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Chapter 28

It's funny how you can think that everything is good and you have it all going smoothly and that's the way it should be but to be honest I love Craig so much that I would give up everything for him and it hurts so bad to love someone. you end up being afraid to lose them and yet you feel like they are fading away, damn I love him so much even though I haven't shown him or said it but acceptance is what I'll be doing right now.I feel like I should just...i don't know but I know I do love him, I went down stairs and there was my mother lying down watching some television show and I took the remote and switched it off and she looked at me

"I've decided to tell the police the whole truth" I said

"What? But his your father" she said frustrated and I couldn't believe this women sitting there

"But he tried to beat me and I'm not going to explain myself to you" I yelled the last part

"If you do that I'll kill myself" she said

"Well go through with it then because, I'm going to do it" I said while standing up

"I wish you had died the day were born, I hate you" she said while walking out the house and what did this women say, I couldn't breath I ran to my room and cried, I cried all I have ever longed was mothers love but I thought I was only hated by my father but no both of them hated me. I called Craig and it led straight to voicemail and I called Amanda and left her a voice message and I just broke down and realized that you can never confirm life but for me it was sent to break me down, end me. The tears the threatened to be wreck my soul into a million pieces like a mirror restored into stream of rivulets and beads of sorrows that silently made their way down my  cheeks, how does on restart life shattering like an earthquake. My phone rang it was Craig and I answered

"We need to talk, I'm outside come out" and he ended the call and I knew that it wasn't about me and went outside and his car was  at the same spot he always packed it and then went there "Hey" he said and didn't keep eye contact and I just took all the strength in me to respond

"Yea?" I just wanted to get this over and done with

"I know that you know Vivian is pregnant and I'm sorry but it all happened when we were not together and I can't leave my children..." He struggled to finish his words and there was a song playing on his  radio

"So you leaving me? Is this how it going to end between us? I can help." I took everything in me not to sob, I wanted to be there "is there anything that could change your mind?" I asked

"Staying away from me, I don't want to confuse the children when they grow up. So we have to.." He kept quite while putting his hand on his head the song played
'when love won't let you walked away cause and you can't help who love' it's like the writer knew what I have been going through and I listened to the lyrics and hearing and absorbing all emotions at once and I looked at him 'and you find yourself giving it away when you think that you in love' he seemed like he was also listening and he ended up switching it off

"Break up, okay." I finally said and walked out with tears streaming on my face and ran to my room and called the number at the bottom of Lara's note

Ring

Maybe they have changed numbers , I thought to myself

Ring

Then I decided to not drop it

"Hello" a voice said

"Hey mam, I'm Luna Adams" I said and the woman began to cry maybe I make people sad "I'm sorry I made you cry or even called" I said ready to drop the call

"No, I'm just happy to hear from you I thought they have turned you guys against us." She said "Call me grandma if that's fine" and I laughed a bit

"You good?" That question just broke me and I began to sob again and decided to tell her about everything but from the beating and we just both cried

"You can come stay with me" she offered and couldn't believe but I declined it, I didn't know them that much. What if they dislike me.

"Where is Lara, I miss her." She asked

"She committed suicide a few years ago, she's gone" and I cried more "she also left a letter for you" I said and she was crying too much and she calmed after a bit and tried to comfort me although she was crying more and I promised I will call again and cried more then slept and woke up because of thirst and my eyes were heavy and had a banging head and walked to the kitchen and there was two people and it wasn't Selena and my Mother but My Mother with with My dad and I stopped on my tracks.

"That bitch said bad thing about you and I had to protect you and I went over board, I'm sorry" he said while hugging her and he was lying

"She wants to get you arrested." She said and he was shocked

"Let's silence her before that could happen" he said and she agreed too by nodding her head and I could feel my tears streaming down my tears

"Wait the police are looking at the house we will do it when she has to testify" they both agreed and they kissed

"I'll go now, I love you" he said and she cried a bit before letting go, this is not love and went to lock my door and called my grandmother and she answered

"They are planning to kill me, please fetch me" I said and she sobbed

"I'll come tomorrow and you will make it look like you escaped and I'll register you in a school here" I thanked her "and I love you Luna, I may not known you much but I do" she said and I just nodded like she could see and dropped. I couldn't cry and I just packed my bag and took my important documents, I packed everything of mine.

The next morning I went to school and told Amanda about everything and she didn't listen to the mail's I sent

"So you really leaving me behind" she sobbed and I just broke down and we both did

"You can call every now and then and also visit" I said and she understood a bit

"How could your own mother do that?"she asked and I just smiled with tears flowing and went to the office for my transfer and told them not to call my mother and explained everything to my Geo teacher and he got it without being asked anything.

Matt came as planned and we left with Amanda and I wasn't ready to lose him but  we would talk always and Amanda excused herself and I told him about everything and I couldn't help but cry that he was leaving. He has always been there for me

" you should run princess, run and never look back." He said I looked at him "call anytime, I love you" he said and we just hugged and he left.