My loveless marriage

Part 31

***Abhimanyu's P.O.V***

Slowly, I made way to the bathroom, with my towel in one hand, and Naina's words echoing in my mind. Can I consider it as a consolation prize if she loves to kiss me but doesn't love me?

A sudden emptiness had engulfed me that seemed to spread an empty void and dread within me, making me feel cold, inspite of the fact that I was standing under the warm water of my shower. Yes I had had multiple sexual partners, but it was all for the need of my body. First time I'd actually fallen for someone but she said she'd never love me?! She had had men in her life and though it didn't bother me, the fact that I was same to her like all those men who'd been in her life before me bothered me.

I'm her husband and I love her... is it wrong of me to want her to love me back?!

As yet again the image of my Naina with some random dude who held her and touched her and kissed her popped in my head, I hissed in anger and groaned in frustration.

Sure she had her own sexual release like I'd had mine but c'mon which guy wants to know about the previous sexual partners of the love of his life?! I for one want to go and kick every one of those guys for ever having touched Naina... probably kick them in the nuts?!

Though the thought did make me smile a little, but yet again the other thought - of how Naina told she'd never fall for me - made me groan in despair.

And then, my thoughts drifted off to last night, of how Shruthi was bawling her eyes out for Kunal, but then why was she flirting with Dhruv?

If I haven't told it already - women are fucking insane!! They're definitely impossible to understand! What was God really thinking when he made women?!

Give 'em brains, make them sexy... make it impossible to live without them... and oops, make them complicated as fuck - much more complicated than diffusing a time bomb! - my mind answered that question!

Well he ain't wrong is he?! How do I understand Naina, and how do I make a space for me in her heart?!

Sighing to myself, I quickly finished my bath and got out, dashing straight to the wardrobe to dress up.

*****

The rest of the day had gone by in getting ready for the reception, with Naina cooped up somewhere with my mom and other female relatives of both of our families! There was no news from either Kunal or Shruthi, while a sheepishly grinning Nikhil made his entry into the mansion later in the day.

"Niyathi agreed to go out with me" Nikhil chirped, as soon as my gaze clashed with his.

"Oh?! Uh congratulations!" I said, looking around for my wife as a group of giggling female cousins and relatives came down from the first floor.

"Naughty boy... you will get to see her later in the evening, and throughout your life too!! But for now, you need to get ready" Nikhil said, as though reading my thoughts, and sighing, I got to my feet, to get ready for the reception ceremony.

The reception was to take place in the Oberoi Hotel - the place where I'd first met Naina and had instantly fallen head-over-heals for her!!

I had expected Naina to be in our bedroom, but when the empty bedroom greeted me, I couldn't help but feel even more depressed if that was possible. The only comforting thought that at least she was in my life, with me... and not out there in some other dude's life!!

The sweet fragrance of her perfume filled my nostrils as I entered the wardrobe, making me sigh in content, a satisfactory smile automatically curling my lips - I get to at least have this woman in my arms every night!