The Desperate Marriage

Friendship and Love

(Kabanata 51)

Strong person doesnt fight or revenge when hurt.

Instead they let go of pain by smile and forgiveness.

(From: A LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP BOOK )

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Zea POV

Kanina pa nagriring ang phone ko. Subrang nakukulitan na talaga ako kay Charice. May plano kasi itong umuwi at magbakasyon. Lage itong nag-ooffer na sasama ako sa Bora. But when I told her about my sudden pregnancy with my husband again ay parang naiihi o matatae ito sa subrang gulat. Halos ihagis ko na ang phone sa lakas ng boses nito. Kalaunan nagbigay payo ito sa mga mangyayari. At wala naman daw masama sa pagbibigay ng second chance. Kaya lang I should put an 'extra' careful if ever comes problem and trials on our way. Syempre she wanted me to be happy. And don't want me to get hurt all over again. Saksi naman kasi sila sa paghihirap ko noon. Saksi ang mga kaibigan ko sa dinanas kong pait at pagkabigo. Of course I'm thankful for having them beside me when I'm down. And this time na binigyan ko ng pagkakataon ang asawa, sabi ni Cha masyado daw akong pusong mamon para bigyan siya agad ng chance na walang kahirap-hirap. Dapat pahirapan daw muna pero kahit na, hindi naman ako nagsisisi dahil my husband is too much existing his efforts of how to please me, pagsilbihan at ligawan ako ng paulit-ulit just to show his gratitude towards me for us our relationship will work out as well. Aside from that walang oras, minuto o araw na nasayang para ipakita niya sa akin how much he was sorry before and how happy he was that were fixing our marriage now.

I love my husband and family as well. So I don't have to feel regrets for forgiving and accepting him again.

Then naalala ko si Lucky. He's asking for a dinner tonight. At pumayag ako para sabihin sa kanyang huwag na siyang umasa sa akin. He don't deserve someone like me. And I can't love him the way a woman loves his man. Isn't because I am married. It's because my feelings for him remained constant. It's friendship. No sparks, unlike sa husband ko.

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"So mamaya sasabihin mo na sa kanya na wala siyang dapat asahan sayo?"

Nagsalita siya sa kabila ng pananahimik ko. Nagpaalam na ako sa kanya kanina. I told him everything. At kung hindi siya pumayag, okay lang din naman sa akin. Pero siya na rin ang nagsabi na huwag magpaasa sa taong walang aasahan. Dahil tiyak na mas masakit yon. And may point naman siya dun.

"Yeah. Tama ka, mas masasaktan siya lalo besides Luck is a very good friend of mine. I don't want him to expect for nothing."

I explained. Lumapit siya sa akin and pulled me to hug. He sighed. It was a sign of relief. Napansin kong medyo nag-iba na ang asawa ko. Mas nagmatured, mas lumawak yong understanding niya. Siguro nakapag-adjust na rin sa tinatagal tagal ng panahon ng paghihiwalay namin. He learned the lesson and I learned how to forgive and forget. Ganun nga siguro ang pagmamahal na sinubok ng ilang taon. And most of all we learned to trust each other. Wala na yong doubt gaya ng dati. Wala na rin yong insecurities. I explained to him everything na ni minsan hindi ko nagawang makipagrelasyon sa iba dahil alam kong kasal parin ako sa kanya. May mga pagkakataong natutukso akong gumawa pero hindi rin nangyari dahil maraming bumabagabag sa akin that time.

And there Lucky was so patient to wait until I get an annulment. Dahil alam niyang may prinsipyo akong tao. But things didn't work out as I planned it to be. Blessing in disguise na rin dahil may inaasahan kaming darating seven months from now. The new member of the family. Ang ipinagbubuntis ko ngayon.

The big part there was my husband is so patient and put all his hardwork para mapasaya kami ng anak at magiging anak ulit namin. Bumalik yong sigla and we spend a lot of time together. Even our families got united. Nung nagbakasyon kami ng two weeks sa Singapore, yon ang pinaka the best bonding ever that we had, since Nathan was there. It should be on Maldives pero we decided na huwag na muna dahil mas maraming pambatang lugar na mapapasyalan sa Singapore. Syempre kasama namin si Nathan. Besides nagtour din kami sa Hongkong Disneyland. Andaming unforgettable moments na ng nangyari. Napakasaya.