The Only Exception (H. Styles/ Bwwm)

Chapter Twenty One

"Because I'm pretty sure my reaction was shit. I didn't know how to respond-" he cut me off instantly "It's okay-" "Everything changed after that... I'm just s-" He cut me off again. "Stop apologizing Ren" he demanded making me shut up instantly as my vision became blurry.

As much as we talked about that situation I don't think I fully explained myself or gave him a proper apology for everything. I just felt like he deserved more than just a plain sorry and move on. He needed to understand. He wasn't the reason I couldn't say it, it had nothing to do with him. I was the problem.

I pulled away straddling him as he watched me worried as I looked down at him. "I know you don't want to talk about it but... I need you to understand, you were never like those other guys. You were my best friend Harry" he nodded looking me over silent knowing I had more to say but, I was so nervous to say it. 

But, I was going to.

"I do love you, always have but, a relationship was a lot for me. I just want you to know that you were everything to me" I whispered trying to fight the tears but, I couldn't even if I tried. It hurt me seeing his reaction that day. It hurt like hell because I thought, that would be the end of us, our friendship.

His gripped tighten as I wiped them away looking down "I know we were friends but you were my best friend, more than that. I never trusted or felt the way I feel with you for anyone else"

I had to say it all. There was no going back. I leaned my head against his as he tried to calm me down but, I just had to say it.

"I don't know what's going on between us... I really don't but, I know I don't want to lose you again" Tear poured down my face as he tried to wipe them away soothing me in the process but the tears wouldn't stop. The fear of losing him again was... unbearable. We were closer than we were before on an intimate- deep connection kind of level. If I lost him again, I don't know what I would do.

"I'm not going anywhere, it's us forever. Hauryn forever" he reassured and joked kissing my head gently trying to make me look into his eyes. I tried not to laugh but I couldn't help it with the ship name "We are a happy family Renny- crazy but, happy family" he joked making me laugh a bit nodding as he held my head and I held his wrist keeping the eye contact.

It was intense and I could tell he wanted to but, he was hesitating. He still didn't want to cross a line if it would lead us back to four years ago even though he almost did in his room that day. I didn't think there was a way this could go wrong. And this time, I feel we were both on the same page.

He made the first move before, but I beat him to it this time.

I pressed my lips to his and with that, I was at the point of no return with him. As soon as I made the first move, he had no issue taking over and being in control, the way I liked it. He kissed me with so much desire and aggressiveness as if he was holding himself back from doing this.

As he pulled me closer into, shivers ran up my spine and my body turned to flames. He pulled away looking into my eyes as I caught my breath. "What are you doing to me?" I asked making him chuckle. "Took the words right out of my mouth" he whispered pulling me back down to kiss him with more urgency than before.

His tongue slipped in as I moaned lowly feeling his arms touch my exposed heat skin. One hand came up the back of my neck gently pulling my head back to expose my neck to him. All I could do was whimper feeling myself buck as I moved against him.

My core was throbbing like never before feeling him against me. I wanted more, my body craved more and if I couldn't get it, I would lose my mind.

"I want you" I whimpered out breathless looking down at him. He was up the next second with me in his arms and was heading to my bedroom. I held onto him till he laid me on the bed instantly getting between my legs as he kissed me.