⋙ Angst ⋘
TW! Suic!de & Blood!
Spoilers!
The storyline may be a bit messed up because I haven't watched OnS yet!
Your POV
"Hey! Don't run so fast!" I tried to grab the hand of my girlfriend who was currently running over a flower field in a beautiful dress. She laughed and it was the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. Her dress was jumping around her legs as she sped up while her hair flew after her in the warm breeze.
"Catch me if you can Y/n!" Another chuckle left her lips and her unique orbs sparkled in happiness when she looked back and took a glimpse of me. It was an amazing view and I swore that I would never forget this picture of her.
The sunflowers as well as various other plants around her, she in her favourite long dress, a sky without a cloud, and the orange light that painted everything in the colours of the sunset.
"If I had a camera with me, I would take a picture of you now, you know?" I gasped and came to a halt beside the girl of my dreams. She just turned her head and threw it back as she laughed whole heartily.
Her long ashen hair started to dance again in the wind and her perfect lips started to part when she started to speak.
"Why? It isn't unusual that we run together in the sunset. To be specific we do it every day!" A big smile took over her features and I thought again that I never wanted to stop running with her in the sunset.
Her amber orbs looked at me with amusement as I took her hand in mine and sat down while dragging her into my lap. My nose sunk into her long hair and enjoyed the moment. Who know how long this beautiful time would last?
Suddenly she took my face into her hands and pressed her soft lips on mine. "The best time of the day is when I am with you. I hope you'll never forget that Y/n..."
Her arms wrapped around my neck and pulled me closer to her while her face hid in my neck.
"I won't forget that Mahiru. I promise you that I never forget that. How could I?"
Said girl just shrugged with her shoulders and pulled back, to get a better view of me. "I don't know. Maybe you'll find another girl who is more your type than I am. You could eventually loose your interest in me because I am much more energetic than you are or maybe...forget that."
Mahiru averted her gaze and I felt her playing with her fingers behind my neck. I was curious but also worried about it and her.
We told each other almost everything, especially when there were thing that troubled, annoyed or made us sad. I respect it when she doesn't want to tell me things, it really is okay. I won't force her to open up completely because then there was the possibility that I would loose her and that was something I wanted to avoid at all costs.
When she is ready to tell me something than I would be there and listen.
"You are my type, love. I couldn't imagine someone who would be better for me than you are. You are the person I love the most in this world, so don't worry about that. I love that you are a little more energetic than I am. And if the last reason has to do something with your family, we stay through this together okay? I won't break up with you when your father thinks that I am not your perfect partner or does it trouble you?"
"No, it is just that he starts to pressure me more to break up with you. I- I have the feeling that I will shatter sometime under the pressure. He has just so high expectations and ugh. I have no idea how to deal with it the more it gets worse..."
Her head leaned against my shoulder and I heard her exhale louder than before. I started to caress her back and gave her soft forehead kisses.
I had no idea how to encourage her or to help her get out of her house and away from her father. Even if she could escape, she wouldn't leave her siblings alone in this hell hole. Mahiru cared about them too much and was too selfless to leave them just like that.
One time I offered her to move into my house but she explain that it wouldn't be possible because she would worry too much about he siblings. I think she also was afraid that she could be a burden to me, what was of course not true.
When she huffed my attention was on her again. She stretched and started to get up, because the sun was almost away.
"I guess it is time to leave again. Do you walk me home again or do you go straight to your home?" The amber eyed girl stretched out her hand and helped me up. The sad look disappeared from her feature and was replaced with a mischievous smile.
"What kind of boyfriend would I be if I let a princess like you walk all the way alone the her house in the evening when the moo rises?" I flashed her a smirk and grabbed her hand to drag her softly with me from the field. The girl broke out in laughter and let herself get dragged from me.
"Not a very nice one my prince. I can't wait to run with you again over this beautiful field. Maybe if you are lucky I could bring a cake with me again so we can devour it like last time."
Her orbs started to spark again and a warm feeling rose in my stomach. I cheered her up a bit and that was the most important thing for me now. I wouldn't let her go when she was sad, even though I wasn't the type of guy who made fun of himself to make a smile appear on other faces. Or maybe I was..?
"I hope you don't trip again like last time. How is your bruise by the way? Is your knee fully healed again?" Mahiru's eyes mirrored the worry that lay in her was as she tried to look at my knee.
"Don't worry. It isn't fully healed yet, but if I wait a few days it is surely healed." I moved my knee a bit to show her that I wasn't in any pain. Relief was seen in her eyes and she started to smile again, what started to fade almost immediately.
"And it really isn't a problem that I am a namanari? I know that I ask you that everyday, but is it really okay for you? It can cause a lot of trouble and-"
I grabbed her face and kissed her gently to show her again that it wasn't and would't be a problem for me. Of course she was insecure about being a namanari and worried constantly about that.
When he arrived at her house she hugged me closely and kissed me. I could feel the emotions of worry, nervousness and love in the kiss, but didn't questioned it. When we parted she leaned her forehead against mine and seemed to enjoy the last moments.
"You know how much I love you ,right?" Mahiru sounded a little bit desperate when she searched in my eyes for an answer.
"Yes. I hope you know how much I love you too and that I wouldn't leave you no matter what." I pulled her into a tight hug and let her go when she pulled back.
She gave me another deep kiss, flashed me a smile and started to go to her house while waving at me. I waved back and showed her the small smile on my lips that was reservated for moments like this.
The door closed behind her and left me outside in the pale moonlight. With a sight I returned to my home and went into bed after taking a shower.
The next day I waited for her on the field but even after an hour she didn't showed up. After another 2 hours of waiting the constant worry grew much stronger ad I went to her house.
Maybe she was on the way but someone held her up? Maybe she fell and lay unconscious somewhere?
No matter where I looked on the way, there was no sign of the amber eyed girl. Even after screaming her name a few times, there was noting but some chirping of birds.
I arrived at her house and knocked a few times but nobody opened. Through the widows i could take a look inside but it seemed that nobody was in the house.
Maybe they were on vacation?
With a sight I turned around and walked again to the field. I still had hopes that she was there and it was just a dumb misunderstanding or joke, but there was nobody. When the mone shone brightly I returned home and went to bed with mixed feelings.
Where was she? And most important, was she okay?
Years passed and I made a few friends like Guren Ichinose and Shinya Hiragi. Eventually Shinya explained to me that Mahiru was a vampire now after taking in the demon thing of her sister. Guren on the other hand said that she was in his weapon and 'visited' him now and then.
The girl he described reminded me briefly of the Mahiru I knew and loved. He said that she started to ask after my well-being when she found out that Guren new me and was one of my friends. The Ichinose said that she even cared about me because she had a special glimmer in her eyes when my name was mentioned.
Something in me still had hopes that she will turn back into a Human or even a namanari! Of course it was ridiculous and dumb to have hopes like that but that didn't changed anything.
The years passed and suddenly I stood beside Guren and in front of Mahiru. Everything seemed to be in slow motion when she stabbed herself with Guren's sword and killed herself. The requirements for the experiments were there and she took the opportunity to end it.
"Mahiru! Don't do that please!" My voice was seemed so far away and the last thing I recognized was that she lay in a puddle of her own blood on the floor with Guren's sword stuck in her small body.
She was dead and I sunk on the floor and looked silently at her body until Shinya and Guren pulled me away.
This evening I returned to the flower field after years of not visiting it. The flowers were all death as if their sadness took over and let them die.
It was strange but I saw the flowers as if they weren't death and it reminded me too much of her and the pain was nearly unbearable. My heart shattered into million pieces and the cherry on top was the sunset that painted everything in a orange colour.
Images of her dancing in the sunlight appeared in front of my eyes and pained me even more. She when she blew out the candles on the cake I tried to bake for her. The smile on her face when I started to read for her. The picnics we made once a week and then our last meeting.
A sudden pain in my chest caught me off guard and took all the air in my lungs out. It felt like my heart had a cramp or something like that and then it hit me brutally in the face.
I had a heart attack and was dying. If I could've laughed I definitely would have because it was so ironic. The flowers were dead. My feelings were shattered. She was dead. I felt like I was choking.
My view went black but then there was light again.
"Finally. I thought I have to wait decades to see you, but it is sad. I wouldn't have wanted that you die at such a young age from a heart attack. Are you well Y/n?"
I looked around and saw...the flowers alive. i felt them on my fingers and I also felt the hot breeze that stroked my face. I could smell the scent of flowers and...her.
My eyes darted to my right and there she sat with a worried face expression and in her favourite clothing. She didn't seemed dead or hurt.
Was all of this just a dream? Was i going crazy? Maybe I wasn't dead and just had a strange dream of how my life could have been?
It seemed that my confusion was visible because Mahiru took my hand in hers and gave it a gentle kiss. It felt real, so this was not a dream. Her ashen hair moved in the wind and her orbs were still ope in worry.
"We are dead Y/n. It also took me some time to find out, but I sit here already a few hours ad the sun didn't set. The wind continued to blow and the flower were being flowers. There were a few butterflies here and there and also some bees. It is like time froze in my favourite moment."
She shrugged with her shoulders and leaned forward to inspect me because I hadn't answered her question if I a well.
"I am fine. It is just a little bit overwhelming. I didn't thought that there would be such an afterlife, that's all." I tried to reassure her a bit and it seemed to be working.
"Well the, you must be hungry and thirsty. You know I am so happy-" she stood up and dragged me to a blanket with food and drinks on it while talking about how happy she is that I am here now and she is finally a human again after all these years.
A smile stealth itself on my face and one thought ran through my head.
Everything has an end, but everything has also a beginning.
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This oneshot was requested by nealgietsu24
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