Open up (18+ Only)

Chapter 35

Now you can wait your whole life wondering
When it's gonna come or where it's been
You may have got your heart broken
A few times in the past
Never last strong as it used to
Don't feel as good at it used to (before)
And all the things you used to say,
Thing you used to do, went right out the door
I sang along and could feel myself get emotional
Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
You can't help all your love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love
I could feel my voice cracking and  couldn't help think what if he leaves again? And I just most it and tears were streaming slowly.

"Why did you stop?" Craig asked and changed his position to look at me and I just kept quiet "I'm surprised you know this song." He added

"That's the song you played when you dumped me, how could I not know it?" I asked and regretted how my voice came out. I was about to get out and get water but he pulled me closer

"Please don't cry" I couldn't but think he said cry more and I did "I'm so sorry." He said while wiping my tears and our lips collide and could feel the volcano in my stomach and realized how much I missed this lips and I wasn't responding "give in Luna" he whispered and I just responded to the kiss and could feel him touch all the body parts he used to and my body react to those touches "I love you so much" he said while sucking my on my neck

"I love.. you more" I said in a shaky voice and was surprised as the words travel out of my mouth because i never told him before and we made out and decided to talk until we dozed off

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It's been days and the one sleep over turned out to be a weeks one. Well Craig has been busy a lot busy and Kyle says that's what he always does work and they will stay with their nanny and the only time his really off is today and it's Saturday well we decide to spent the day together but I'm really sick and I don't want to ruin everything for them.

My phone rang and it was Matt and we always video call because he somehow knows the days I be sick at.

"Hey princess" he said through the call and could see that he's walking to somewhere

"Hey king" I said before feeling an intense pain and was lucky Craig wasn't in here because I don't want him to fuse or tell him the whole truth

"You good?" He asked knowing the answer and I gave him a slight smile "Argh I hate it when you like this you know right?" He says like always and every time

"I know and in times like this I just need you" I said before putting the phone down and touching my abdominal with both my hands

"I wanted it to be a surprise but I'm flying today so tomorrow I'll land and the next day we spent time together and can give message" he said through the line and I was really excited but couldn't speak or do anything "did you tell Craig?" I told him about me and Craig getting back together and he was the one advising me instead of judging and he seems like my older brother, my diary in human form.

"No" I said in pain

"But you'll have to tell him princess" he said and I know I should but I'm scared to tell him

I took the phone with one hand and the other one still at my abdominal "I know" I said with one tear rolling down my cheek not because I haven't told Craig but the pain is unbearable and it gets worse time to time.

"I love you okay" he said and I just nodded before the call ended.

"Tell me what?" He asked and I could not read his emotions "Luna I'm talking to you" he shouted

"Don't shout at me" I said with more like a whisper and messaged my abdominal gently and could see hurt and removed it with a little of mixed emotions

"Tell me what Luna?" He asked again and I could see he won't back down and I shut my eyes for a while "so you can tell Matt and not me" he continued

"Well Matt never left me when I needed him and he was there when the doctors told me that my abdominal was damaged from the beating and the stress contributed more so every month I'm like this" I shouted the last part still closing my eyes again. It happens every month when my periods are about to start. I may not even be able to carry a child full term and my doctor suggested that I don't make babies so that I don't go through the pain of losing it.

Katelyn came with a hot bottle it helps ease the pain but not take it away "please pass me the pills" she was about to get them and Craig stopped her

"I'll help her, you can go" he said and Katelyn left "this will be the 6th pill and it's not even 10am Luna and you haven't ate yet" he said while putting the pills in his pocket and placed the water under my waist and messaged my abdominal gently "you'll have to eat before you sleep" he said while getting up and placing a kiss on forehead