Camila's POV
When I heard Lauren came back and entered the house, I stiffened. I deleted the messages of her in her phone and almost tempted to delete her contact too. I felt insecure. Suddenly a whole image of Lauren painting Lucy while she was naked appeared in my peripheral vision. I could also visualize being the vice- versa. I was the only one who claimed her and I only had the right to see the entirety of her. No one has the right but me. She's my Lauren. Lauren swiftly entered the room with a bright smile on her face.
"I bought some groceries. I don't want to see you losing weight." She chuckled as she spoke. I didn't bulge, instead I remained staring from afar; like she wasn't really there. "Camz," I gulped and met her waiting gaze.
What a really nice view of green forest those eyes always have been.
She smiled once again and winked. "You're zoning out again baby." Lauren slowly closed the door and walked towards me. She carefully sat beside me and checked my forehead and neck if it was hot. "Are you feeling sick?"
I shook my head like an automatic robot responding. I met her eyes and I sensed a whole variety of emotions in them. It couldn't be mistaken that she's long wanted me too as much as I did. She cupped both of my cheeks and I touched her hand with mine, slowly caressed it. "I missed you," I uttered in a soft whisper. "I missed you so much baby."
Lauren's eyes suddenly changed colors and these colors symbolize something else. I know this was dangerous and this was already a warning but I always took risks when it comes to her. I slowly pushed her back to position her into a lying position on the bed and her hair plunged perfectly to the pillow. I took a long moment to stare at her and whenever her eyes stare back, it's always given me a sense of nostalgia. Good thing, I did tie my hair into a ponytail and my hair wasn't blocking her view of my own.
"Always the most beautiful girl I've ever laid my eyes on." Lauren muttered in a soft tone, almost seductively it sent chills over my whole body. I pressed my lips against her forehead then turned against her nose, softly and perfectly. She closed her eyes in return and waited where would be the next destination of my lips. I locked her lips against mine and I half- smiled when she responded to my kisses. Then I remembered Lucy's smirking face; as if reminding me that she saw all of Lauren. She saw all of my Lauren. I gritted my teeth and bit on Lauren's lower lip harshly. Suddenly, she jolted up and her eyes widened. I didn't care as I pressed my lips against the crook of her neck, nuzzled against it for much longer. I pushed my thigh roughly against her center eliciting a moan from hers against my mouth as our tongues danced along in between naïve and silvery kisses.
"Camz," Lauren spoke weakly. My hand roamed through her whole body while my other hand was stuck playing with her hair. My hand rested on her chest and I felt her nipples hardened against my touch as it remained on her breast. Unsatisfied still, I put my hand inside her shirt and quickly unclasped the hook of her bra. She pushed me back slowly, her pupils dilated and her lips swollen from the whole make- out scene. "W-what are you doing?" I didn't answer her with words; instead I silenced her when I removed her top revealing her bare chest. I lifted my weight to be on top of her and once again, she moaned against my mouth. I quickly unclasped the hook of my bra and removed my top to reveal my bare chest in front of her lust- filled wandering eyes.
I was straddling her in the middle of the room where she was supposed to keep her art collection. She was staring at me pleasurably as her hands rested on my thighs, tracing circles around them repeatedly. We were consumed in silence as I stared at her beautifully formed and exposed breasts. I gently touched and played with her nipples as I lay down on top of her, her heavy and stuffed breathing were enough to keep me going. I, once again, pressed my lips against her neck while I caressed her breasts and cupped them with my hands. I was being reminded of Lauren being naked in front of somebody else and so I sucked on the soft skin around her neck, aggressively kissed and marked what's always been mine and left a bruise.
"H...hickey?" Lauren conversed even when she was obviously out of breath. I placed my hand on her center and I could feel the dampness that was covering her slick core. I quickly pulled the zipper down along with her undies and willingly, she helped get rid of it. Upon pleasure hymns Lauren kept on muttering, I rubbed my hand on her slickness and leaned in to kiss her swollen lips.
She pulled down my shorts in a quick move and I moaned against her ear as our nipples touched and she rubbed her hand freely on my center. I snuggled my lips on her neck, sucking on the soft skin as she snaked around my waist pulling me even closer to create more friction against our damp cores. "F...fuck! I'm s...s c-close, baby!" Lauren cried out helplessly as I entered two fingers in her entrance and she rocked herself against my hand and I couldn't help but bite my bottom lip at the sight of her vulnerable state under me. I added one more finger entering her slick core and I pumped in a rhythmic move as Lauren rocked her hips against my hand.
She rubbed her hand against my core and I satisfied myself by grinding my hips harder on hers as she elicited moans and sounds that always have been music to my ears. We stayed like that in sync and I kept on kissing Lauren's swollen lips down to her throbbing breasts and bit her nipples carefully and slowly. "Camila, I can't hold it anym-." I interrupted her when I covered her mouth with my other hand. I pumped inside her even faster as she grinded herself harder in motion. I did the same and slowly I opened my eyes to witness her squeezed her eyes shut. Upon our fullest pleasurable state, she steadied herself by touching my shoulder, her nails grazed on my skin and sure left visible marks. Even in my weakest state, I watched her release her loudest gasp and moan as I did mine too. She shivered under my whole body as her orgasm came. "Oh my god," and I rested on top of hers in haze. Instantly, I took my fingers out of her core and upon seeing the wetness, I licked them while Lauren stared at me in such awe. "That was s-something."
I covered our naked bodies with the white blanket and stared at Lauren's eyes as it gradually changed colors. None of us spoke, I lay on top of her and the only witness of it was the whole sky above us. I could never imagine being with someone not her, not ever in my life I could wish to lie down with somebody else.
"I love you so much." I whispered and I could feel a tear escaped my eye and it freely dropped on Lauren's bare chest. I could feel her stiffen under me and she snaked her arm around my back. "I am so much in love with you."
She lifted my chin up to meet my eyes. "But why are you crying?" She asked in full curiosity.
"Happy tears, I guess?" I answered, but she didn't take it as an honest reply. Although, she pressed her lips against mine slowly then turned to my nose until her lips solely rested on my forehead. "You are still in love with me, right?" I asked although it seemed that my voice broke along with my heart.
"I will never ask you to marry me if I'm not in love with you." She spoke softly. "Imagine I'd be putting up with your mood swings every day and I would have to buy you food at 5 am in the morning and even take care of our babies if you're too sleepy." I smiled at her genuine response. "Let me just do something real quick." She excused herself and stood up, didn't even bother to cover her naked body with a blanket, walked towards the drawer. Even though I've already seen her naked, I could still feel my face flush.
I noticed she took out a cd player. "What are you gonna do with that?" I questioned.
Instead of answering, she put a tape and the song started playing and suddenly the song hit my ears like I was back in the 90's and it sounded so good.
Whispered something in your ear
It was a perverted thing to say
But I said it anyway
Made you smile and look away
Lauren walked back and jumped on the bed playfully. She snaked her arm around my back as we're both sat and our backs rested on the mattress. "This song has been stuck in my head for a while. It reminds me of you too." She admitted as the song kept on playing.
Such eargasm.
Nothing's gonna hurt you baby
As long as you're with me, you'll be just fine
Nothing's gonna hurt you baby
Nothing's gonna take you from my side
Lauren held my hand and focused on the ring that's wrapped around my finger. "So beautiful. I think it's about time we talk about the wedding, don't we?" I stared at her and nodded my head sheepishly as I got into the music. "Remember what Dinah said, they should see us on our wedding or we don't see them at all." She chuckled.
"I think wherever you want to get married is okay as long as I get married with you." I confessed and the green-eyed girl kissed the back of my hand tenderly. I've been so in love with this girl I couldn't see the future anymore without her. "I think you're the sweetest person, Lauren." I told her and she smiled warmly.
"Definitely not. I think you are, Karla." I glared at her right then and smacked her shoulder. "I don't really get why you hate your name when I used to come calling out for Karla." I slapped her shoulder even harder this time but she caught it and she winked at me.
When we dance in my living room
To that silly '90s R&B
When we have a drink or three
Always ends in a hazy shower scene
Nothing's gonna hurt you baby
As long as you're with me, you'll be just fine
Nothing's gonna hurt you baby
Nothing's gonna take you from my side
"I'm just kidding, baby." Lauren laughed wholeheartedly as I covered my body with the blanket. "It's not like I haven't seen every bit of that! You just can't seduce me and get shy all of a sudden. That's no fair!" I poked my tongue out at her.
"Nope, I didn't seduce you." I informed her straightly.
She cupped both of my cheeks. "Then what did you do? Hmm?"
I leaned in closer until we were only inches apart. Suddenly, her hands left my face and her breathing got unsteady. "I wanted to make love to you. I wanted to touch you. I wanted to feel every inch of you." I whispered teasingly and turned away. "That's just what I did."
I stood up and when I looked at Lauren, she seemed to still not recover. My naked body was still covered with the blanket and I stood just right in front of her. Lauren's brows furrowed as to why I halted right exactly in front of her.
When we laugh into the microphone and sing
With our sunglasses on, to our favorite songs
When we're laughing in the microphone and singing
With our sunglasses on, to our favorite songs
Nothing's gonna hurt you baby
Nothing's gonna take you from my side
The song stopped and it was finished but my mind still couldn't remove the image of Lucy and Lauren together, one of them being naked to be painted. I might have felt overly insecure about myself but what does really Lauren think about my body? Did she compare it to mine when saw Lucy's? Was Lucy's body better than mine? I hated the idea that the simple text could make me feel a bunch of emotions all at once.
Sure, eyes are used to look at things. You could call me selfish all you want but I've never wanted Lauren to look at somebody else, especially not at their bodies even if it's for art purposes. If she wanted to paint a naked body, she could ask me and she could paint me, transform my body into wonders.
But then again, am I really sure or Lucy just triggered the hell out of me?
I slowly removed the blanket that was covering my naked body and I could vividly see Lauren's eyes widened and her mouth gaped in response. She gulped heavily in complete astonishment. I walked towards her and her breathing seemed ragged and heavy.
I breathed. "Paint me." She looked up to meet my gaze. "Paint me, my love." I encouraged her, sweetly.
"A-are you sure?" She gulped in quick response.
I nodded my head and gave her a quick peck on the lips. "You haven't just seen my whole body. You've also entered my soul and I trust you more than anyone else in the world."
Lauren didn't bulge and she seemed like she was in deep thoughts. I couldn't help but feel even more insecure that she looked like she didn't want my offer. "If my body is not good enough then you can just say no." I spoke, hurt evident in the tone of my voice.
As I was about to cover my body once again, Lauren stopped me. "N-no," She hurriedly disagreed. "Of course not. You have the most perfectly- shaped body I've ever laid my eyes on. I just-."
"You just what? You just think that Lucy's body is so much better that it deserves to be painted unlike mine?" I argued like an immature kid. She looked at me in shock. "You think I don't know? She messaged you on the phone. I read it. It's either you painted her naked she did!" I concluded and Lauren just held my hand to keep me calm.
"This is exactly what I fear of," Lauren countered. "You are doing things that are beyond your control. I don't want you to do things because your emotions force you into doing it." I stared at her, seemingly not to understand where this conversation was going.
"I don't know what you're saying." I said.
She sighed heavily and stood up to reach me. Upon cupping both of my cheeks, she smiled. "I don't want you to think like that about yourself okay? If only you could see yourself through my eyes, you'd never think like that again." I closed my eyes as I reveled on her warmth. "Do you really want me to paint you? You know I would if you really wanted to."
I opened my eyes and I knew. I knew that I was ready. I
I nodded my head.
Slowly, I lay down on the mattress and my eyes were focused on the sky above. I didn't think of anything but ultimately surrendering my whole entirety to the girl I have been in love with. This could be another part of our journey and it felt good because it's not only in memories for tonight could be carved into a one beautiful masterpiece.
I could go back and I could be reminded by looking at what she could come up with.
Lauren stared at me contently. "I'm really lucky. You don't know how long I've wished for this." She admitted shyly and I didn't bother to respond for those stars above, they're consuming me now.
I closed my eyes and she started her work through her magic hands. I thought only words could perform magic inside all of us, but Lauren, she was different. She could do magic whichever she does and she's not lucky. I've always been. With every stroke, I could feel every inch of my body lightened up as if I was floating to reach the sky above.
Suddenly, when I opened my eyes, the stars were nowhere. I couldn't see them anymore.
"It's okay baby. Don't worry. They're part of you now." I heard Lauren spoke softly as her voice floated in the air and played like guitar strings in my head. "You are goddamn beautiful in every way." I smiled and closed my eyes again and got lost in her words.
This was the feeling of being painted by someone you trusted your whole life with. Not only, she was painting every part of my body but she was wandering inside me and that's where she was doing all the wonders. My mind was focused on our memories together, how long it had been and how many times we were being played by fate. But fate, as much as it enjoyed playing with our already messy lives, surely it never stopped believing in us. No matter how many times it separated us, we would always find our ways coming back to each other.
Every stroke, every line and every color is a destination. I'd always make it. I'd always go back home, to where I've been destined with, to her longing arms.
I didn't notice that it took long hours and Lauren already sat beside me; touching my cheek and stopping to my neck. She smiled when I already noticed her. "You're crying again. Why do I always make you cry?" She asked in a straight face.
"You keep asking. My answer is always the same." I was now in sitting position. "I'm happy." I declared full of love.
Lauren smirked. "I'm done with your canvass love but you can't see it just yet." She informed me and I pouted.
"But why?! That's unfair!" I scolded her and Lauren just shook her head. "Okay I won't force you to let me see it. But, will you let me see your painting of Lucy?" To be honest, the idea didn't really leave my mind.
"You don't have to," The green- eyed girl discouraged. I stared at her as I retrieved my shirt. "Well okay if you want to. Just letting you know that it was her request and I did it because I could."
I exhaled after I successfully put on a shirt. "No feelings?"
Lauren shook her head completely. "Stop teasing. You know you're the only one."
The green-eyed girl guided me to the room in which I followed her, where all her paintings are placed and in all honesty I wanted to go back because I felt like I couldn't do it anymore. Still, Lauren held my hand and urged me to go on. She left me in the middle while she was looking for the exact canvass.
When she found it, it was covered with white blanket. She looked at me first, sensing my hesitation and when I nodded my head, she slowly uncovered it. There, revealed into my eyes, a canvass of a naked girl while she was sat and there was a lit cigarette pursed between her lips. I walked towards the canvass and examined it once more.
"What's the difference?" I asked, out of the blue.
Lauren walked behind and snaked her arms around me. "Look around, baby." I followed. "The difference is that she is the canvass and you're the reason why I make them."
A/N: because I feel like I won't be able to update for weeks. Great day ahead, lovelies. Enjoy!