The Desperate Marriage

Dealing the Conditions

(Kabanata 44)

The moment you realize that the person you cared for has nothing intellectually or spiritually to offer you but a headache.

-Unknown-

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Jamie POV

"Dude, nag-iisa ka! Where's Yael and Darren?"

Umupo si Nic sa harapan ko at kumuha ng baso para magsalin ng alak.

"They're coming over here."

I said boringly. Nag-umpisa na kaming mag-inuman at seryosong nag-uusap about sa progress ng aming negosyo.

"Were planning to spend in Italy this weekends. My birthday gift for my wife."

Kitang-kita ko ang excitement at kasiyahan sa mga mata nito. I smiled. Parang kailan lang nung nagdiscuss kami about marrying someone you love. Mariin pa niyang itinatanggi na hinding hindi siya magpapatali. Pero ngayon, tingnan mo nga naman. How love moves in mysterious ways.

"You know what, until now hindi parin ako makapaniwala na may asawa ka na at syempre I'm happy that you have twins."

I shook my head. Ever since I've been dreaming so much to have children.. But I guess..

"Yeah, they are the biggest and greatest blessings came into my life. I can't imagine how my life would suck without them."

He answered truthfully. I looked up to him. He's eyes glint in delight when he mean that. I sighed.

"Nagtalo pa nga tayo noon about marriage. Hindi ko aakalain na ang against sa bagay na pagpapakasal ay masaya sa married life niya ngayon. That was you. And me... Na masayang nagpakasal at gustong magsettle down would end up like this. I never imagined having this mesirable marriage."

He looked at me straightely. I'm glad I wasn't aware of that looks. It makes me confuse though.. I frowned.

"Yeah. I realize that marriage is sacred thing that best happened in the world. I'd found out in myself that having without wife is like a vase without flowers. No blossoms, no colors, no fragrance and no life. Can you imagine about that?"

Wow. That's the best words I heard from him. Its unbelievable but its true.

"Your really a devoted husband and father, Nic. I vowed you for that."

Nakangiti kong sabi. Hindi ko maiwasang mainggit sa buhay niya ngayon. Mabuti pa siya. Ni hindi nga sila naghiwalay simula nung na-engage silang dalawa ni Chasity.

"Nakita ko si Zea last week."

He snapped at agad akong napatingin sa kanya ng deretso. Kahapon lang ako sinugod sa opisina ng asawa ko. Sinadya ko talagang padalhan siya ng notice dahil ang plano ko ay makita siya at bigyan ng kundisyon para bumalik lang siya sa akin.

He's seriously scrutinizing me, waiting for my reaction.

"Nagkita din kami sa office kahapon."

I respond. He sighed. Umayos siya ng upo sa kinauupuan at tiningnan ako ng deretso. I'm just wondering why he's acting so strange now.

"Why did you despise your son?"

Oh...son? My son?

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I gritted my teeth when I heard that. Wala akong anak at hindi ako magkakaanak. Hindi ko anak ang batang yon. I frowned.

"Pardon? What do you mean?"

Patay-mali kong tanong. I'm hiding my frustrations. I don't want them to know about it. Soon matatanggap ko din ang anak ng asawa ko sa ibang lalaki dahil magsasama ulit kami.