Endless Love

18

It was around 2:00am, I was sleep but then suddenly heard my phone go off. I peeked at my phone half sleep to see Josh's name come up, but of course I ignored it. I wiped my eyes, and laid there looking out my window. Snow was falling once again and the city that never sleeps was still going. My phone buzzed again and I quickly pressed ignore, only to see that I had 62 missed calls from just Josh. What did he need this late at night? Plus I just didn't wanna talk to him at all.

I got up and looked in Lily's room, and she was out like a light. I went out to my living room and before I could turn the TV on I heard a knock at my door. I went to the door and looked through the hole of the door to see it was Josh.

"Your daughter's sleep, you got no other reason to be here, go." I said turning my back against the door.

"Liyah you know you don't want me to go."

"I just told you to leave didn't I?"

"Open the door, we need to talk." I rolled my eyes and opened the door and looked up at him. I wanted to see him but I didn't, shit was always so complicated with Josh.

"What?" I said walking out to the hallway, closing the door. I didn't need Lily to wake up at this time of the night.

"You know I don't like blowing up on you the way I did." He looked into my eyes and pulled me into his arms, and I slightly moved myself away. "I was just frustrated cause you didn't even wanna listen to anything I was saying, you was just assuming."

"I wasn't just assuming some stuff was facts. Why would you go fuck some groupie bitch when you claim you wanted to fix things with us? Did that fix anything Josh?"

"Nah it didn't, and I'm sorry. I was caught up in the moment that day, I was drunk, I'm not gonna lie to you. Then only a few days past and she's hooked on me."

"Well that's your problem and you should go deal with it. You shouldn't of fucked someone in the first place knowing they would get hooked on you. Your a football player Josh, bitches sworm around you fuckers like flies to shit."

"I know and I'm sorry," He pressed his body up against mine and I could feel his eyes down on me. "Look at me."

"Josh get away from me." I said and he backed himself away and I stood there, looking down the hall. "If that's all I'd like to go back to bed. I'm tired of your bullshit."

"No that's not all, I wanna be with you." He said still staring at me. I let out a laugh and shrugged shaking my head. I just don't get him at all, he's clearly moved on and just because we have a daughter doesn't just magically throw us back together.

"Are you serious right now Josh?"

"Just let me prove it to you."

"No."

"Even since you said no I still will, I'm gonna make myself dedicated regaurdless if you are. Cause like I said before, I wanna be with you, my future is with you. I need you there to go on now that I found you again, I'm not trying to lose you again."

I stood there, and glarred up at him. I hated getting mixed signals from him, one day he wants me then the next he's sleeping with someone else. I'm tired of it, but there's nothing wrong with playing along to his game since he claims he's serious. "Okay, if you say so."

"You so stubborn Liyah."

"And you're so ignorant, and stupid. You're a fucking idiot too, and you-"

He cut me off when I felt his set of soft cold lips against mine. I didn't expect that to happen, didn't want it too. But it didn't last long.

"I love you too." He whispered out before he moved himself away from me, walking on down the hall. I went back inside and put my hand on my head.

"Ugh Liyah, what do you get yourself into?"