"Hey, Min-Jun!"
I look over my shoulder, seeing Jian walk towards me. It took me aback because I wasn't ever friends with him...he was friends with Travis.
My lips tighten together as I face back forward, grabbing my tray.
"Since when did you eat at the school? I thought you were more online-oriented?" He asks me, and I nod down at the buffet. "What?"
"I'm h-here...for the food. I'm h-hungry." I state, filling up my plate with food. "I-I don't usually come...once I'm d-down with my m-morning classes, I go home; but... This smelled s-so good, I wanted it."
I licked my lips as I grab some dumplings.
As I filled my plate I could see Jian look taken aback by that. I just look away from him because I already know he's wondering how I'm eating so much. Well...it's not necessarily just me, but I'm not saying that.
"How humble of you to eat with us." Jian chuckles, grabbing a tray. "It sucks that Travis wasn't able to see my band and me. You weren't able to either, you still can if you want."
"It's f-fine. I'm too distracted with t-training and games for Nationals." I state, grabbing a spoon as I shove my face with rice so that I wouldn't have to speak.
"I mean, understandable. You have to keep that image, but it's always good to take breaks. Like with my band we..."
I found myself tuning him out as I paid for my tray. Walking away as I went to table by myself, I sat down only to see him sit across from me. My eyes diverting off of him, I tried to make it obvious I didn't want to speak with him.
I'm...still upset with Travis. Last night he embarrassed me. I wanted to do sexy stuff with him and he said he had to go. I knew I wasn't sexy...but it was worth a shot.
Now I found myself pouting as I eat faster. That's when I notice one of Jian's bandmates sit with us now. He looked cool too as he glanced at me and just faced back forward.
"Nǐmenliǎ shíme shíhòu kāishǐ shì péngyǒu liǎo?" ( Since when were you two friends? ) His friend questions him in confusion as he pulls out a pack of cigarettes. Saw him open the package and I found my eyes widening on him.
Only for me to see him count the number he had as he closed them. Found myself sighing in relief as I began to eat again.
"Wǒ rènshí tā de měiguó péngyǒu, huán jìdé lǚguǎn lǐ nǐmen shuō de nà gè shuàigē mǎ?" ( I know his American friend, remember the one from the hotel that you guys said was handsome? ) Jian tries to remind him and I saw his friend gasp.
"Nà shì tā de péngyǒu? Tài shénqí liǎo!" ( That was his friend? How amazing! ) He suddenly looked more alive as he faced me now, smiling as if I was a friend now. "Nǐ néng dài nǐ de péngyǒu lái cānjiā wǒmen de xùnliàn mǎ? Wǒmen dū xiǎng jiànjiàn tā. Nǐ zěnme huì yùdào zhèyàng de rén? Wǒ hěn hǎoqí, yīnwéi wǒ xiǎng hé tā zuò péngyǒu, Jiǎn tā hěn kù...wǒ xiāngxìn tā de huà." ( Can you bring your friend to our practices some time? We all want to meet him. How did you meet such a person? I'm highly curious because I want to be friends with him, Jian said he's cool so... I'm going to take his word for it. )
I just look at him, almost perplexed by this whole new side of him. He seemed so hard and stone-faced before. Now he's excited and more vivid...over the fact that he wants to see Travis?
"Wǒ shènzhì méiyǒu...zhīdào nǐ de míngzì." ( I don't even...know your name. ) I state to him, and he frowns. Only to snort as he nods slowly.
"Wǒ bìng bù jīngyà, nǐ shì 'Wǎng Qiú Wáng Zi'. Wǒmen bù shì nǐ de shuǐpíng, duì bā?" ( I'm not surprised, you're the 'Prince of Tennis'. We aren't on your level, right? ) He kind of mocks in a very snide way.
I felt my face heat up as I cover my mouth so that they didn't see food inside as I spoke, "Bù, bù, bù! Gēnběn bù shì zhèyàng, nǐ shì. Tā-." ( No, no, no! That's not it at all, you are. It-. )
"Guǎn tā ní, shì Chéngléi，dàn wǒ hěn huáiyí xiàng nǐ zhèyàng de rén huì jìdé zhè yī diǎn. Tài máng liǎo, zài zhèyàng yī gè gēng gāo de jīzuò bǐ dàjiā-." ( Whatever, it's Chenglei; but I highly doubt someone like you will remember that. Too busy being on such a higher pedestal than everyone-. )
"Chéng, gòu liǎo." ( Cheng, enough. ) Jian interrupts him fast, and I wipe my mouth at what he was saying. I didn't understand because I never once saw myself better or 'on such a higher pedestal' than everyone.
I honestly thought people didn't notice me outside of my tennis.
"Nǐ shuō de shì shíme? Wǒ bù yǐ zhè zhǒng fāngshì kàndài zìjǐ. Wǒ zhēnde yǐwéi méi rén xǐhuān wǒ..." ( What are you talking about? I don't see myself in such a way. I honestly thought no one liked me... ) I confess awkwardly, only for Cheng to look upset by that.
"Nǐ tài zìxìn liǎo. Xiànzài jiù jiǎn bā." ( You're so full of yourself. Just cut it now. ) He snaps at me and I began to lose my appetite as I look down at my tray.
"Bu...bù zhīdào nǐ xiǎng ràng wǒ shuō shíme. Wǒ-." ( I...I don't know what you want me to say. I-. )
"Zhè shì yī gè lěirén de xíngwéi. nǐ yǒu xiǎng chéngwéi nǐ péngyǒu de rén, nǐ dòngbùdòng jiù bìkāi suǒyǒu rén. Nǐ zhēnde zǒuláizǒuqù, jiù xiàng nǐ bù zhī cóng nǎlǐ màochūlái de shíhòu bǐ suǒyǒu rén dū hǎo. Nàme nǐ néng dǎhǎo wǎngqiú de dōngxī, wéishíme nǐ huì cóngzhōng dédào yī gè chuòhào? Zhè shì yúchǔn de, nǐ de ménmiàn yě shì yúchǔn de. Wǒmen dū néng kànchuān tā, bié húchěliǎo." ( It's a tired act. You have people who wanted to be your friend and you avoid everyone at every turn. You genuinely walk around like you're better than everyone since you came out of nowhere. So what you can play tennis well, why do you get a nickname from it? It's stupid, your facade is what's stupid too. We all can see right through it, so cut the crap. ) Cheng snaps a bit louder and I scoot back in my seat some.
I looked at Jian who had this sickly looking grin on his lips. It wasn't very obvious...or maybe I'm being dramatic. He just covered his mouth as he avoided looking at us.
"Wǒ méiyǒu biǎoyǎn, wǒ zhǐshì...wǒ zhèngzài jīnglì yīxiē shìqíng, rúguǒ wǒ bù lǐmào huòzhě shuō wǒ hěn bàoqiàn." ( I don't have an act, I just...was going through stuff and if I came off rude or mean I am so sorry. ) I found myself apologizing even though I don't remember ever doing anything.
It just was the first thing I did because I wanted him to stop being mad at me. I don't want any problems...I just wanted friends, I even wanted to be friends with them before.
I find them so much more cooler than me...so why is he saying such things?
Do people...really think of me like that?
"Jǐnjǐn yīnwéi nǐ de shēnghuó hěn zāogāo bìng bù yìwèi zhe nǐ bìxū shìtú ràng biérén juédé zìjǐ bùrú nǐ. Wǒ shì wéiyī yī gè kěyǐ gàosù nǐ měi gè rén dū zài xiǎng shíme de rén, méiyǒu rén xǐhuān nǐ, zài nàlǐ wǒ zhōngyú shuōchūlái liǎo!" ( Just because your life sucks doesn't mean you have to try and make it suck for others by making them feel inferior to you. I'm the only one who can tell you what everyone is thinking, no one likes you, there I finally said it! ) He exclaims, slamming his hands on the table.
Chuckling, he shook his head as Jian just had his eyes settled on him in a way I couldn't read.
I felt my lips trembling, and I just look down. I don't say anything as I didn't want to show them I was hurt.
I knew no one liked me for me, it was the tennis. Even then...I'm still not liked.
I haven't even done anything so why do they feel this way towards me?
"Duìbùqǐ...yīnwéi wǒ suǒ zuò de màofàn nǐ de yīqiè." ( I'm sorry...for whatever I have done to offend you. ) I croak, and I bow slightly. I still don't even know what I've done. "Duìbùqǐ, wǒ dé yuánliàng zìjǐ..." ( I'm sorry, but I would have to excuse myself... )
As I stood up I saw Jian stand too, grinning awkwardly. There were people looking at us and I felt sick. I just wanted to get away now...I want Travis.
"So...can you come one day, and if Travis ever comes back can you ask him to come to one of our practices?" Jian asks me...
I felt my face heat up as I gripped my tray hard. Shaking my head fast, he frowned.
"N-No..." I stammer, and he raises an eyebrow.
"What do you mean no?"
"I a-am n-n-not a-asking Travis...and I-I'm n-n-never going to y-your p-practices, ever." I tell him and I saw him look annoyed by that. "You t-two b-b-bullied me...I n-never want to be a-a-around you a-again. Travis won't e-either-."
"You can't speak for him. He's way more cooler than you anyway. The only reason why I even wanted you to come was so that Travis would come. I knew that was the only way he'd come, if you did. Ridiculous...having to pretend like I give a damn about you." He rolls his eyes as he plops down in his chair.
Jian began eating, looking at me not so kindly now. I suddenly found myself in that same predicament... It was back once again...
I felt like I was standing before my grandparents. Like I was just scolded...and I'm waiting to be excused. I just wanted to throw up...but I found myself still waiting as if I needed to be excused by these people.
"What does he even see anyway? - no offense." Jian snorts, and I found myself still waiting. It was hard because no matter how much I wanted to leave I couldn't.
Found myself still waiting...I hate myself for this... Just move!
"You can go, why are you just standing there?" Jian sneers, looking annoyed and I found myself moving so fast.
I ran away as I set the table on the counter, not even dumping it. I just ran outside as I wanted to be at home.
Except as I ran I found myself still wanting to throw up, and once I was outside I took a deep breath of air. My lips tight together as I tried to force away my tears. Only for them to slip as I tried to wipe them fast.
I wanted Travis...
"Mimi?"
I flinch, looking up as I saw Louis walking towards me. He had his eyebrow raised on me only to soon frown.
"Why are you crying? What happened?" He questions me, and I tried to rush around him fast. Except he grabbed my shoulders, firmly placing me before him.
I shook my head, not wanting to be here anymore. Only for Louis just to try and look at me as I wouldn't let him look at me straight on. Only to finally have me looking at him and he narrowed his eyes on me.
"What happened Mimi? You can tell me... I will be here for a year. Remember, I am here too with you." He tells me, and I felt my lips tremble again. "What happened?"
That's when I inhale and I found myself telling him everything that happened. Pointing back inside limply, I face him again only to see him look upset.
"I...I don't k-know what I did-."
"You didn't do anything. Those kind of people are called jealous bitches. I should know," He. snorts, nodding forward, "I used to be one of them. I know one when I see or hear it. Where are they?"
I gasp, shaking my head as he walks inside. He already knew I was going to eat before and now he's going to speak to them? My nerves were at an all-time high now. I felt even more nauseous when we got back into the cafeteria.
When I look in the area I sat I saw Jian and his friends there now. Right when I look away from them I saw Louis already looking in their direction.
"L-Louis it's f-fine, you're n-n-not a jealous b...p-person-."
I saw him rush past me, and I gasp when he slams his hand on the table. He glared down at Jian who looked up at him in confusion. I continued to stand here awkwardly, trying to curb the desire to throw-up still.
When I go over I grab Louis, seeing Jian look between the both of us.
"Oh...you both must be brothers. You brought your...let me guess, older brother to stick up for you. I understand, with your stutter I'd want someone to speak for me too-."
"You have a lot of nerves." Louis sneers, and I see Jian raise his eyebrow.
"I do?"
"You do. How are you going to speak to him that way? What did he do to you, besides get lucky never being friends with an ugly guy like you, huh?" Louis hisses.
Jian looked at me and I look away.
"This is rich. He really had you, come to me, to talk about looks? He doesn't want to destroy his reputation, I suppose?" Jian laughs and I was about to speak until Louis beat me to it.
"He doesn't need to have me speak for him to protect his reputation. You're a grown man bullying someone and I understand...that you're jealous of him." Louis shrugs, and before Jian could speak Louis sneers. "I'm not done. I have been jealous of my little brother too. He's sweet...and nice, and he always seems to get the things, and people that you want. For good reason, because he's a good person. You are envious of someone who is just genuinely a kind person, and you're attacking him because you know he won't fight back. He'll try anything to diffuse the situation and make it better for both sides, even if the other is hurting him..."
I saw Louis drift, his expression softening.
"I know...that feeling because I was in your place; and I've abused that fact... We both seem to be bitches, huh?" He spat, and Jian gasps. I saw his friends gasp too. Only for Louis to look at Cheng now. "You're looking a little guilty. What did you say?"
"I not...know English good." He spoke quietly, and Louis snorts.
"Zhè duì nǐ gēng hǎo mǎ?" ( Is this better for you? ) He speaks Mandarin and Cheng's face turned red. "Kělián, wǒ xǐhuān. Duì mīmī bǎochí tóngyàng de néngliàng, jiù xiàng nǐ duì wǒ yīyàng, tā gēng shìhé nǐ." ( Pathetic, I like it. Keep that same energy for Mimi like you are for me, it suits you more. )
Cheng looked upset by that, but he wasn't saying anything back. Louis stood up straight, grinning down at them politely.
"I hope I don't have to see you again. Just imagine what it'll be like if Travis found out..." Louis gasps mockingly, and Jian became red. "Hopefully it won't come to that, duì bā?" ( right? )
They nod, and now he walks away from them. As he stands before me and insists for me to go I found myself beginning to bow before them.
"Mimi what are you doing?!" Louis whispers in shock, stopping me. "They were rude to you and now you're bowing? You really..."
"Thank you Louis." I breathe, and I saw his face turn pink. "B-But I have to..."
"Why...is that Mimi?" He asks me softly now.
"So that th-they know I don't see them a-as an enemy. Just a misunderstood acquaintance, r-right?" I grin shyly, and he shrugs.
"If you say so." He sighs.
I grin, rushing at him as I hug him. I, at that moment, felt like I really had an older brother. The comfort began to be there in his embrace. Sighing peacefully, I pull back from him.
I face their group and bow before them, standing back up straight. They looked taken aback by that. I go after Louis now as we walk out.
Smiling up at Louis, he grinned down at me.
"Do you feel better?" He asks as we were walking away from the school now.
"Y-Yes, now that you're here. Are you...done with classes?" I ask, and he shook his head no. "Th-Then why aren't you g-going? You can get in t-trouble!"
I became nervous until I realized he walked me to the subway. Now he pats my shoulders and I just look at him.
"I just wanted to walk here...make sure you're okay." He murmurs, and I grin.
"I'm okay...so is the baby. I'm not nauseous anymore." I smile at him, and I saw Louis gasp. "What?"
"You didn't stutter around me." He looked shocked and I found myself...not shocked at all.
Earlier I felt at peace with him. Of course it's gone, now I'm comfortable around him. I no longer feel...that feeling that almost felt weighed down.
It didn't weigh down on my heart.
"Why would I?" I smile brightly at him, and I see him soon smile too.
"Yeah...why would you...?" Louis murmurs, grinning as I smile even bigger.
"Why would I?"
____back home____
"Travis..."
"Yes baby?"
I look down at my phone, seeing him look up at me. He had a soft grin on his face and I just wanted to hug him. My eyes closed, my hands covering my face.
"I...I miss you. Today wasn't s-such a good day, but I d-deserved it." I whimper.
"You don't deserve anything bad that happens to you, what happened?" He asks me softly, and I shake my head. "Mimi..."
"I was mean to y-you earlier-."
"No, you weren't. It's okay. My sister drove up and I didn't want her to see that you made me hard in the car." He chuckles, and I remove my hands from my face.
I look at him, seeing him look like he was thinking about that incident.
Except I was set on one thing he said.
"I...m-made you erect?"
"Yes, you made me 'erect'." He snorts, but soon grins. "It's not that hard for you to do so."
I found myself proud, biting my lip as I scoot back some. I see him look on at me as I take a deep breath.
"Are you...in y-your room?" I ask him, and his eyes widen. "Because I-I am, alone."
"I'm alone too baby." He husks, and I grin. "Why?"
I stand up, and I grab my pants. Seeing his eyes widen more, I pull them down. I saw his eyes hood on me. That's when I turn around so that he could see my bottom. My hands resting on it as I pulled the back of my shirt up.
When I look back at him he seemed to be breathing heavily. His hand low until I go to my knees, rushing at the phone.
"D-Don't touch yourself...until I say so." I breathe, and Travis chuckles. "Okay?"
"Okay-."
"I want to s-see your hands." I demand, and he raises his hands. I grin now as I sit on my bed. I lick my two fingers as I lay over the edge of my bed. So that Travis could see what I was about to do.
I pull my underwear down, grabbing my bottom as I spread it apart. A little shy as I run my finger over my hole now. It made me feel weird to know that has to watch...not touch me and kiss me...lick me.
I slide down my bed a little, trying not to give in to the embarrassment that was growing. I just look back at him and saw his hands still up. Only for him to have his lips tight together.
"Travis...is it b-bad?"
"Not bad...I want to hold you so bad." He husks, and I turn forward. I bite my lip as I stare into his eyes on the screen.
"Hold me...how?"
"I want...to lay you flat on your back, so that I could see your belly. I want to push your legs back and go deeply inside of you." He moans almost as I smile down at him. I lift up my shirt so that he could see my stomach.
His eyes softening upon it, I grip my chest. He was so confusing as he'd go in and out of being aroused to looking at me in such a way.
"Travis I want you to do th-that too." I breathe, and he breathes in. "I can't do anything...without you. I-I want you to touch m-me instead."
"Do you now?"
"Yeah."
I see Travis lick his lips, leaning back as he shrugs.
"It's March..." He inhales deeply, and I nod. "The middle of March."
"Yeah...s-so?"
That's when he just shrugs again, not saying anything.
"What? T-Tell me p-please." I try to beg him but he shook his head. "I'll...I'll figure it out."
"I bet you will." He chuckles, sighing deeply as he leans against his bed. "Soon...soon enough."
"Soon what Travis?" I whine.
Only for him to scan his eyes over me. My face becoming hot as I felt like he could eat me up at that very moment...
"Just soon."
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