I've been over Ramello's house for the last few days and everything's been great. He's finally feeling a lot better about his grandmother and his cousin is cool as shit, She's 20 and works as a Cna. She's only staying with Ramello temporarily, her condo had got flooded so they're rearranging things and stuff.
Today Ramello is coming with me to a therapist that we found through his moms firm because we tried to have sex again and once again I cried when it came time to get down to business.
I just finished throwing on clothes and I was waiting on Ramello.
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He came out and threw on his sweatsuit and we walked outside to his car. When we arrived at the therapists office. They made me fill out paper work and consent forms when we reached inside and signed in.
After I handed back the forms I sat down and waited on them to call my name
"You're nervous? " Ramello asked me as I bounced my leg up and down
I nodded "how am I supposed to just openly explain my situation to a stranger "
"Baby people do this shit everyday it'll help you get over your anxiety and it'll help you sleep good at night again. " he said
"I know but like-"
"Moani west" a women in a skirt and blazer said
I stood up and walked by the door and followed her into her office.
"I'm dr Reid how are you ?" She asked
"I could be better" I said
"Well Moani I took a look at your paper work and I see you came in today because of a rape incident. ?"
"Well yea"
"I'm sorry that's happened to you. What's going on with that what are your feelings" she asked
"Well since it happened I could hardly sleep I wake up at 3am everyday and when it comes to sex everyone I try to have sex again it just does something to me emotionally and involuntarily I end up crying every time" I said to her
"That's normal Moani what's most important for you to know is that nothing that happened to you is your fault, it typically takes a rape victim months to years to get over something you know. This is a really traumatic experience, you shouldn't rush back into sex take your time"
"I know I shouldn't rush into I'm not trying to sleuth into it, it just ends up happening and every time I'm in that moment and it's about to happen I end up crying. "
"Your holding onto something more than just the rape, is this the first time something like this happened ?" She asked
I shook my head no. "I found out a few months ago when I was younger my father used to molest my sister and I but I don't recall any of it because apparently he used to drug me. With this situation I was drugged again and raped by three guys one in which I dated, one I trusted and one I didn't know" I said
