UnSavable

By VOXO17

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I jolted up, sweat dripping down my neck. I scrambled for the pills beside me and popped two into my mouth. "... More

-1- / -So not ready for summer-
-3- / -So Hard Headed-
-4- / -I messed up-
-5- / -So Hard Headed-
-6- / -Just a Quick visit-
-7- / -Blood-
-8- / -Take a breather-
-9- / -Mr. Nightmare himself-
-10- / -Straight Out Of A Magazine-
-11- / -Woah Tiger-
-12- / -Baby Oral Gel-
-13- / -Argue like a married couple-
-14- / -Carrie-
-15- / -It's On Baby Girl-
-16- / -The Care Bear-
-17- / -Suck Face-
-18- / -Nice Underwear-
-19- / -Slit Your Throat-
-20- / -Good idea Mr.Gnome-
-21- / -Electricity Shock-
-22- / -Sucker for Smiles-
-23- / -Anthony-
-24- / -It's not rocket science-
-25- / -The Two Pills-
-26- / -I Remember You-
-27- / -I Can't Anymore-
-28- / -Edible Arrangements-
-29- / -A Game For Two-
-30- / -First in a million-
-31- / -Be Normal-
-32- / -Breathe-
-33- / -Last Time-
-34- / -No New York-
-35- / -Baby I am slick.-
-36- / -You were right.-
-37- / -Man in the red suit-
-38- / -Red Eyes-
-39- / -Alice in Wonderland-
-40- / -Wake Her Up-
-41- / -Let the fun begin-
-42- / -Now we're having fun-
-43- / -Coward-
-44- / -Protective Like Me-
-48- / -Orange-
-45- / -Living Hell-
-46- / -Christmas Time-
-47- / -Cass's Journal-
-49- / -M00N-
-50- / -Brain Freeze-
-51- / -No Babies-
-52- / -I Can't-
-53- / -Chicken Soup-
-54- / -Perscription-
-55- / -Im drowning-
-56- / -Snake-
-57- / -Waves-

-2- / -She was a Queen-

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UnSavable

Part. 2 -She Was A Queen-

"Crazy = Genius" ~ Panic! At The Disco

Riley as Alexis Ren!

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I stared at the car in disbelief.

How can she even be driving?

I closed my eyes and opened the car door. The smell intensified. The scent of weed and alcohol engulfed my nose. Help please! I placed my bag down in the backseat and I noticed the amount of liquor bottles and rubbery... objects  in the back seat. I mentally gagged.

I closed the door and clenched my jaw, staring straight ahead.

"Well aren't you going to say hi?" She asked bitterly.

  Couldn't you have told him to stop?

"Hi." I rolled my eyes sarcastically, biting my lip. She sighed, Her breath hitting me like a punch in the face. Yea, She has been smoking. She's probably high right now. But she is clearly hiding it with her fur jacket and white pearl necklace, with that ruby red dress and this 500,000 car that my father gave her. She can't hide everything though. Her face looked sunken and she looks like she hasn't slept in a thousand years considering how red her eyes are. She pulled out of the school's parking lot and blasted music from the stereo. Loud obnoxious music shook my head, with the volume is to the point where I can feel the vibrations in my joints.

She pulled up into our house that was worth millions of dollars, but the inside appeared to be a dump. When she stopped the car I smiled to myself in relieve and I turned around, grabbed my bag, and opened the door. I stuck my leg out, but she gripped my arm tightly.

"Aren't you going to give me a kiss goodbye?" She asked.

Weren't you going to help me?

"No mother." I said coldly and shook her hand off of me. I fully stepped out of the car, not wanting to hear another word from her.

"I'll be back... Around midnight I have to do some stuff."

"Can I ask what type of stuff you're doing mom?"She glanced around, looking lost for a second. I brushed my hand through my tangled hair .

Can't even seem to hold a simple conversation for 5 minutes.

"Um... It's business stuff don't worry about it.. Trust me though... I'm just going to go have some fun with my gals... Anyways bye honey! Love you! See you soon!" She yelled from the window and put on her shades and pulled away.

I knew that whole entire sentence was a lie. A complete and utter lie!

She thinks I don't know what she's doing or she thinks i'm oblivious to the real world, the one she took away from me.

My hopes, dreams... dream of a perfect family. I used to be a kid that jumped onto their parents bed on Christmas to wake them up and run down the stairs to open their presents. I was a kid that didn't have to mature at such a young age.

That was me.

Both of them ended it for me.

I pushed away my 'dramatic' thoughts and unlocked the house with my keys. I closed it behind me and looked at the mess that I cleaned the night before. She was clearly here. I sighed. What a - I seriously should consider hiring a maid myself. I walked into my room and it was spotless. Not even a mess any where. I threw my book bag down and turned on my radio. I loved singing.

No one will ever catch me dead singing.

When I was younger the only thing I did was sing. But now, I'm ashamed.

"I'm never what I'm like, I'm double sided, and I just can't hide, I kinda like it when I make you cry..."

I sang peacefully.

'BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ'

My iPhone vibrated from the millions of text messages I was reaching in the group chat.

Yay. So much fun.

Kendall:  OMG do you know how sad I was today at school like oh M G I couldn't say bye
to Carter!

Me: Haii :)

Melody:  hey Cassandra ;)

Me:  hey :)

Riley:  hi Casey, I miss you

Me: aw I miss you too haha :)

I sighed. I wished I could be as carefree as these girls are. They have the luxury to be able to hug their parents when they walk into their homes. You can definitely say I am envious of them. Not only was that the only thing, but these girls are like Victoria Secret models. All of them have potential in the modeling world. I mean sure I am a beautiful girl, no doubt, but not like them. But in the smart department... Not that much. But that's not all of them. Some of girls are smarter than a whole group of 9th graders combined. Cassandra over here, well she's alright.

Jack of all trades i'd say.

My mother is a woman that was adored back in her time of modeling, so much to the point that she was labeled as sexiest lady alive, same as my father. Maybe I am prettier than what I actually think I am. But these scars that I've caused have down graded me.

I muted the chat and set my phone to the side before a notification popped up on the lock screen.

ALEX.

Alex: Hey baby ;)

Me: Hey.

Alex: I really, really want you right now. Meet me at the park at 6 ❤️

Me: Alex for what?

Alex: You will see ;)

Me: bye

Alex: bye baby <3

I screamed, nearly tossing my phone across the room.

How dare he! How dare someone like him exist! I knew exactly what he wanted. And I know, that whatever I try to do,

Alexander gets what he wants, when he wants it.

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Hey my bubbas, how are you guys? Hopefully you guys are doing amazing, just like Dylan down here. So, here's some shameless self promo, please vote, comment, and share UnSavable so that I can get your feedback!

Have a lovely day my bubbas!

Love, Victoria❤️ 

1038 Words written for this chapterrr.

{Lets talk about how adorable that wink is.}

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