Second Chances, How He Loved Again

Twenty Eight

Isabelle

My internship already started two weeks ago. I became very busy. Alam naman ito ng boss ko sa restaurant so I was all free. Ito na lang talaga ang pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon so I really want to give it my best.

This is getting me close to my dreams so I won't just give up on it especially because I am trying to prove something not just to myself, but also to my parents.

Kaya naman kahit kami ni Dylan ay hindi na rin nag-uusap. I know that it's absurd but it has been a month of avoidance already.

Noong mag-usap kami sa condo unit niya at sinabi niyang gusto niya ako, may three weeks pa akong paghahanda para sa internship. Ngayon ay two weeks na ako rito. So in total, one month and one week na rin kaming hindi nag-uusap.

Natutuwa na nga lang din ako na busy siya masiyado sa career niya ngayon. Kahit kulitin man niya ako nang kulitin na magkita kami at pag-usapan ang mga nangyari at ang mga sinabi niya noong araw na 'yon, wala rin siyang magagawa. He had a lot of commitments.

I only talked to some few people. That includes Laya, Franz, Andy, kuya Dennis at times, and then Jordan. Yes, him.

I don't even know why it happened but we grew closer as days passed. Oo busy sila dahil sa movie na ginagawa with Dylan and Sheraine but still, we had time to bicker at each other through our social media accounts. We would talk to each other before sleeping or during our most free times. Hindi ko na nga lang din ipinaalam kay Laya dahil siguradong kakampi iyon kay Dylan. She knows about what happened and was irritated and confused of my actions. However it happened already. She already knew how much I was trying to protect my heart from getting pained so she didn't just push me through it.

That's why she should never know that I am talking and bickering with Jordan most of the time. She'll get more irritated, of that I'm sure.

"Alam mo ang hirap mong kaibiganin!" she told me one time.

I laughed at her. "Bakit naman?" tanong ko rito pabalik. We were eating our favorite pizza while binge-watching our favorite online series.

"Kasi ang kulit mo! Hindi rin kita maintindihan. Grabe ka. Eto na 'yong hinihintay mo, pinalagpas mo pa! Ang ganda mo girl ah?" aniya.

"Naku, Laya. Alam mong hindi iyan ang hinihintay ko. I just want him to fully heal before he starts saying such things. It will just go to waste kung gagamitin niya ako o ang ibang babae bilang rebound niya."

"Eh hindi ka nga kasi rebound di'ba? Ang kulit naman eh! Nakakainis!"

"I love you too, madam." Inirapan niya ako kaya tumawa na lang naman ako and heaved a deep breathe. Hindi na siya nagsalita kaya tumuloy na lang din kami sa pagkain at panonood noong series.

We still had a lot of talks regarding that but it was all to no use. Pinal na talaga ang desisyon ko na magfocus na lang muna sa internship ko and I was glad because fate was finally on my side this time.

Palagi akong pagod galing sa hospital kung saan ako intern. We had a lot to do all day. Parang wala na akong panahon para mag-isip pa kay Dylan. We would wake up early in the morning, spend our whole day at the hospital, and then go home feeling all so tired. Ni hindi ko na nga alam kung paano ko pa nakakausap si Jordan gayong busy nga rin siya.