Y/N POV
"DAME IT, pull yourself together"
I punched the tiles of wall of the shower and it cracked braking my knuckles but I didn't care, I didn't care that the blood pooled around me surrounding my feet as the water poured down my face, the pain was the only thing keeping me from feeling sick to my core, stopping me from feeling this heart ache, I was in for it now the Ministry would soon find out everything and it was all my fault, instead of keep Sebastian safe I've put him in even more danger, what was I thinking,
I leaned against the cold wall allowing the water drown my thought only to gasp for air when I heard foot Steps "Who's there?" Releasing that the food steps were of a boy my voice became higher then usual "this is the girls bathroom you know, I can report you, you know" the foot steps stop in front of my cubicle and I did my best to cover myself as I saw the latch slowly unlock
"GET OUT" I kicked the door closed with my foot and heard a familiar voice
"Ah son of"
"Sebastian? What are you doing in the girls bathroom?" Asked latching the door so he couldn't come in not that it would stop him
"Got lost"
"Bullshit"
I heard him chuckle outside the door
"Yeah no your right I was actually looking for Ominis"
"And you think he's hiding a girls bathroom"
"Hey I've found him some weird places okay"
"Ah ha"
"Don't believe me?"
"Oh no no no I believe you of course, he just so happens to be in the same bathroom I happen to be in" I teased
"It's a possibility yeah"
I rolled my eyes and folded my arms leading against door in hopes he wouldn't attempt to open it
"Soo.. you going to let me?" My ears felt very hot at this question and I coughed very loudly
"No I'm not going to 'let you in' get out"
"Fine"
And with that I heard his footsteps die away I didn't move until I knew he was out of the bathroom completely, then I heard the bathroom door click, did he just lock the door from the outside?
I moved away from the door and pressed my ear against it trying to hear.... Nothing so I turned around and my heart stopped beating as a tall freckled faced man tower over me making scream and react without thinking
WHAM
"AH FUCK"
"Holy shit I'm so sorry"
"Ah it's all right you only broke my nose"
My worry and fear disappeared quickly and turned into annoyance "are you completely out of your mind, you can't be in here"
"Why?" He asked dabbing his nose with his finger to see if there was any blood
"Because I am naked in here you idiot"
"So nothing I haven't seen before" his eyes flashed at my naked body making me blush furiously, all though this was true I still felt embarrassed showing him so much skin, but for him he wasn't embarrassed he walked closer to me and rested his hand on my cheek then something very sharp was pointing at my stomach digging into my skin
"Sebastian?"
His eyes hazel eyes turned black and he plunged the dagger deeper into my stomach making me gasp in pain, I fell to the floor and wrenched out the dagger but it wasn't there I blinked, the white tiled floor had turned to ice reflecting my pale, petrified face upon its glossy surface, I got up, someone had dressed me in a suit of silver armour a sword with a red ruby hilt lay on the floor in front of me, I picked it up and the moment I felt it's cold handed the words embroidered on it glowed crimson gold at my touch and it became warm and familiar but why? 'Godric Gryffindor's' name shone brighter as I held it in front of me as it guided me through the darkness, a black figure ran passed me making me flinch and point the sword towards the noise another flash of darkness flashed in the corner of my eye and I spun around tightly my grip on the hilt of the sword, a cloud of shadows burst out in the distances travelled towards me like a raging storm, i closed my eyes holding the sword in front of me bracing myself for the impact, but it never came, I opened my eyes, the shadowy storm was still billowing in front of me but a protective shield was blocking it somehow making it retreat behind me, around me, the protective shield broke away as the storm passed and I was left in darkness once more, then the frozen ice started to melt away and I was drowning again.
"Y/N!" I gasped for air, waking up in a sweat and sitting up in bed the sheets of my bed tangled in my legs, as I freed myself I noticed that Natty was sitting on the edge of my head holding her wand out for light,
"Sorry bad dream"
"You were screaming in your sleep again, you were yelling out Sebastian, is everything alright"
I put a hand on my forehead and felt cold sweat "yeah I'm fine just.. need a drink of water"
I got up and slid off the bed, walking across to the bathroom and locking the door behind me, I lent against the basin turning the table on and splashing cool water onto my face and watching the water swirl around down the drain, then I looked into the mirror, dark rings had appeared my eyes and my skin was as white as a ghost, I looked like a sick patient, then a pain so unbearable it made me sick to the core and I wrenched over the basin, my whole body was trembling as I felt my spine tear open and gritted my teeth in hopes to muffled my sight screams of pain, I lifted up my neck and saw my reflection, my eyes had become those dark red shaped pupils and my face was unrecognisable as it was covered in that scaly black skin, I bowed my head and took a deep breath "keep it together" I whispered to myself and at my words the pain was gone and when I looked up in the mirror my face was normal again.
"Wow you look like fucken shit"
"Thanks you want know I feel I can demonstrate by dragging you down to the lake by your ankle and watch you drown in it"
I slumped down at the Slytherin table and slammed my head on the table and started to groan "ruff night?" Ominis asked his sounding more courteous then Sebastian's rude comment
"You look as if someone forced you to sleep outside with a bunch of mandrakes"
I lifted my head up and rubbed my eyes
"I couldn't get back to sleep last night"
"Are you still have though nightmares"
"Sebastian why must you ask stupid questions of course she's still having nightmares, for once in your life use your common sense and look at her for yourself since I can't"
"Oh my god can you two please stop bickering you sound like a fucken old married couple"
I removed my hand from my face and reached out for the pitcher when..
"What's that?"
But before I would relinquish my hand and hide my arm Sebastian grabbed it and pulled up my sleeve
"It's nothing just a scratch"
But he could see through my lies and pulled it up to see the rest, it was not the fact that I was caught having cuts all down my arms that made me feel guilt but that Sebastian looked disgusted as he grabbed my other arm which was just as bad
"Fuck sakes, you promised you'd stop doing this" he shout
I released myself from his hands and turned my head to face my plate until he push his hand up my skirt
"HEY!" I slapped his hand but the damage was done, he had seen the long cuts cross my thigh I pulled my skirt back down and went red with embarrassment "do you mind we are in public"
"Yeah actually I do mind" he snapped
"What's happened?" Ominis asked
"Nothing" I added quickly
"Your are full of shit, she's bloody covered in cuts"
"WHAT! Not again"
"It really isn't any of your business"
"The hell it is"
"But why"
"I don't know" I buried my face into my arms hiding my face
"Right come on" and without explanation Sebastian grabbed my shoulder and lead me out of the great hall while Ominis trailed behind us
"Where are we going classes start in 15 minutes"
"Don't care"
We talked the familiar path towards the undercroft and I was dragged down stairs and forced to sit in an arm chair, while Sebastian fiddled with the straps of his bag
"What are you doing?" I groaned
"Your not walking around looking like you've been attacked my wolves" I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms and legs
"It's not that bad I was able to stop the bleeding... eventually"
"Eventually?"
Sebastian walked up to me and bend down on one knee, I couldn't resist smiling
"what?"
"Nothing you looked as if.. never mind" i blushed slightly as he raised an eyebrow then shrugged and lifted my sleeve up
"How far does this go?"
"Eh"
Sebastian looked deep into my eyes and I knew that I couldn't lie to him again but I knew if I told him i would surely lose his trust, taking a deep breath I pulled off my robes, look on his face made my heart burn and tears ran down my face as I removed my shirt, I had attempted to hurt myself as much as possible, burning myself with my wand marking each side of my waist, bruises covered my right breast and the side of my stomach, Sebastian's face went blank
"Please tell me that's all" he said his voice quivering
I nodded
He didn't say anything inside he poured the bottle of dittany onto the cloth he used the first time I cut myself and started dabbing at my skin.
It burned the entire time and it only got once he got to the burns
"Dame it, ominis I need another bottle of Dittany"
Ominis nodded and left the undercroft leaving me alone with Sebastian who continued dab at my wounds even though the cloth was now dry
"Sebastian I-" don't please I don't want to hear your apology or your excuses"
"But"
"No I've had enough" his words cut through my very chest like no other knife could
"If you just listen to me I can"
"No you need to listen to me, I can't watch you hurt yourself this.. this is too much how am I supposed to trust you how am I supposed to believe you won't do this again and leave you alone, how do you think this makes me feel"
"You think I like doing this, I never asked for this it just happens"
"Stop lying"
"IM NOT LYING" I sat up an unknown fury burned inside me, I wanted to yell I want to scream at him to understand that why I was doing this, he stood up towering over me like I did in my dream but inside there was a fire in his eyes I had not seen since his fight with Michael
"So you rather cut yourself then face that fact that you need help"
"I don't want help I just want to.. to" but what I wanted to do I couldn't say for it would shatter his heart which I knew was all ready breaking, I picked up my shirt and robes and hastily pulled them back on
"Where are you going?" Sebastian called out as I picked up my bag and walked out of room
"Away from you"
"Oh no you don't, get back here"
I ignored him but before I could reach the first step out of the undercroft I felt his arms wrap around me pulled me back
"let me go you ass hole"
I had forgotten how strong he was had forgotten how weak I was every-time he touched me but never so weak that I fell to my knees and started to cry in agony
"Shit" Sebastian turned me around to face him, his warm hands coving the side of my head as I struggled to breath through the pain and I looked deep into eyes with a desperate expression
"I'm sorry... please.. don't hate me"
"Hate you? I don't hate you, I'm frustrated and hurt but i don't hate you"
Tears ran down my face and fell on the floor and I felt his hands grab my shoulders
"I could never hate you, but I can be angry but I can also help you, you just need to trust me"
"I do trust you"
"Then why did you hide this from me"
"Because I was afraid you'd be mad that i broke your trust"
"I'm more mad that you didn't come to me able this"
"So your not angry that I hurt myself?"
He smiled
"No I'm fucken furious that you burned your Beautiful skin, bruised your magnificent breasts, and cut your incredible thighs only I'm allowed to do that"
I rolled my eyes and stared into his smiling softy, I didn't know what it was if it was something that gleamed in his haze eyes or if that he was so close to my face that I could count every freckle on his handsome face, to think just a few hours ago if Natty hadn't of walked into the girls bathroom that morning I wouldn't be sitting on the cold floor looking at a perfectly good looking man, but it was his soft touched that made my heart burn so bright, was I falling in love with Sebastian Sallow?