My Future In Her Past (1st Book Of 'In Her Past' Series)

Chapter 3

Pagkatapos nilang kumain ng hapunan ni Oliver ay hinugasan na niya ang mga pinggan habang tinatanaw-balik ang mga pangangaral ni Oliver sa kaniya.

Siguro dapat na talaga akong matutong magluto ng iba pang putahe.

Hindi naman puro de-lata at noodles lamang ang kinakain niya. Sadyang tamad lang talaga siyang magluto and besides marunong siyang magluto ng mga simpleng pagkain ngunit mataas lang talaga ang expectations ni Oliver sa kaniya. 

He wanted a trophy wife. A wife that he could proudly parade around his friends. A wife that would make any person jealous. 

She walked towards the living room and saw that her fiancé was no longer there. Mukhang umuwi na at hindi man lamang nagpaalam sa kaniya. Bakat na bakat pa sa carpet niya ang iniwang dumi ng sapatos nito.

Malakas siyang napabuntung-hininga bago napagdesisyunan na umorder ng pizza. She didn't suggest that they order one earlier because she knew that Oliver would only get pissed off with her so much more. 

"A woman should only eat salad to maintain her figure."

Sigurado siyang iyan ang sasabihin ng lalake kung saka-sakaling malaman nito na nagplaplano na naman siyang kumain ng pizza.

She just shrugged those thoughts away and took her phone out of her pocket before placing her order using the FoodPanda application. She then decided to just plopped herself at her sofa while turning the TV on. Nilagay niya iyon sa isang kilalang TV station pero hindi naman siya nanonood talaga.

Her head was still preoccupied with her problems.

Hindi na niya alam kung saan patungo ang buhay niya. Para lamang siyang sumusunod sa agos ng buhay.

She felt . . . empty.

Napahilamos siya sa mukha dahil sa inis. The teleserye playing on the TV served as her background music while her tears started falling uncontrollably.

Parang wala ng direksyon ang buhay niya. She just wanted to escape all of this. Gusto niyang makatakas sa buhay niya.

Yes, her life is perfect already.

She has a stable job, a rich fiancé, and a relationship that any girl would kill for but she can't feel any happiness. Noon naman ay ok lang siya pero biglaan na lamang siyang nakaramdam ng pag-aalinlangan. Something changed inside her and it felt like a slap that woke her up from her delusions of happy and perfect life with Oliver. It felt like finally waking up from a long, deep sleep

She turned on her phone and clicked the Instagram icon. Agad na bumungad sa kaniya ang mga pictures nila ni Oliver doon.

'Couple goals!'

'Sana all may ganiyang relationship!'

'Nakaka-inggit'

Those are some of the comments in her picture with Oliver.

They looked so sweet. Naka-akbay si Oliver sa kaniya habang nakapulupot naman ang kamay niya sa waist nito. They were both smiling so widely while showing their engagement rings.

Nakaka-inggit tingnan kung hindi mo alam ang totoong storya.

Internet can be deceiving indeed.

It would only show the things that we wanted other people to see. The things that are filtered and often times fabricated. Mga bagay na gusto nating kainggitan ng ibang mga tao. Iyong mga bagay na kahit hindi naman totoo ay binibida parin natin sapagkat nakakaramdam tayo ng kasiyahan tuwing nalalaman natin na mas nakakaangat tayo sa iba.

Lahat ng mga kilala nila ay excited para sa magaganap na kasal. Oliver is actually quite popular with his relatives. Ito kasi ang pinaka-successful sa buong angkan nito. Her friends are also excited. Marami kasing nagkakagusto kay Oliver pero siya ang pinili nito.

'Maswerte' daw siya.

Is she?

Wedding jitters lang ba talaga ito?

Kinakabahan lamang ba siya sa magaganap na kasalan kaya ganito na lang kagulo ang utak niya?

Noon naman ay excited rin siya tungkol sa kasalang magaganap. She didn't really mind Oliver's attitude. Magaling kasi siyang mag-adjust at siya ang laging umiintindi sa lalake.

She had no problem with that before but right now . . . she just found herself wanting something but she doesn't know what or . . . who.

Her whole being is looking for this unexplainable thing and it feels like a spot that wants to be scratched.

Hindi siya mapakali.

She's longing for it but what exactly is that 'it'?

Ano ang hinahanap niya?

Bakit pa siya naghahanap ng iba kung halos perpekto na si Oliver?

Looks?

Oliver can compete to those so-called 'hot' men plastered at the front page of popular magazines.

Money?

Oliver is rich! Pwede na nga siyang magbuhay reyna kapag kasal na sila.

Career?

Oliver is highly praised at their firm. Isa ito sa mga favorite ng kanilang boss. May bali-balita pa nga na mukhang mapropromote na ito this year.

Popularity?

Oliver is hella popular! Rumami ang naka-follow dito nang matampok ito sa list ng isang popular men's magazine kung saan naka-feature ang mga pinakasuccessful at career-driven na bachelors sa Pilipinas. Nang maging sila ay nagdagsaan rin ang mga followers niya dahil tinagurian siya na isang maswerteng babae dahil nakuha niya ang loob ng lalake.

Attitude?

Well . . . she's gonna admit may mga ugali ang fiancé niya na hindi niya gusto pero sweet rin naman ang lalake. He had some qualities that she loves so much. Besides . . . napagtiisan naman niya ang paminsan-minsan ay masamang ugali nito.

Wala na siyang dapat hilingin pa sa isang lalake. Na kay Oliver na ang lahat.

But why?

Why can't she shake off the feeling of uncertainty about their upcoming marriage?

What's happening to her?

That damn cemetery made me like this!

Simula nang mapadaan siya doon ay biglang nagising ang kakaibang damdamin sa kaloob-looban niya na hindi niya maipaliwanag. Something that made her yearn for something that she doesn't know. 

She really needed to see a professional.

Gusto na niyang matapos ang agam-agam sa puso niya tungkol sa kasal.

She wanted to go back to her old self.

Napaigtad siya nang biglang nag-ring ang cellphone niya. She looked at it and saw that the delivery man was calling her. Mukhang nandito na ang pizza niya.

Agad siyang tumayo para lumabas at kunin ang order niya.

Tonight, she'll just enjoy herself. Tatanggalin niya ang lahat ng problemang iniisip.

Tonight is her 'Me Night' and nothing, not even that mysterious cemetery could stop her from enjoying herself.