The Only Exception (H. Styles/ Bwwm)

Chapter Nineteen

Suddenly Bonnie popped up looking over at me as if she just thought of something serious. "Hey, whatever happen with Amber that day? You didn't look like you wanted to talk about it that day but, I still haven't seen her around since that day?" What made her think of Amber, talk about random.

I sighed shrugging "Don't think she's coming back" "Wait why? It's not like something was happening between you two, what happen?" She asked as I turned to her on the couch shaking my head thinking about that day.

"That sh- stuff with Tyler kind of confirmed her thoughts on us and messed everything up" "How? Everyone knew he was being desperate" "Well that's all she needed to see. She thinks he's in love with me" I chuckled shaking my head as she just shifted in her seat smiling at me.

"I know she's delusional" I joked as she shrugged thinking of what to say for a few seconds. "Well then, all of us are delusional I guess" she stated with a straight face and mine instantly mocked hers. That's not what I was expecting from her, I was expecting her to laugh so we can just brush that off but...

"What?" I asked sitting up as she rolled her eyes shaking her head. "Don't what me and play dumb. You can't act like you don't notice the way he is around you. It started cordial but, the more I see him around you, the more I feel he falls" she smiled as I shook my head. That's how we've always been, there wasn't a difference to me.

"You act like it's nothing major or no change but, think about it. If he's acting the same way he acting four years ago and he fell for you then..." she trailed off throwing her hands up shrugging. I sat up thinking about it in disbelief.

This was different than years ago, he didn't feel the same. He knew that that couldn't happen. It just wasn't for me, he understood it then, he shouldn't understand it now right?

Yet, we practically kissed that day in his room.

"Let's not forget how he was so close to murdering Tyler. Tyler was acting a bit... too much but, the way Harry was towards him... he seemed to want to lay him out on the floor and all because Tyler wanted you" "Because he wouldn't take the hint. All the calls and text were too much and he stepped in. That's how it's always been, even in high school. I had his back and he had mine" I explained trying to make sense of this.

"You two almost fucking kissed. And I guarantee if Gabby didn't barge in, you would have kissed him back and you probably would have thrown him on the bed. You two....there's something there... something deeper than any of us could explain but, one thing I can see is he loves you Lauryn" she spat out quietly watching me ready to argue about this or maybe even hit me if I deny.

"Before he did but now, we are finally on the same page. Friends, parents and that's how it should be-" I covered my head instantly as she grabbed a pillow and started hitting me with it hard.

"I hate when you're so stubborn. You're going to miss out on the perfect fucking guy for you because of what? This stupid thought of love not being for you. We all get hurt with love but once that perfect person comes, you drop that bullshit and fall for them" she growled out then continued to hit me as I laid there taking the blows.

"Just admit you wanted to kiss him cause if you didn't, you would have did him like you did Tyler. You honestly are wasting your breath trying to explain to me that you aren't falling for him or that there's nothing but friendship between you two" I looked up at her taking a deep breath as she waited hovering over me with the pillow still in her hand.

I thought about that day at his house, in his room. Feelings were at an all time high and I didn't stop him but that didn't mean we should be together. We had something intimate before but I don't know.

"I...like him but... I don't know Bonnie. Something is there but, something is just telling me to halt. Something is just stopping it. Maybe we just need to talk about it, I mean if it was meant to be, you think Gabby would have barged in like that?"

"We'll call him over now, I'll take Gabby and we will see otherwise" she simply stated smiling. I looked at her ready to protest then remembered she still had the pillow in her hand. "I need some time to think about all of this and think about what's best for us" I explained.

There was so much to think about before even possibly crossing back into what we had. We loved each other to death and we're the best of friends but, we were both so different in certain things that could make or break us. He was a hopeless romantic and I was not. I could have relations with someone and not get a attached but, he would.

We saw love two different ways and even if we tried, what happens if it didn't work out? It could mess everything up. Friends to strangers, love to hate again. I didn't want to chance it, not losing him again and that's why I would rather just leave things as is for the sake of not only us but our daughter.

"You getting your back blown out, dinner made, the perfect lover and father is what's best for you. Now stop acting like a pussy and at least give it a try. You're so hung up about the past that you're gonna fuck up your future where you're fully and truly happy" "Having a man will not change anything, I'm already happy" I winced as she hit me with the pillow.

"True but it just makes things that much better. Harry already makes things better, imagine you two together. Don't you want a happy family?" Of course I did for Gabby. I wanted nothing but happiness for her growing up. Things weren't perfect as I wanted it when I had her but, I would never stop trying to give her that. Safe and healthy environment, everything to help her grow up confident, sure of herself with the minimum negativity.

"We already are a happy family Bon, things are really good right now. I just don't want to mess it up" "You won't if you let it flow the way it supposed to. Meaning...stop fighting it, don't run from it. Let it flow" she stated leaving me sitting there in silence looking down at Gabby watching the movie.

However this works out, I just hope it doesn't affect her in any way. I wasn't the same girl that just let things go however they want. It wasn't about me anymore, I had to think every second move thoroughly. Weight the pros and cons of everything, take the chance and still be prepared for failure. That's just how I am now.

If this is supposed to happen, I would let it but still, have a lifeboat ready.