Part 2 to No Longer
You would think that with the turn of events between me and him, everything will get better. Apparently life has a way of fucking us both up. He promised me that it will be the last time that we end up yelling at each other but only a week after, the cycle continued.
He would get home, I would just be there. We would somehow start arguing about little, stupid things like the flavor of pizza we ordered or who will be the one to wash the dishes. After being together for three years, those petty things may be the ones to break us apart.
He's always recording, being interviewed, going to events, and even touring. While I, on the other hand, sit around at home, trying to finish my college years, cooking, cleaning, and studying. If ever we have time together, our temper gets the best of us.
He's tired. I'm tired. We're always fighting, always angry at each other. But why do we still stay? All because we promised each other that we will be together until the end, no matter what happens. But is forever really worth it when we're at one another's necks?
This has happened before. I've seen it happen to other people. I've see it happen to my best friends, my brother, my cousins... Love fades. Love dies. Love does not even exist in the first place. It hurts us to the point that we don't want to love again.
I stared at the blank wall, trying to put my thoughts together. They were all redundant, circling around one idea: Should I be the first to let go? The forefinger and thumb on my right hand were wrapped around the ring finger on my left, trying to decide whether I should take the engagement ring.
We both sat down on the sand, him behind me with his arms around my waist as I sat between his legs, leaning into him. The waves looked calm as the bright, sunny sky slowly turned into a beautiful gradient of orange and violet. He moved my hair to one side of my neck and placed his head on my shoulder.
"Can we just stay in this moment forever?" I asked softly as the darkness gradually filled the sky.
"We can't stop time, doll." He whispered, placing a kiss on the side of my neck. "Even if we want to, we can't. Things must go on."
"That's what scares me the most. What if time brings us apart? What if tomorrow when we wake up, you no longer feel the same way about me?"
"What has gotten into that pretty little brain of yours?"
"I guess I'm afraid of the uncertain change of events in this world."
"I can assure you that I'll never get tired of you. You're the only thing that makes this life worth living."
"But what if you do?"
"And what if I don't? What if I want to be in your life until your last breath? What if... What if I want to spend the rest of my life with you?"
I turned to look at him and he just gave me a small smile before pulling away. He stood up and eventually pulled me up to do the same. He knelt down in front of me and pulled out a black, velvet box from his pocket. I couldn't help but cover my mouth as my eyes grew wide at what was happening. He opened it to reveal a silver crown ring with beautiful, white diamonds on it.
"Y/full/n, we don't know what tomorrow brings us but I want to be with you every second of it, only if you allow me to. Everything in this world changes but the only thing I want to change is your last name to mine. Will you marry me?" He asked, looking up at me with hopeful eyes.
"Yes." It was all I could utter out as tears streamed down my face.
"Y/n?" I heard his voice ask, snapping me back to reality as I held onto the ring. "Y/n, are you okay?"
He appeared in front of me, holding my face in his hands as he wiped the tears that I didn't even realize were slipping out of my eyes. He sat beside me and took me into his arms. I couldn't help but bury my head onto his chest and let out a sob. I could feel his chest vibrate as well as he sobbed into my hair.
I guess this is the part where we let our anger, our pain, our sadness go. This is the first time in months that we let ourselves be vulnerable to one another. The first time in months that we have portrayed more emotions other than hatred and anger and annoyance. The first time we let our walls down to see what the other is going through.
"Do you still care?" I muttered, wiping my nose with the back of my hand. "Am I really worth nothing to you now?"
"No, no, no, no, baby, please don't think like that." He shushed, holding me closer to him. "You're worth more than my entire life. Please don't ever think that way of yourself."
"Then what the hell's happening to us, Shawn? Why do we keep fighting? Why do we keep hurting each other?"
"I... I don't know. I would be lying if I said that it has never crossed my mind before but I have never found the answer."
We sat there in silence, not knowing how to start up the conversation again or even how to continue it. I looked up at him and placed my hand on the cheek facing away from me. When he turned his head, I immediately leaned up and placed my lips on his. He pulled me even closer to him, if that's even possible, and tried to deepen the kiss as much as possible.
It felt as if it was our way of saying goodbye. Like any moment from now, we'll eventually let go. But I guess that's the best thing for us and our sanity. If we're falling out of love, so be it.
"I think it's time we let go." I whispered against his lips. "Give each other space even if it's just for a few weeks. If we're really meant to be together then fate will find a way to bring us back together but for now, I think this is for the best."
"If we don't see each other again, just know that I loved you." He said as I slowly slipped out of his grip. I slipped my ring off of my finger and placed it in his hand.
"I loved you too. "
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A/N: Proud of myself for making this in just one morning😂 I'm sorry for the breakup imagine when it's literally only a few days before Valentine's 😂 Should I make one of those Cupid!Character x reader imagines? I mean, I literally was obsessed with it before 😂 Just for the sake of actually making something sweet
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