Happy BTS day to my Army family.. Its been 8 years with our 7 angels.. Though am a Taekooker but I have already told you I stan each members equally.. Each of them really inspired me in different ways.. And am sure it would be the same for you all too.. Today I will share with you how I started my journey with our boys..
I came to know about BTS when I was going through a terribly bad phase in my life.. both personally and professionally.. I was a happy going and optimistic person for my family and office.. I was very innocent and genuinely cared about people surrounded me irrespective of their background.. I used to plan surprises for them, celebrate each moment for them.. Then suddenly due to my anxiety issues everything changed... I started to stay away from everyone.. I had smile on my face but under the mask I was dying.. My husband truly loves me so he used to comfort me and asked me about my worries but i couldn't express the pain.. I felt I might hurt him explaining myself to him..
It was really hard for me to spend each second in my life.. I even thought of committing suicide.. So one day I lost all my hopes and I went to meet my family for a last time as I was staying with my husband and in laws.. And I had a happy dinner with them and suddenly they disclosed something big..that my father was battling a serious heart failure issue.. that really shook me again because for me he is the most important person in my life, so decided to live for my father's recovery.. I went to stay with him with my husband's permission..took care of my father and surgery went well.. during the time I started to browse for comforting songs just to get relieved from my anxiety which getting higher as I was all alone.. and I came to listen magic shop.. that was the moment.. I downloaded the song and kept in the repeat mode... and I cried like hell under shower.. that was the first breakdown I had after several moths of hardship and depression... Even though I listened to few songs of BTS before that, I really didn't get much time to get to know about them.. But after that moment I started to follow bts I listened to all the songs and watched run, bon voyage videos..and it completely changed my life.. and BTS became a great part of my life..
I started to take things in different angle.. I started to care about myself.. gave myself time and happily started to love myself.. and things began to change..💜
I listened to RM's advice of the importance of speaking ourselves, I spoke to my husband about all the pain I was going through and he hugged me like hell and apologized for not understanding my anxiety issues.. he became my strongest support system... And it gave me courage.. I spoke to my superior manager in office and I promised her that I will work hard and complete all my assignments within a month and I successfully kept my promise..💜
I started to spend few minutes in my daily life for those who need support.. There are lots of Army people who posts 'helpme' messages in weverse, insta bts page etc.. to be frank nobody cares about them.. I used to motivate them with my messages and also people outside these platforms.. because I believe being an elder Army it is my responsibility to share the love and happiness..💜
My father's surgery went well and my family is really happy now.. Last November we celebrated my brother's marriage amid covid crisis and we danced to Dynamite song having all my loved ones beside me and my BTS fam inside my heart..💜
I was very much into writing and reading until my graduation.. After that I didn't get much time to engage with any of it.. In last December, I started writing this story which really helped me to overcome my work stress and also polish my writing skills once again.. Then my husband gifted me a Canon DSLR camera for exploring my another passion.. And we even made a photography video with Winter Bear background score.. 💜
However, in January 2021, another set back came.. One of my close relative passed away and then very next week I tested Covid positive.. But I didn't lose.. I fought again.. Though the side effects of covid really affected my physical health, I concentrated on writing this story to make my mental health strong.. I listened to Winter Bear and Still with you most during those time.. And 4 th day of being tested covid positive, and also a day after my husband's birthday I again tested positive but this time with a great bundle of happiness.. My pregnancy.. 💜 And here I am on my 6th month of pregnancy on the day of 8th anniversary of my BTS.. And on 15th June I will be celebrating my birthday too.. I resigned my job to concentrate more on my baby.. Now happily spending more time enjoying my passion..💜
Sometimes I used to wonder, being very younger to my age, how these 7 boys could comfort me through their songs and videos more than my own people.. My friends and my family used to make fun of me about my love for BTS.. But still my love for them became more stronger because only I know how much you guys influenced me, helped me, saved me..💜
I started to become an Army being a Taehyung bias..🐯 Because for me he is completely an alien from another planet.. The way he lives, behaves, spends everything is unique and precious.. Truly a happiness preacher..
But when I started to know about all the other 6, I couldn't resist myself to stan all the members equally..💜🌈
It was RM who urged me to speak myself out..🧡
It was Jin who showed me how awesome is to be an elder person of a family..❤
It was Hobi who taught me to spread happiness around and look out things with hope..💛
It was Jimin who explained how important its to take care of people around us..🤍
It was Yoongi who taught me to be the savage queen of my own life and answer haters with my own success..💙
It was Jungkook who taught me to live with a passion and whenever i feel weak just to look at the army tattoo on his arm and remind myself of his love💜
and again it was Taehyung who gave me the courage to live myself be the way I am..💚
Yes... I am a proud Army mom of BTS.. And these 7 are like a beautiful rainbow for me who represents different forms of love..🌈
Though they are miles and miles away from me..not even know about my existence..but still when they name Army, I knew that I am included in it.. That's enough..and I will love BTS for a life time..💜💜💜
With lots of love and hugs.. Borahae..🤗💜
Purple 👩🦰💜