Chapter 70
"Really? Because you seemed to not mind last night." Noah says, getting irritated.
"Oh yeah? Well fuck you. Last night you didn't want to break up with me."
"You already fucked m-"
"Shut up." I say in a deadly tone.
"What the hell?"
"Are you deaf? Shut up." I say louder, and more angry. What the hell is his problem?
"You can't tell me what to do."
"Really? Because you had no problem deciding for me that we should break up because you don't think you're good for me. You have NO right to make that decision for me." He moves closer to me. Every single sign in my body is telling me to go closer to him, but I ignore it, and instead storm outside. I lie down on the couch that was stationed in the hallway. I forgot a blanket. Shit. I just pull the sweatshirt tighter around me.
I wake up the next morning. I feel a weight on my stomach. I open my eyes slowly and see Noah collapsed on top of me. I look around. This is not where I fell asleep last night. The anger from last night comes flooding back. I throw him off me and go brush my teeth.
"Naya? Are you there." I walk out of the bathroom, not saying a word to him.
I go downstairs where I see Emily making breakfast.
"Morning Em."
"Hey Naya. I'm just making some waffles."
"They smell amazing!" I compliment her.
"Thanks!"
"Hey, thanks for letting us stay here, you didn't have to do that."
"You guys are like my non-biological younger siblings. You're always welcome here."
"Thank you." I tell her.
"Nice pajamas," She jokes. I laugh. Yep. There are little dinosaurs all over my pajamas.
"What can I say, I like dinosaurs." She laughs.
"Where's Noah?" My eyebrows narrow slightly at the mention of his name.
"Oh no. What did that idiot do?"
"He almost broke up with me last night, and gave me bullshit about how he wasn't good for me. I smacked him in the face and told him to fuck off."
"I'm gonna go give that boy a piece of my mind," She takes off her apron and goes upstairs.
Noah's POV
She's still not talking to me. I run my hands through my hair in frustration. I brush my teeth and am about to make the bed before Emily storms inside the room.
"You thick headed imbecile! What the bloody hell is wrong with you?"
She yells, whacking me.
"Emily! Stop whacking me! What are you talking about?"
"ThT poor girl was telling me how you almost broke up with her? Are you serious? Especially after all that happened!? How daft are you really?" I was at a loss for words. I bent my head in shame.
"You should be ashamed of yourself."
"I feel worse than you know."
"You should, you bloody idiot." She whacks me on the head again.
"Do you love her?"
"More than anything."
"Then why the fuck would you do something so incredibly stupid?" I don't answer her.
"You better give her a hell of an apology, because you hurt her, you bloody idiot." I run my fingers through my hair.
"Fuck. What am I supposed to do?"
"Apologize. Give her the biggest apology. Do something for her. Something that she'll like."
"What am I supposed to do?"
"How long have you been dating?"
"Almost a month."
"And you don't know what she likes? You're so stupid, I swear Noah." She whacks my head once more and leaves the room. Fuck me.
Shanaya's POV
Emily disappeared upstairs to have a word with Noah. ood. He should feel bad. I can't believe he almost broke up with me. That hurt more than seeing those pictures of my house. This constant feeling of sadness was there. Would it ever go away? I heard footsteps down the stairs, breaking me out of my thoughts.
"He is a bloody idiot."
"I agree wholeheartedly Em." She hugs me again. She's so nice, and warm. I feel something wet drip down my face. Shit. These damn tears are back again. I pull away from her and wipe my eyes.
"Shit, sorry. It-"
"Why are you apologizing? Don't apologize for that."
"Okay, sor- I mean, thanks." She smiles.
"You want waffles?" My face lights up.
'Yes! I love waffles!"
"Perfect." She gives me a plate with berries and maple syrup drizzled over them.
"Do you want some coffee?"
"No thanks!"
"You don't drink coffee?"
"Its my least favorite drink on the planet." She laughs.
"Do you want some hot chocolate?"
"Yes please! I can help make-"
"Sit your butt down, I'll take care of it."
"Yes, mom." We grin at each other. I'm about to bite into my waffle when Noah sits down next to me.
"Morning, love." I ignore him, and eat my waffle. This is so good.
"Em, these are the best waffles I've had in my entire life." I moan. Noah's hands are clenched into a fist, and his knuckles are white. Weird.
"You've got syrup on your lip." Noah grits out. I lick my lips. His thumb brushes across the corner of my mouth, and I smack away his hand, despite the fluttery sensation in my stomach.
"Don't touch me." I glare at him
"Love please-"
"Don't call me that unless you actually mean it." I spit and finish eating my waffles. His gaze remains on me the entire time. I wash my plate and head upstairs to our room. I take a quick shower and go downstairs, where Emily and Noah are sitting.
*shanaya's outfit*
Noah's head snaps to me the minute I enter the room.
"You look beautiful, love." I ignored him once again. I know it was petty, but I was still mad at him.
"I made cocoa for us!" Emily exclaims.
"Oh yay! Thank you!" I plop down on the other side of the counter, next Emily. Noah sends me a pained look. Good. He should feel bad.
"So... you want to tell me what's going on with the both of you?" I narrow my eyes at Noah. Let's see what he has to say.
"Naya, I'm sorry."
"Good, you should be." I reply curtly.
"Naya, Noah told me what happened, do you think you want to tell me?" I sigh, heavily.
"We were packing up everything in our hotel room, and we were about to check out, and we started talking. He gave me some shit about how he wasn't good enough for me. He wouldn't listen to anything I told him. He was about to break up with me, and I told him to shut up. I smacked him in the face and told him to fuck off." Emily looks at Noah's face, and back at mine. We seem to have an unspoken staring contest. Emily, chuckles emptily.
"I-"
"You're going to justify wanting to break up with me? That thought didn't even cross my mind, but was the first thing you jumped to." I finish my hot chocolate and go back to the room. I sit on the floor and cry. It's the only thing I'm able to do, and I fucking hate it. I slump against the wall and I pull my knees to my chest, wallowing in anger, and sadness. The door bursts open And Noah walks in, sitting in front of me. I wipe my tears away instantly, and sniffle.
"What do you want?" I angrily ask him.
"I'm so sorry love."
"You should be."
"I know, and I didn't mean it. I never wanted to hurt you, I felt this was my fault-"
"Well, you're the reason I'm feeling like this now. You not wanting to be with me is more hurtful than some strangers trashing my house, and whatever nonsense the media is spewing about me."
"I know. I never wanted to break up with you. I didn't-"
"Well, the damage is already done. We're not broken up, but I have no intention of talking to you. The fact that you were even thinking about it is what hurts me. I thought you loved me, Noah."
"I did! I still do!"
"I'm done with this conversation." I stand up and he gets up and I'm pulled to him.
"Let go of me. I'm not kissing you. I'm not having sex with you. And I'm definitely not talking to-"
He kisses me. FOr a moment I forget everything that's been going on. He backs me into the wall, starting to unbutton the front of my romper. His hands slide down my shoulders and cup my cheeks. His tongue brushes against my lip and I sigh against his mouth. His hand slides the strap down my shoulder, and I come to my senses. I shove him away from me.
"What are you doing?" I yell.
"Kissing you. Because I love you."
"I told you I wasn't going to-"
"Well, then maybe you shouldn't have slept with me."
"Maybe I shouldn't have. That was my mistake." I angrily yell back crying, and his face hardens. FUck.
"Noah, I didn't mean-"
"It's fine." He storms out of the room. I grab a pillow and scream into it. Frustrated with everyone and everything. I lie down on the bed, closing my eyes, and allowing the darkness to take me.
HIii
im so sad, this chapter made me so depressed.
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