Part. 3 -So Hard Headed-
"When I was a young boy, my father, took me into the city." ~ My Chemical Romance.
Comment a lyric from Welcome to the Black Parade!
I sobbed in my shirt, slowly soaking it with my tears.
I don't want to be like her.
I can't be like the person who I used to love with all my heart. Be like the person that would read me to sleep, Someone who I would sing with everyday and smile with my little tooth gap back when I was six.
I know... and I've told myself a million times, that I would never be able to be like her. I don't want to end up like her, no matter what.
My head ached as my tears flowed like a stream.
This isn't the life I wanted, this isn't the life I needed nor deserved. I've always been a good kid. Straight A's, never disrespected anyone, couldn't even hurt a fly.
My misfortune makes me force a smile, but that doesn't mean I'm a bad person.
I'm too young for this. I'm just a little girl! I should be talking about boys and being a kid, running outside and having mommy days with my mother.
I am not a dumb girl. I know exactly what Alex wants. We all do. Putting two pieces together isn't rocket science, so why is it so hard for me to accept the truth?
I can't allow myself to be at risk of having a video leak of me on the internet.
I don't want to be that girl who gets pregnant at the age of 13. Walking around and hearing people saying how bad her life is and how big of a slut she is.
And I don't want to have... sex.
I-I-I just can't.
I'm not going to let it happen.
It's already bad enough that I have to kiss that boy everyday without even wanting me to.
It's truly is a shame how much beauty can fool a person. Alexander is surrounded by everything he wants, and no one seems to understand what kind of a person he is. He would threaten teachers if then even so dared to complain to his parents about bullying, and beating poor kids to a pulp. He doesn't and wouldn't care if I say no.
He won't let me say no.
My phone buzzed violently, and I wiped away my tears with my sleeve and grabbed the phone.
Alex: are you ready?
Me: can't go, family are over.
Alex: tell them you need to leave
Me: I never see them.
Alex: JUST FUCKING LEAVE
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I jolted up, sweat dripping down my neck. I scrambled for the pills beside me and popped two into my mouth. "I shouldn't have done that." I muttered. I sat up shaking violently, waiting for the medication to kick in. Slowly I started to feel numb a...