A/n:this is a diary entry from Alison after she rejects emily in the locker room.
Dear diary,
Hi it's me ail,i know i haven't written to you in a while but something happened today.so i have been playing with Emily's emotions for about a week and at this point i don't think i'm playing anymore.At first it started with being sweeter to her then my hand would "accidentally"brush against her in the hallway then the library happened and she kissed me and for the first time it felt like nothing bad was going on it felt like A was gone and i was happy even though it was a sweet and short kiss it still felt right ,good almost,that's when i started to think as Emily more then practice but i would never tell her that.After a week of doing this the locker room happened.Emily and i where getting dressed and talking about Paris i asked her to hook my bra for me.after she did she gently touch my shoulder and kissed my neck.I turned around and confronted her i said that she was practice and that it meant nothing to me and when i saw her face my heart broke she was leaving but i made up some thing about her being my ride and made her stay but to be honest all i wanted to do that entire time was push her up against the lockers and kiss her and tell her that she's not practice that she means the world to me but i chickened out because that's what i do in situations like that.Now we all know that i'm not good with talking about emotions i never have been but i know one thing.I love Emily i'm in love with emily fields but i could never tell her because the truth is i'm scared of loving her i'm scared because i know that i will do something wrong or stupid and ruin it i know i can never love her the way she dose me because i don't know how to.i hope one day in the future i will learn how to love that way and when i do i will love Emily till the end of this earth i will love her no matter what.thank you for listen diary your the only one who truly gets me write more soon hopefully
Xoxo-Ali