Emily's POV
I couldn't go to the dinner, i knew i was gonna find her there so i didn't, it would have been uncomfortable to be in the same table. So I just stayed in my room, thinking. The way she was crying... I can still hear the way she was sobbing, all the pain she was trying to take away from her with those tears. Probably in a few minutes she's gonna come here, she has to come to sleep. I don't what I'm gonna do, I'm wishing she will come to my bed again and hug me, but obviously that is not gonna happen, I know she's just gonna ignore me and go directly to her bed. It's gonna hurt, but I deserve it. I rest my back against the wall and I close my eyes. I need to stop complaining and try to get her back, I don't care about Spencer right now, she's more important for me. I try to forget about everything for a minute, I need to calm. I only need a minute, just one to clear my mind. I don't think about anything, I just hear the white noise of the silence, with my eyes closed and my muscles relaxed. I can feel my heart slowing down and my breathing going normal. I don't have that frustrating feeling inside, I don't feel it anymore. It's working, I'm calming down and I'm feeling a little bit better. Now that I'm more calmed I can clearly think about everything. It was my fault, it was my mistake so I'm the one who has to fix it. I don't think right now it would be a good moment to do it, I'm gonna wait 'till tomorrow. I know it's gonna be hard to be in the same room as her but in different beds, Her body won't be against mine, I won't feel her breath on my neck and I won't wake up with her by my side, but there's a time for everything, and I try something now everything will be worse, the wait it's gonna be worth it. This is the first time I actually calmed, think about the problem and I find a solution. I used to go crazy and mad with myself, make everyone stay away from me and be alone for days... this is so much better, it makes me feel better. I change on my pajamas, I don't want to see her, it'll be even harder. I can hear people already walking across the corridors, she's probably about to walk in here to get her bathroom things, then, after a few minutes she'll come back from there and get into her bed. I already get into the bed, I want to sleep. The lights are still on but I don't mind, I'm so tired and I could fall sleep and keep sleeping with those lights on. I hear more voices and more noise, I hear girls screaming, laughing, making jokes... Suddenly I hear steps walking into the room. I want to turn and see if it's her, but I can't, I have to remember what I thought. By the time it's hear and the noise she's making in the room I can't figure out it's not her, the noise comes from the other side, that means it's one of the girls in the other beds. I hear more and more voices, more steps coming closer and more laughs. Another person walks in, it's sounds different from the last one. I can feel that person getting closer and closer to me. I hear noise right next to me, it's her. I want to open my eyes, but I'm facing to the wall, she won't see me and I won't see her. I just listen, she's taking her tooth brush. Once she gets it, she walks away again. I feel relief again, I got so nervous but I knew it was going to be like that. I keep waiting for her to come back, the others are already here, except for one, the one in the big bed. I'm starting to fall asleep, I can feel it, my eyes are tired, I have them closed but I can feel it. Suddenly steps inside sound again, closer and closer to me. It's her, I'm sure. She leaves her things, changes and then I can hear her getting in the bed that's behind me right now. Just a few seconds after the lights turn off. I can feel her behind me, I wish I could go down with her right now and wrap her with my arms, but I can't...
I fell asleep so fast, I just woke up with the lights on my face like always. I decided that I'm gonna take a shower later, I want to talk with Aria and Cece. First I want to apologize and tell them how grateful I am to have them and then I'm gonna tell them what I thought I'm gonna say to Alison. She's probably going to take a shower and be with Hanna after it, so they won't notice they are gone with me. I stand up fast, I take my clothes and change on my bed, if I change down I'll have to see her. Once I'm changed I jump and basically run out. I look back before I'm out of the room, I couldn't help it. She just woke up, she was taking her clothes. She didn't see me so I just walk out and make my way to Cece's room. I walk right next to Aria's room, she's taking her bathroom things. I walk in, she looks at me with a little smile.
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Locked (Emison)
FanfictionAlison Dilaurentis, the new one in here. Shy, unconfident, betrayed. Emily Fields, mysterious, does whatever she wants, doesn't care about anything. Locked in the same place, different from each other. What will happen?