The Only Exception (H. Styles/ Bwwm)

Chapter Three

"You don't feel good mommy?" Gabby asked walking into the room as I laid there in silence overwhelmed with everything that happened last night. His words felt like knives in my heart.

She climbed on the bed laying next to me touching my forehead and I couldn't help but chuckle at her trying to check my temperature... as if she knew how to. I shook my head watching her "Not really baby" I whispered as she took a deep breath moving closer.

"You want a hug?" She asked and I smiled instantly opening my arms to her and pulling her into me. I kissed her head laying there for a few seconds feeling a bit better. I had barely any sleep and felt like shit but, she brought me joy. More joy than anyone else could.

But I couldn't get the feeling of guilt away from me. He wasn't mad that he was a father, he was mad because he never got the chance to do so until four years later. Even then, he had to reach out to me to find out about her. I swear it felt like the best thing at the time and, I couldn't go through with the abortion.

At the time, he wanted out of here. I couldn't be the person to prevent that, I wanted the best for him. It wasn't the easiest decision but, I didn't regret her at all. Not one bit.

Just wanted this situation to be easier for her. She deserved a happy family,  just wasn't sure if she was gonna get it.

"I love you" I whispered letting my fingers go through her curls gently. "Love you too mommy" she said sitting up to give me a kiss quickly. I wanted nothing but the smile on her face to stay there.

"When is Harry coming over again?" She asked and I sat up instantly taking a deep breath faking a smile. "I don't know baby" "Call him" she exclaimed and I nodded "I will later" I reassured getting off the bed with her in my arms.

"Hungry?" I asked walking out the room towards the kitchen as she nodded. "Pancakes" she cheered making me laugh nodding. "Blueberry or Chocolate chip" I asked putting her down to wash my hands and get everything out.

"Chocolate" Gabby said as she grabbed my phone playing on it as I made some breakfast hearing the front door open. I instantly turned nervous to see Bonnie and Lexi walking in. "Hi Aunt Lauryn" was all Lexi said before running toward Gabby excited.

Bonnie had two cups of coffee in hand walking to me smiling. I guess she knew it would be a hard night for me, best friend ever.

I knew she wanted to know what happened but, didn't want to push. I didn't want to speak about it but, I needed someone to talk to. Someone that could reassure me that this would be for the best, he deserved to know even if he hated me now.

"You look like shit" she whispered passing me the coffee making me laugh "I feel like it" I muttered turning to face the stove flipping over the pancake. I took a sip of the coffee then looking back to her.

"I'm guessing you told him" she stated leaning on the counter next to the stove. I'm pretty sure she knew how it went, we knew he would be pissed once he knew. No surprise. But is this how it will be from now on?

"What happened?" "He was pissed, was the angriest I've ever seen him. He hates me but..." I just shrugged. It is what it is, I messed up and now had to take the consequences whether I liked them or not.

"I mean... he can be upset for a bit, it's understandable but, he now knows he had a kid. He can be in her life now-" "If he wants. I don't blame him" I whispered putting the pancake on the plate with the rest of them then getting the mix pouring some into the skillet. Whatever he decided, I just had to accept. I was at a standstill.

"You had your reasons" she whispered trying to reassure me but, it wasn't really working this time. Maybe because she didn't see the anger that I saw last night. I don't think I could come back from that. At least not how we were before I told him.