*in which remus lupin, your dada teacher, notices that you, one of harrys best friends, are one weird nut.*
the daddy issues be popping this chapter. like literally, literally.
mostly remus x reader (platonic types) but also some order of the pheonix x reader.
**
she was a rather quiet one. she hung out with harry, ron and hermione all the time, and she would talk to them, but if somehoe they got into a conversation with someone sge didnt know, she went as silent as she could.
it took her a long time to get to know people. or to trust people. it was wild, but it took her very long to feel comfortable enough to talk around people.
her first friend at hogwarts was harry. she didnt really know how they became friends, and neither did he, but they didnt care.
she was quiet but very, very smart. and very mature. she knew that she didnt have to say much, she knew that she could keep to herself and it would be alright.
she liked harry because he, like her, knew whats its like to be... a bit neglected. with each other, you werent naglected.
keeping up your friendship wasnt difficult, so you really never were neglected. even if you spent the whole day apart, it didnt make it weird between you at all.
when you were younger, at the age of 11 and 12, it was easier to make friends, so becoming the group of harry, ron, hermione and you was very easy.
after that, it seemed like you forgot how to be social much.
it was amazing really, to see you laughing, drinking, making jokes and yelling around with your friends, but the second anyone outside of your group came into the room, you became empty, silent, reserved.
and your sarcastic jokes... some would say they were a put off. well, almost everyone, besides harry ron and hermione, found them off putting. once in a while one of those sarcastic and mean comments left your lips, and while it made harry laugh, the person who it was intented to might have gotten hurt.
it scrunched your heart.
as you grew older, you seemed a bit more... depressed? but even when harry, hermione or ron tried bringing that up, they didnt have any evidence. you were always kind of closed off with anyone besides them.
on your third year at hogwarts, remus lupin came to teach DADA classes.
he was a very nice man, a very attentive teacher and a very careful man.
his classes were always fun, he knew when to be silly and when to be a teacher, he knew how to handle most things.
he wasnt sure how to handle you.
he liked the idea of knowing his students well and being close with them but... you seemed so distant, so uninnterested, so cold towards him.
he was very confused as to why you hated him.
when he inquired his thoughts with harry, harry assured him that you dont hate him.
"she doesnt. we were talking about you just a few days ago, you are one of her favourite professors" harry tells the taller man, walking beside him on the bridge.
"why doesnt she engage at all then?" remus asks, curious.
"shes just like that you know... she likes keeping to herself and... just being quiet" harry shrugs his shoulders.
it takes maybe 2 more months before you warm up to remus. after seeing the professor with your best friend, and even engaging in some small talk, you finally started smiling at him more, smiling in the corridor when passing him and also asking for his well being from time to time.
remus was glad he got closer to you.
you almost reminded him of himself in his days at hogwarts, quiet and reserved around the outgowing potter.
but there was still something very odd with you.
"harry" remus smiles at the boy when they meet at the courtyard, "and {Y/N} how nice it is to see you as well" remus smiles at you, seeing you walking beside harry.
"hey professor, how are you?" you give him a small smile, nodding. "quiet alright, and you?" he smiles back at you warmly.
"oh im ok i just... i wanted to ask that... since you are helping potter maybe you could... well-"
"shes asking if you could help her with some things she found in a book" harry helps you, patting your shoulder.
you immediatly punch into his shoulder.
"sorry. she just doesnt like asking for help" harry laughs, rubbing his arm.
remus beams.
"oh, absolutly, no problem. will you be free on wednesday at 6?" he asks with a smile.
you nod and give a half smile.
"great. ill see you in my classroom then" he smiles, and you quickly thank him and run away back to hermione and ron, who were waiving at them.
**
on that day, when you came to his office at the evening, you knocked on the door with precise 3 knocks.
"come in!" he calls from inside, and he sees you entering, wearing long pants and a white button up, no robes and no tie, sleeves rolled up and 2 books in your hand.
"hello" he smiles. "hello professor" you smile meekly before coming over to his desk.
"im excited to see what you have to ask me" he says, rubbing his palms togetger as he sees the books at your clutch. one of them is obviously an old spell book, he could tell by the design, and the other seemed like a leather notebook that was yours. hes pretty sure he saw it beforehand.
"oh, well, ive been reading about these old spells and i wanted to ask you if you think they are still usable..."
you immediatly open the old book and point to the spell, and start explaining your theory.
remus knew you were smart, but he was very surprised by your theories, your explanations and how mature you sounded as you talked about this, so understanding and smart.
after about an hour and a half of talking and explaining, remus finally asked about the other notebook.
"oh, this is just my notebook... i have been using these old spells to learn about how to write my own spells and i write them here" you reveal with a small smile and reddening face.
"can i see?" he asks, excited.
you seemed a bit hesitant, but you did open the notebook for him and gave him a tour between your most recent spells.
"wow {Y/N}, this is very impressive work! you write so well" he smiles as he looks over your carefully crowded pages, info stacked and beautiful drawings fitted in between.
he loved that when you werent looking and he made himself look like hes deep into reading a spell of yours, he found diary entrys in your notebook, talking about your days.
one caught his eye, about how some older kids bullied you, but your response seemed to muted down, even in the diary.
"do they work?" the professor asked, his face seemed lit up.
"some, yes. some need more work" you explain. he noticed you are strictly only looking down.
"is it ok with you to show me something?" he asks.
"r-really?" your voice is nothing above a whisper as you say that, and your eyes flicker around for a second.
"yeah, id love to see something" he smiles again, reassuringly, confused by your weird demeaner.
you pull out your wand and flick it in the air while muttering the words "ducre professor lupin" and suddenly the tip of your wand lights up blue, and the blue ball starts warping and moving, like a water ball thats moving towards remuss direction.
"its still in its working stages... its for directions towards someone, see? if i say... ducre harry" the ball shifts and turns, and now its morphing in a different direction, "it shows me their general direction"
remuss eyes are wide open, and hes shocked at what he is seeing.
"this is amazing {Y/N}, you are so smart" he smiles widely, imoressed. genuinly.
"also, i have caligomentis" as you cast the spell, mist fills up the room to the point you can bearly see each other. you give it a few second before you repel them away, and you can see lupin again.
"fills the room with mist" you smile shortly, and look down again.
"wow" he says with a shocked face, "these are amazing spells {Y/N}, you are very talented! very well done!" he pats her shoulder gently, "im proud of you"
as he lays these words down, a shiver goes through you and you smile, nod, and grab your notebook.
"t-thank you so much professor but i have... have to use the toilet..." you quickly say, and turn around to run out of the room.
"oh- you left the book here {Y/N}" he says, raising the spell book with confusion of your sudden outburst.
when you turn around to wave him off and say "its ok you can have it!", while you walk backwards, he can see the sudden tears on your cheeks, whole face red and wet, and you rubbing your eye.
he goes to run after you out to the corridor, but as he gets to the door, he cant find you anywhere. where did you run off to? why did you? did he make you uncofmroatble? did he say something?
he starts walking towards one of the bathrooms on the floor, but stops soon and returns. you probably dont want him following you.
he spent the rest of the night wondering what he did, and how he could repay you and apologize.
**
the next day, you werent in his class. the second he noticed that, he asked the class where you were.
harry looked so guilty, that remus knew to keep him after class to ask him.
"wheres {Y/N} harry?" he asks the boy, leaning back on his table.
harry scratchs the back of his neck and looks around the room, but when he sighs and begins talking, hes looking right at remus.
"to be honest professor, im not entierlly sure... she wasnt in the dorm yesterday night at all and in the morning she just told me to leave her be..." he explains.
"she wasnt in all night?!" remus louder, alarmed, his heart beating faster in his chest.
"well, i think i knew where she was... probably in town in the inn shes usualy at at holidays and summer vacation... she smelled like the beer they serve there this morning when i hugged her" harry explains.
"harry, you seem quite calm to the fact your friend was missing the whole night" remus points out, crossing his arms.
"no i-i know but... its {Y/N}... its not like i can control her and... i know shes going to be ok! you know...?" harry whispered, and lifted his bag on his shoulder.
"she goes there anyways at least once a month to keep her room rented to her, so its not that big of a deal, i think" harry sighs and adjust his glasses a bit.
"{Y/N} is just... free spirited. i cant keep her down. no one can. and when she goes, she comes back. i dont think its because of you professor" harry leaves after this, after telling remus the name of the inn.
remus knows better though. he knows that how you stormed out of his room last night wasnt just a free spirited girl. it was something else. something happened and you ran away from him.
**
the whole say, throughout lunch and dinner, remus looks for you around the school. not a trace. nothing.
he asks the trio again, but they say that you still didnt return from your trip.
it starts to get darker and colder outside, and if this is going to be the second night you arent in the school, remus will get even more worried.
so at about 11pm, he decided he will go find you.
firstly, he goes after the inn that harry told him you stay at.
why do you stay there in summer and holidays?
but as he is about to get to town, he remembers something.
he pulls out his wand and tries to remember as hard as he can the word you used yesterday for that new spell of yours.
"ducre {Y/N}" it takes a second, but a little blue light beams out of the tip of his wand, and point to his left.
you are a genious.
he start following the directions his wand gave him, all the while looking around hoping to see you.
it takes a good while, but at some point he can see a body of water reflecting the stars and the half moon in the sky. there is tall grass leading up to the... lake? is that a lake? how has he never knew of this lake? hes known hogwrats back to back....
there are a few trees around, and when he squinted his eyes and walked closer, he could see a small candle floating in the air, and beside it a head with your {H/S} hair.
he drops his wand to his side and slowly picks up his pace as he runs to you through the tall grass, his heart relaxing as he runs towards you.
he found you.
he stops in his tracks pretty fast though, when you suddenly whip around with your wand and freeze him in place.
he is stuck in mid air running to you, but he can see you gasp and move quick to release him from the freeze.
while you start to stand up, hes already at you, already hugging you and tackling you to the ground with him.
"where have you been? where did you run off to? you worried me" he whispers as you both sit, and hes still holding your hands in his, looking at your face.
you dont say anything, but just choke and look away at the lake.
"and what is this place?" he asks quietly.
"its... its a spring..." you finally let out of your mouth hushly, and for a second, he can feel you holding onto his hands.
"its been here since forever, but you never got here because you and your friends didnt look behind that hill" you suddenly answer his unasked question.
remus sighs and shakes his head, and looks at you, giving you a long look.
you are wearing a white slip dress, and over it a black coat, and your feet are wet.
"are you cold?" he asks lowly.
"no. im just... exhasted" you reply with a sigh.
for some reason, the secluded area and the way you are dressed, the way you always talk and how you carry yourself, why you ran away from his last night and why you stay in an inn. suddenly something changed and clicked in his mind.
"im... im sorry if i overwhelmed you last night. i just truly think you are amazing and smart" he tries to keep it down, not wanting you to run away again all of a sudden.
"i didnt figure something with your..." he trails off, and soon stops talking.
"its ok" you finally look up at him, and he can feel your hands holding tightly onto his as you look at his face, "i just find it hard to believe everything you said was true" you let out quietly.
"can i... hug you?" he slowly understands how critical the situation is.
you move closer to him anf lay your head on the connection between his shoulder and chest, looking off into the spring.
"i hope i can make you feel better. you really are a good girl"
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im having a writers block. fuck me. im sorry this is so shiity
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