Dreams Over Reality

Gasping

I called it gasping
While in the moment relapsing
Im caught again in a web of lies
Fight forward to meet a demise
Im lost in an overwhelming war
Stuck within one open door
Baby I needed you
But you ran off without completing you
I'm stuck with the issues in my head
Of all the things left for dead
I tried and tried to forget again
But the thoughts linger in my den
Im slowly finding my way back home
And yet you're the thing that stays in my dome
Kill me if you please I wont stop it
But please remember the things that were fit
Kayla I'm sorry I keep looking at you
But you need to stop giving me nightmares too
I fought it all with my heart
But don't forget that you ripped me apart
Im just trying to move on from the broken past
But you kept me from having to leave you to last
Jenna when you read this dont be upset
Because you know we all have that person we cant seem to forget
Its called love apparently
But im hurting obviously
I hate to say that im still fucked up
But the truth is only that and Im fucked up
I gasped for air and you gave it to me
I love you and yet my mind isnt meant to be
Stuck on one girl from almost a year ago
I'm always fighting for that all time low
Everyone should leave me alone
So I can just keep myself prone
To the negligence that infects me like a plague
I love you too im not trying to be vague
I just dont want to ruin what might be the next thing
That I can truly bring home with me and let out to ring
Im sorry if i disappointed you or even let you down
I just never want to be held back with a frown
When I want to smile and laugh like everyone around me
I just want to make sure we are meant to be
I want to forget my past but please just let me tell you what you deserve to know.