My diary: an interactive project. Sort of.

5/8/11

I hate having limited time to do things! I really want to write a full update, I was planning something, but I can't do it. I don't know if I'll even get this done tonight. It's currently late Sunday night, and this might not be up till Monday. I'm really sorry. I just wanna cover some important things.

First, I'm collaborating with Toni_lonelybabee on another profile, and we are going to do a bunch of stories with other people! So if you want to write one with one of us and post it on there, just message me, or her, or on the other profile: we_thepeople

I'm excited about it. We are going to do an opinion story, sort of like this except more opinion and less experience, and it should be started this week, so please read it! But only if you want. I don't wanna force anyone :)

I'm also kinda nervous though. I feel like this has become my baby in a way, and I know that I'm not very good at working with people. I'm very insecure and need constant reassurance. When I write this, I do it knowing that it's for me and the readers. But if I try to right with someone else, I'm gonna be scared the whole time that I'm bothering the other person with questions or doing something wrong.

I think that's why I use so many smiley faces. I like to reassure people that I appreciate everything, since it's so hard to portray emotion through text.

Anyway, I just wanted to get that out there. Feel free to join us! I'm going to try my hand at an actual story if anyone wants to write one with me, so don't be afraid to ask! I'm scared that I won't be accepted because I'm so unknown( haha so punny right?) and I haven't really written a story. But hopefully it will all turn out ok.

Second:

I just wanna say how much I love my mom. Not just cuz it's mothers day either.

I was talking to her last night, and we talked for hours. You know how I said I thought she was just hiding her feelings? She is. She just doesn't feel comfortable talking about it or going to the doctor for it. Which might partly be why I can't talk to friends about it. She says I'm an exact copy of her when she was our

age. But she promised that when summer comes she would take me in to the doctor. I'm nervous about it, but I just really want it to be fixed. And I want to know it's not all in my head.

I think it's going to get better. I think I'm going to change.

So hey, if you're questioning staying with the story, it's about to make some progress! I'm adding suspense! :)

I just wanted to get that out of the way. I feel better now. It helps so much to unload all of this.

I'm really really sorry it's so short; I just have so much to do now that school is coming to a close! Only three more weeks as a freshman. But I don't wanna think about that, cuz thinking about the future make me sad and scared and nervous. And I don't like those feelings.

So wish me luck on getting through this week, and on my writing, and on getting better!

I'm hopeful. And that's all I could really ask for right now.

Goodbye, my faithful readers. Thank you all so much.

DFTBA.

I feel like I had to say that while I'm in a good mood.

Btw: I can now say that I am s Starship Ranger. Has anyone else seen Starship? It was awesome!

Did I mention that already? I don't even know anymore. I'm losing my memory :P