𝑀𝐼 𝐴𝑀𝑂𝑅 ~ JUAN TOSCANO-ANDERSON

13

Alex

Me and juan were parked outside of the hotel in the car.

"so you nervous about tomorrow?" he said looking at me

" honestly yea because maybe i'm gonna have to move here" i said in a sad way

"that great ! right ? " he said looking at me worried

"yea" i said looking worried

"no it's not what's wrong ? do you not want this ?" he ask

"I DO i just don't know what to do" i said

" what do you mean ?" he ask

"I automatically said yes to michael. I didn't even think about back home. Like what will i do what the house ? Do i sell it or keep it? Who's gonna clean the dust of my parents head stone? Who's gonna give 'em roses ? Who's gonna visit them?" i said thinking of things that will happen if i move here.

Jordan's parent barely go to the cemetery. But I understood why they barely went. I always clean the dirt off their headstone, I give 'em roses and visit them so much.

" who's gonna do all those when i move here ? Who's gonna-" i stopped talking when Juan put his hand on my thighs.

I looked at him and cried

why the hell do I always cry ?

I put my hands on my face and started crying. Not gonna lie i'm one big crybaby. When i'm or frustrated or anger I cry.

"alex calm down please don't cry" he said grabbing me and putting my head on his chest

"i'm sorry i'm just frustrated" i said removing my head from his chest and wiping my tears

" Alex, don't cry he hasn't even told you the plan yet. He didn't say if you were moving here or staying there." he said and i calmed down and started looking at him

"Stop worrying you have people here to help you. You have the girls , the team , jordan , and me .
So stop crying alex wait for tomorrow and we'll see what he says. Ok ? " He ask and i nodded

"k come here" he said opening his arms and i hugged him back . All the negative energy fell out of my body and i relaxed in his arms.

"your a good man juan" i said mumbling in his chest

" thank you i'm here for you alex jus know that" he said

I broke the hugged and look at him and he looked back. I smiled admiring him

"soo when can i take you out on a date ?" he said

"slow down boy this is only my 2nd day here and we just met " i said

" Really ?! it's felt like a month" he said laughing

i laughed " okay well imma go thanks for the ride and the talk juan" i said

" yep call me if any alex " he said and i nodded and shut the door

" thank god !" i said to myself falling on the bed

I got out of my clothes and showered and went on the bed and i just thought to myself

Should i move here ? I've met new people today and we're already friends ? My dream came true and here i am. But should i move here?

My head says to go back home but my heart says to stay. But i've worked so hard to get be a singer. I never gave up.

WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT THIS ALEX ?! he hasn't even told you what will happen you know what imma just sleep and wait for tomorrow.

I turned off the lights and went to bed