The Desperate Marriage

No More Secrets

Kabanata 35)

Not all who make love, make marriages..

- Russian (on marriage) -

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Zea POV

Few weeks past, still were fine. But I sense something wrong with him. I don't know pero pakiramdam ko may tinatago siyang bagay sa akin. Na hindi ko malaman kung ano ito. Hinihintay ko lang siya mismo ang mag-open sa akin kung may tinatago man siyang hindi pa niya masabi.

"Ano yang iniinum mo?"

Curious kong tanong kay Carla nang makita ko siyang uminom ng maliliit na tablets. Were here now in Loko-Mucho Dine in Restaurant. Nakipagkita ako sa kanya, coz I was so bored sa bahay.

"Pills.."

Ipinakita niya sa akin yong pack ng pills. I frowned. Pills?

"Pills like contraceptive?"

I asked. Tumango tango siya.

"For what? Why are you taking that pills?"

"Pampa-blooming my dear.."

"Really? Does it effective in men? Kung vitamin E nalang kaya inumin mo."

I continued my food. Umiling siya at uminum ng tubig bago nagsalita.

"Effective to sa amin, basta! Huwag ka ng magtanong. Ito ang drama naming mga bakla."

I rolled my eyes. Though I'm not interested but still I'm curious about it. Anyway off topic na muna.

"Oh kumusta na kayo?"

I sighed. And I slowly told him everything. From the honeymoon that we had.

"Oh come on. Miscommunication lang yan."

Payo nito. I put down my spoon and fork saka umayos ng upo. Sana nga lang, walang masamang pangitain itong nangyayari sa amin.

"I certainly hope so."

Not sure kong sagot. I sighed nang maisip ang mga panlalamig niya nitong mga nakaraang araw.

"Do you guys still consummated your marriage?"

Napaawang ang bibig ko sa sinabi niya. Consummated?

"Huwag kang OA, what I mean is do you have still sex usually?"

Inulit nito ang sa ibang term ang tanong. Napakurap ako. Meron parin naman kaming intimate moments. Nothing change about that. But the problem is, hindi natural yong mga kilos niya lately. Yong lambing ay parang hindi na dati. Parang may kulang. Andun parin naman ang pag-aalaga kaya lang parang medyo iba na.

"Oo naman. Kaya lang parang iba siya ngayon."

He took a deep breathed bago nagsalita.

"I guess this time you have to talk about that matter to him. Confront him if necessary. Pag-usapan niyo. Hindi naman naaayos ang problema kung magmamasid at magpapakiramdaman lang kayo."

Well he had a point there. He squeezed my hand, securing that everything will be fine.

I smiled bitterly. Alam kong pagsubok lamang ito.

"Anyway, Carla I have to go. I'll have to prepare our dinner pa later."

As I've watched my wristwatch. I think uuwi siya ng maaga ngayon. I stood up.

"Seduce your husband Darling kung ayaw mong mawala siya sayo ng ganun kaaga. And of course talk to him about what your complaining to me. Here get your bag and Babooossshh.!"