The Only Exception (H. Styles/ Bwwm)

Chapter Twenty Four

I understood what he was saying. He just wanted this to be more about us being together than just sex. I really did understand it but, why did he have to kiss me that way he knew all it took was his lips to send me over the edge.

"If I didn't want this, I wouldn't be here with you or doing any of this with you. I want to be with you for more than sex Ren and that's why I want you to see that I want your heart... fully" "Okay, but's just know you already have it" I whispered and he shook his head not really agreeing with that statement.

"I have your pussy more than your heart, I need it the other way around love. And if I have to continue to prove to you that it's okay to let go and fall, I will no questions asked" he stated kissing my head gently before looking back at me.

"I don't know how to respond to that... but okay" I stated smiling making him laugh shaking his head as he got up and pulled me with him. I squealed as he scooped me up bridal style turning and heading towards his room. 

"Good but for now, you're tired and horny. Let's sleep it off" 

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I sighed turning around and cuddling into the warmth behind me. I instantly smiled hearing his deep breath as he slept. 

Harry.

I opened my eyes looking at the time on the cable box saying 5:14pm then I looked at him and that's where I stayed. I couldn't help but enjoy the sight. So adorable and peaceful. I've seen him sleep many times but something about this was different.

This could be yours and you could be waking up to this everyday. If you want to.

I do but...

I sighed biting my lip thinking about it all.

I trust him with my life, he treats me like a queen and don't forget, I'm ready to have another kid with him. So why the hell couldn't I make it official with him? Why couldn't I just take that chance?

I sighed closing my eyes knowing why... my parents.

The memories of my mother breaking down after finding out my father cheated on her. I remember hearing my mother crying in her room on the floor hysterically because she gave him everything she could and it still wasn't enough. He still hurt her.

No matter how good you are, no matter how much you give, you could still be cheated on. They could wake up one day and not love you anymore. That's love and life for you. I held onto that and instead of wasting my time, I skipped right over that. Why go through that to end up in pain I always thought.

I wasn't saying Harry would though, I just knew things could change. They were so good right now but once you put a title on it, things can fuck up. I just don't want to mess this up if it's already good.

And... I don't know if I could be as strong as my mother through that. She forgave him but, it took a toll on her. More than she let me believe but, I knew better.

I looked at him wanting to touch his face but I stopped myself sighing hating myself for doing this to him. For dragging him through hell before and doing it again because I wasn't sure of myself. I don't want to lose him but I cant keep doing this to him. It's not fair because he deserves so much better.

He's not asking too much either but for me to give this a try.

He deserves the world, a love like no other.  Why can't I give him that? Be the girl he needs and deserves. Be the girl he fell in love with years ago and still is.

Nothing would change between us either besides the title.

Go on dates, talk and act like best friends, spend almost every minute together and intimacy was already there. Just take the chance. what do you have to lose?

I smiled looking at him realizing, this could be my life.

I jumped a bit being pulled out of my thoughts instantly hearing the doorbell. I sighed getting up wondering if it was Eve dropping Gabby off. She would have texted one of us though, just to make sure someone was here. 

I froze peeking out of the curtain to see Amber there, a disheveled Amber.

I swung the door open instantly seeing that her eyes were red and puffy. My heart already dropped knowing it couldn't be anything but bad news. "Hey, what's wrong?" I asked opening the door to let her in. She hesitated for a second but came in only taking a few steps in before turning to me. I froze waiting.

"I'm sorry for barging in like this, is Harry here? I would have just called him but, he isn't answering -" "Yeah, I-I'll go get him" I turned jumping seeing him there rubbing his eye confused. He looked at me then back to her as I shrugged walking towards the room.

"No, you should here this too" she whispered out as I walked back only to be grabbed by Harry. I looked at him confused and his eyes were fixed on Amber with a straight face. I turned to look at her as she looked down then back to us shifting her weight as she thought of what to say.

I was nervous watching her act like this, and wonder what it had to do with Harry.

"What's wrong?" he demanded as the tears started to fall again. She looked over to me "I'm sorry..." "Sorry for what?" I asked feeling his grip tighten on my arm.

"I'm pregnant"