My diary: an interactive project. Sort of.

2/6/11

I am stupidly excited for the premier of Glee. It's a guilty pleasure. As much as I hate most of the cliched characters and reused storylines, I love watching it. I'm shaking from excitement. Not really, but I'm restless and jittery. And it's not from the Superbowl.

How is everyone? Who's gonna win the Superbowl? Kinda late on that one, since it's already halfway over. Hm.

So I guess I should tell you what happened this weekend. If you recall, ( which I don't really expect you to, my problems probably aren't a big deal to anyone else, cuz I'm really just another person) F2 came over yesterday. It was nice having her here again. It was kinda weird and awkward at first, and S kinda avoided us. Then F5 came over and it got better. I think it went well.

There was no big discussion or anything, but everyone got along well enough.

S still says that F2 can't come over very often, but she agreed to once a month if F2 wants to keep coming over.

So that was a big part of my weekend.

Also, I wanna say thy I've felt kinda bad all day. Just sad. For no particular reason. But ice been happy for a few weeks, except for a few incidents, so ots only to be expected. It's a pattern with my life, for as long as I can remember. I'm happy for a dew weeks, then depressed for a few months. It also happens on a smaller scale, ok all day then depressed at night. I don't know why.

It takes so much energy being sad. I try to stay out of it, but it just feels like there's something missing from my mind, or my heart, or my soul. Something that's keeping me from enjoying life. But I don't mean to sound dramatic. I'll be ok.

F4 wasn't at school Friday. I hate when she's gone. It makes me feel pathetic to walk alone and sit alone at lunch. Plus I really miss her. Whenever one of my friends is gone I feel like someone took one of my arms off. I don't have many friends, so they all mean a lot to me.

(you guys mean a lot to me too ;))

So. That's about it. I'm so excited for Glee, but if the Superbowl runs late I might not be able to stay up and watch it :/ oh well, I'll watch it in the morning.

Happy superbowl sunday.

Goodbye.