other.
"Nobunaga, Come back!" Ranmaru appears behind a corner with an angry face that disappears in a fast manner when he starts to recognize me.
"Oh, hey Y/n. I didn't know that you would be in the park. I thought that Nobunaga is starting to jump at random people again." He gives me a small smile before he starts to stroke his pet. The dog god is so close that I could feel his breath tingling my face. Luckily, it smells like mint and something different and is not stinky like the breath from Nobunaga.
"No problem. I was actually on the way to you because I wanted to ask if we should do something together." I look up at the sky and analyse the weather. The sun shines brightly and it was the right amount of warmth to not break out in sweat.
When my gaze hits his face, Ranmaru looks down at his pet with his thinking face. His blue eyes catch the sunlight in a way that make his eyes seem like an ocean. His red hair reminds me of soft rubies but I hold my urge to touch it back. It would be so awkward if I would grab his hair and start to play with it out of nowhere. Besides that, Nobunaga would fall on the floor.
He hums and lifts these ocean eyes to look at my face.
"What do you have in mind?" Ranmaru's hand grabs the necklace he bought me for my birthday and holds it into the sunlight until it starts to project rainbows in every direction.
The biggest diamond is in the colour of my eyes while the smaller ones mirror the colour of his hair and eyes in a beautiful and unique balance. The necklace combines our two features and melts them into something entirely different.
"You wear it." He has the same amount of charm as a stone.
"Yeah, because it is important to me since you are the one who gifted it to me." His blue eyes fixate mine and for a moment I think that he will kiss me. Ranmaru's stare is intense and many emotions mirror in them but they change too fast.
In the end the only thing he says is 'cool'.
Do I really want to have a stone as a boyfriend? I start to think that even the sand under my feet has more potential to be romantic as Ranmaru has.
"Yeah, cool...Well uhm originally I wanted to have ice cream but-"
"Sounds good," he grabs my arm and drags me into the direction of the store.
"I slowly understand why people assume that you are mad - I mean angry." He turns his head around to face me with a lifted eyebrow.
"They say I am mad?"
"Mad, bad, sad, angry. It's all the same, isn't it?" I close my eyes and decide to show him my most innocent smile.
"No, these are very contrary emotions. Are you that dumb? I thought I finally met a person that has a sense of understanding but-" He talks all the way to the ice cream shop about it
"- I guess I guessed wrong again." Ranmaru tells the cashier which ice cream he wants and stares at me when I tell the dude what I want.
"Thank you!" I hand him the money and smile friendly. We leave the shop and sit down on a Parc bench to enjoy the ice cream.
In the meanwhile, Nobunaga places his head in my lap while his tail twitches in Ranmarus lap. "Say Y/n, what is your type?" He looks at me with cold eyes but that leaves me cold as well.
"What do you mean by type?" I lick my ice again while I wait for and answer.
"What type of guys do you like?"
Huh? My sudden confusion stopped me from eating my ice. Ranmaru started to look annoyed but that still didn't answer my upcoming questions.
"Why do you ask? The appearance of a guy is relatively. Certain features can look good on certain people but I want to date someone who makes me feel secure and warm. Who gives me the feeling of being imperfectly perfect, you know?" His irritated face gave me an answer.
"No, uhm how do I explain...Nobody is perfect and I know that. Don't look at me as if I excluded you. Don't be offended but you are also not perfect, my dear Ranmaru. My partner should give me the feeling of being perfect even with all the mistakes I made and scars or other things I have that I may don't like. You see, it is rather about the feelings that person gives me rather than their looks." He slowly starts to understand what the message means.
"Ah."
"Yeah, but why do you want to know that?" Before Ranmaru could answer, Nobunaga jumps into my lap and starts to lick my face.
"Nobu- what on earth?" The pet owner hands me a handkerchief so that I can clean my face.
"Sorry." He stands up and starts to walk further into the park.
"Oi, Ranmaru! Wait!" I pick the dog up in my arms and run after the dog god. He doesn't turn around or makes a sign that he will wait.
"What was that with the questions? Does it seem like I am interested in anyone? Or was it just curiousity?" I bite on my tongue to prevent a mean comment that forms in my head.
On one site I fell in love with him long ago because of his strong sense of justice, some special moments and other things but on the other site it seems like he is only interested in himself, doesn't give a shit about others and is easily annoyed amd angry with people. Even with me and that makes me question myself and makes me even feel insecure and unsure. I have really no idea why I feel complete when I am with him.
Ranmaru suddenly stops and turns around to face me. "I am not sure what to say about this but I think that this topic is now over."
The god turns around again with angry facial features. "I hate this side on you." Maybe it's strawberry week again or I am slowly starting to get really annoyed by his manner.
"What?" He makes a grimace and faces me again.
"I am slowly really annoyed by your comments. You know what? It pisses me off! A lot! And you don't even get it when people turn insecure because you are angry at them without a reason!", he looks confused for a second before his eyes start glistening of anger.
"Y/n-"
"Listen to me this once! I hate that you are such an angry person and that it seems like you aren't concerned about anyone! Why don't you get that it hurts me everytime you do that because I fucking love you ,goddamn idiot! I care about you a lot but you almost won't show any interest in me! Do you know how frustrating that is?!" My breath gets heavier as I watch him slowly processing all the things I just threw again his head.
To be honest, it was part of my daily goals to confess to him but I originally wanted to make it different. Well, at least I won't be so frustrated with myself in the future.
Ranmaru looks like a stone while I await his answer. "That really must be frustrating, but I am interested and concerned about you. A lot actually." His facial features soften as he walks towards me. The man in front of me grabs my hand and kisses it lightly.
"I love you too and I try to give you signals in my own perfectly imperfect way that you mean mire to me than other people on this planet. Please, don't be mad." My anger is blown away. Ranmaru takes a closet step to me and hugs me.
"Now I am overwhelmed and don't know how to react." He lets a small chuckle escape from his lips, takes my hand and leads me through the Parc into the sun set.
I haven't realized that it is already that late.
"But do you know that you looked like a little angry gremlin while you screamed at me? It was kind of amusing ti be honest..." When I hit him lightly on his arm, he chuckled and let me scolding him.
"Ranmaru, you little shit! I will personally end your life one day and-" But he just laughs and watches the sunset.
In the end I reached my goal, so it was a really productive day! Yay!
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Hello!
I am finally active again! This was a request by maniac181. I hope that you like it and that the things I wrote were right because I haven't watched the Anime yet.
Anyways, I wish you all a happy late new years eve and hope that this year will be great!
Bye!
published by sweetsnowman on 6.01.2023