BROKEN BEYOND REPAIR

ALEXIA KING

I'm dating Kevin.

He is mine.

I'm happy.

Period.

"Don't tell me you're cooking or rather on your way to burning my place down" I feel him before I hear him.

I'm in his kitchen trying to cook us some breakfast. I am no way a chef or good like in cooking but for him, I want to try. I want to show him that I can take care of him as well. Now that we are dating, I don't want him to get sick of my burdens and leave me.

Funny. That's what I wanted a night ago but do I honestly wanted that?

"Don't be mean, Kevin" I peck him on the lips, because why not, I can do it whenever I want to, so kiss his smiling lips one more time before turning back to make us an egg sandwich.

"You're happy," An observation.

"I am"

"I wonder why?"

Should I tell him? Would he think I am desperate? 

"We got one week off the college" 

It's true, so technically speaking I'm not lying.

He stands beside the egg batter I am working on, facing me.

"I know you and one week off is not making you this happy. I believe you are not visiting your family"

I look up at his morning face which is equally as beautiful as the last night and keep the eggs on the island when they don't break as easily as it was shown in the video.

"You got me. But I still have somewhere to go" 

I try once again to break it and everything gets mixed up in one go.

It's a complete mess. How am I supposed to separate the shell from the yolk?

"Where?"

"To meet my doctor in Italy. I haven't visited for months"

"Doctor? Oh! Yeah, I saw you taking pills in the morning"

"That was the morning after pill, Kevin, because you tend to forget using protection"

He smiles sheepishly. 

"About that? You took me by surprise both the time. I know it's irresponsible of me but when I am with you everything else just blurs "

I stand on my tiptoes to kiss his adorable nose.

"That makes the two of us. Now show me how to break this mother-fuckin' egg" 

I grind my teeth exasperated when I fail again.

"How about you sit and let me handle this? What are you making by the way?"

I step back to give him the room for cooking.

"Egg sandwich"

"I can make it"

"Ok, I'll instruct you and you'll follow. How's that?" I want to do this together.

"We can work as a team and in that way, it will be more fun" 

He looks me over his shoulder and breaks the egg in one try. The yolk in a bowl and shell in another. Perfection.

"We are a team"

His smile flatters a little.

"We can be a team"

I sit on the countertop, in this way I can watch him from close and instruct him as well.