I WALKED into my flat, completely plastered. Slamming the door behind me, I slouched down to the floor; my back pressed to the concrete barrier of my so called humble abode. I didn't get drunk simply because Carolina and I had deteriorated our relationship for a safe measure, I got drunk because of her absence. Because I felt like it. Because it was all I knew these days. Drinking and fucking -- the perfect combination to avoiding the death of a friend.
I looked at my living room and suddenly felt lifeless. Amelia wasn't on the sofa watching some weird American sitcom, in just my sweats and loose t-shirt, hair done messily in a ponytail. The sofa was now empty. The last time we shared it was the very day I proposed to her, the very day we made love.
For the first time in about a month, I began to cry. Hot tears started to stream down my face and my mouthed scowled at the heartbreak it had buried within its depressed state. I lightly pounded my knee, then found myself falling to the side; tears streaming down my face. I couldn't do this. I couldn't keep on. I felt like complete shit for even avoiding Amelia and going off with that rich whore. I felt like complete shit just because I wanted to feel like shit.
The last thing I remember before fading into my drunken stupor was the dining room light hovering over me. And for some reason, I thought that light was Amelia; reaching down using her angelic touch to save me.
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The next morning, I awoke with my body feeling heavy. I stared up at the ceiling and sighed. Just as I was about to get up and smoke a joint, I feel my phone vibrate against my pocket. I groaned, slowly pulling it out. I looked at the Caller ID. It was my younger brother, Bertie.
"Hey, Bert. Ye alright?" I groggily asked.
"Hey," he greeted on the other end. "I heard about Max. I'm sorry about that. Are you doing okay?"
I ran a hand through my hair. "Never been better." I replied. "I sort of broke it off with Amelia, went with someone else, and then that went down the drain too." I sighed. "Are you alright?"
"Wow, that's bloody horrible. Sorry mate. Yeah, I'm fine. I wanted to see if ye can come by this weekend? We haven't hung about since ye left for Cambridge." Bertie was silent for a minute, and within that silence I could tell he was still affected by my absence after all these years.
I shrugged. "Sure. Why not?" I finally answered. Then, for some odd reason, I had this feeling that Bertie's request had to deal with something deeper than just us hanging out. So I asked him: "Is everything alright at the house?"
Shuffling wavered on the other end, and even though I couldn't see my younger brother physically, I could hear faint sniffles in the background.
"It's Mum." he finally said. "She's getting worse."
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Fanfiction"You stay with me, prepare to be hurt." .. He warned her about the dangers of being with him, but in the long run, it was he who got hurt. .. ©2016-2024 Valerie Matthews (Enchancer97) - All Rights...