I'm Counting Every Lie

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He gropes my ass and brings me closer to him. My heart is going so fast.. He licks my bottom lip and I open my mouth a little and kiss him confidently. I feel him grow against me causing myself to get even harder. Fuck he's going to stop us soon.

He pulls back but I don't open my eyes yet. We are done but I just feel so turned on.. his lips on my sensitive neck makes my breath hitch. I've never had someone lips on my neck but it feels so.. he sucks on one spot and a shakey moan comes out of my mouth.

I open my eyes but he doesn't stop. I just moaned!? My back arches and it's like I have to be touched. He squeezes my ass and one of his hands goes up my shirt and touches my chest. "T-this feels mmm," I moan again and then grind my hips into his. He moans a little and then pushes me into the mattress and starts kissing me hungrily.

I kiss back desperately and his hand goes to the front of my underwear. His touch sends electricity through me and I move my hips again his hand. He pulls down my underwear and pulls out of the kiss but doesn't look down. "Can i?" He asks and I nod. He then takes off my hoodie and kisses down my body.

I close my eyes due to being embarrassed and when I feel him lick me I shudder out a moan. He takes me in his hot mouth and I swear it feels something like fire. He bobs his head back  and forth gripping my thighs harshly.

The pleasure takes over me and I squirm a little as he gives me a blowjob.   I moan and pant as he uses his mouth to pleasure me. He pulls my underwear down more and after a few minutes I feel a build up in my lower stomach. "J-josh," I moan and soon I'm reaching my peak. I cum into his mouth and he swallows it all and pulls away with a smile. I blush and cover my face.

"I've never moaned before," I mumble completely embarrassed he kisses my cheek.

"Its extremely hot," he says and pulls up my underwear. He kisses me softly and I put my hand on his bulge. "C-can I try?" I say hoping he doesn't freak out and that I can actually do a good job. He blushes.

"Y-yeah, I trust you," he says.

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As we cuddle Josh touches me. He slides his hands across my body arms messes with my hair and everything he hand do to touch ever part of me. "Your skin is so soft," he whispers and I smile. I feel so.. connected with him.

"I love y-" oh my god why am I telling him this. I freeze and he looks into my eyes and smiles.

"I've been in love with you for a while now," he says calmly. My heart dances and I want to squeal.

"I really love you joshie," I say and hug him. Our bear chests touch but I dont feel that self conscious about it.

"Do you want to come over Christmas? It's going to be small and simple but it's not really about the presets.. it's only my second time spending Christmas with my foster family.. I get lonely and stuff," I mumble and he smile.

"Only if you spend Christmas night at my houses," he says and my face gets hot. Why do I automatically think he's implying sex? I nod and he kisses me.

"Can you let me do something?" He says and I hum in am agreeing tone. He sits up and takes the blankets off of me.  I blush and he takes my hand and kisses my knuckles. He then pulls my underwear down and I blush more and make a disapproving face.

"I'm not doing anything sexual, just let me do this?" He says and I quietly nod and watch him. He looks at my body and he touches me in random places live right above my belly button and below it. He draws shapes into my skin and touches my hips.

"Shakira hips," he says and winks at me. I giggle and he leans down and hisses where my heart is. "Now roll over," he says and I obey. The first think he does makes me Yelp. The Slap noise echos through his room and he chuckles.

"You have a nice ass," he says and rubs where he slapped.

"Shut upppp," I whine but melt when he starts massaging my back. I don't feel fat anymore. I sometimes think I'm fat but it's not the same as it was. I love josh touching me now.

After a while of this he lays next to me and pulls me into a spooning position. "I love you and your body. Both are perfect," he says and I feel special.

"Thank you.. you make me feel better about myself. I cant believe you- the hottest guy in the world- is dating me. I say and he kisses my cheek.

"Second hottest, you are the first," he says and I kiss his jaw. I love this guy. It's funny that some people thing two guys together is gross. It's not, this is beautiful. I'm proud that I'm gay. I'm happy that I'm feminine. I'm okay with who I am.

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