Ratliff's POV
When I get in I go straight down to recording studio and lock it so nobody can get in. I lay on the green moustache beanbag and fall asleep.
------4 Hours Later------
When I wake up I look over to my phone and see that it's 10pm. I decide to write a song. It took me 2 hours and by midnight it was complete. I stepped into the recording booth and started to record.
For the first time
She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While I'm drinking Jack all alone in my local bar and we don't know how
How we got into this mad situation, only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work, but, man, these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time
I got a new job now on the unemployment line and we don't know how
How we got into this mess, is it God's test? Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best
Trying to make things work, but, man, these times are hard
But we're gonna stop by drinking our cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night, saying things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time
She's in line at the dole with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my pride, and we both know how
How we're going to make it work when it hurts, when you pick yourself up you get kicked to the dirt
Tryin' to make it work, but, man, these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking our cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night, doing things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time
Drinking our cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night, saying things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time
For the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time
Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby
Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby
Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby
Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby
When I finish I transfer it into a disc. I sit in the recording studio playing the drums. I get lost in my own little world.
I end up staying awake all night. I leave the recording studio at 9am. When I go into the kitchen I make myself a coffee. I sit down next to Ross and Riker. Ross is giving Mark pancakes. I stare at Mark curiously. There's something about him. I push it to the side and begin drinking my coffee.
"So guys... I have some news... your going on tour!"-Ryland
I mentally groaned, it's never been the same since Rydel left.
"When do we leave?"-Ratliff
"In a week!"-Ryland
"Mary has to come!"-Riker
I mentally groan, just hearing her name .
"Does she have to?"-Ratliff
They all nod and I sigh. It's not like she is even part of the family. She us just a neighbour they have known for a month. What's next? Her moving in with us?
Ryland leaves to tell Mary and I go to shower. In the shower I start singing 'Sunday morning'.
I start thinking about the past 2 years.
•Kelly Cheating On Me
•Becoming Rydel's Boyfriend
•Going On Tour
•Kelly Kissing Me
•Rydel Leaving
•Becoming Depressed
•Going On Another Tour
•Thinking I Saw Rydel In London
•Visiting My Mom
•Mary Moving In Next Door
•The Camping Trip
•Now We Are Going On Tour Again
Rydel has missed most of that, I wonder how she is... I bet she has found another boyfriend, somebody better than me. I don't even know if she is alive...
God I miss her so much!
I wish I could just hold her in my arms again. Maybe one day...
I get out of the shower and dry off. I grab sweatpants and put them on. I decide to stay shirtless.
The day goes on slowly.
Mary came over to sort things out. She also came to pick Mark up. I recorded another song in the studio.
Then the guys and I decided to play some X-Box.
I also went to 'Menchies'. Kelly works there now which was really awkward.
I check twitter and reply to some fans.
When I'm scrolling down my timeline I see a tweet that catches my eye.
@Savannah-x-: Next week it's going to be the 2 year anniversary of @RydelR5 going missing, #FindRydelLynch!
Oh my god...I can't believe I forgot! The night of our show is the day that Rydel went missing! How could I forget! I feel so bad.
I check Rydel's twitter to see if she put anything on there since the last time I checked. (Yesterday...) I check everyday. So far nothing has been put on there, since 2 years ago. We didn't even tell the fans that 'Rydellington' happened...
Nothing new has been posted. I'm sure if she was alive then things would have been posted...right?
I start crying. I couldn't stop. I missed her so much. I feel incomplete without her, it's like there's this huge hole in my heart where Rydel used to be. I wonder if it's my fault she left. It just don't seem like her... she would never run away from her problems. She said she done it for R5. I have no idea what that means... I just wish she could walk through that door right now.
I must've cried myself to sleep as the room fills with darkness and I am no longer feeling the pain.
Hey My Lovely People! This Is Just A Filler Chapter! Incase You Didn't Know, That Kid In The Cover Photo Is Ratliff As A Kid. Just Imagine That's Mark...Okay? So Yeah... That's What Mark Looks Like! Thank You For All The Awesome Comments! I Know It's Not That Good At The Moment But Trust Me... It Gets Better! Drama Starts To Happen Soon! If You Have Any Suggestions Don't Be Afraid To Tell Me! What Do You Think Of The Story So Far? Also, If You Could...Can You Please Recommend My Story? It Would Mean A Lot To Me! So Yeah... I Think That's All For Now! Thank You!
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