My only possession (chanlix)

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3rd person:

Chan finally made it through the traffic and drove as fast as he could up to the viewing point... and he just made it to see the sun fade away and create a orange glow across Seoul.

"Thank fuck..."

Chan looked over to the ledge and noticed he wasn't the only one who enjoyed the view up here... he also took in that the person was asleep..

He walked over and rested his back on the ledge. He looked up and took in the beautiful colours of the sky.

Nothing felt better than being free to chan. He's missed these times. The times he could just go somewhere and be a nobody. That's half the reason why chan agreed to travel with Jisung.

Chan wanted to feel normal again instead of feeling like his under a microscope... the other reason was he needed inspiration, chan knew his inspiration was fading and so was his passion.

He realised Seoul is where his passion is, but he decided to move away from what he lives most...

Chan was just feeling the moment.. as he was in the moment he felt words roll of his lips and he began to sing a song he had been working on.

"I'll give you the best years~"

The song was so close to his heart.. he wrote the song when he was in a dark place and he felt as if life wasn't going to get better because he pushed away the one thing that gave him hope and made his heart glow.

But chan realised he left for his and Felix happiness... even if it killed chan, he felt as if Felix would do better without him. However back then Chan was clueless and he still is..

"Past love burned out like a cigarette~... I promise darling you won't regret~"

Whilst chan wrote this song he envisioned what Felix's life is like now and he's hoping it's better... that's why he writes about giving Felix the best years.. because he wants Felix to have the best years.

"The best years.... I'll give you the best years..."

Even if chan was living the worst years...

Chan:

Aish.. I should go.. the sun is almost gone. I knew it would be a bad idea coming up here. Stupid memories, stupid song, stup-

*ding~*

Huh?

| Chan's memories one year ago |

Aish that stupid piano... he loved it.. he was so amazing and talented. I wish I could just tell him that..

Ha... when he came to my concert. He looked so cute. I still remember when I found him in the audience, that feeling of my heart pounding uncontrollably was with me throughout the whole concert.

I took him for food after... he told him to change because it was freezing, I gave him that jacket and my hat. That smile will always be imprinted in my brain.

.... ah... that's when I brought him up here. After we had spoken for what felt like a lifetime and that was night we really connected.  I remember all the things I wanted to tell you Felix... how I loved the way you make me feel like I'm on cloud nine, how you're smile makes my heart explode and how you make me so happy and you're my inspiration..

But when I looked up to tell you these things you had drifted off to sleep... you looked so cute. I had to take this picture... but if I just told you how you were everything to me... would we be here? Would I be a million miles away from you?

"Fuck... I wonder what he's doing? I wonder if he still thinks of me..."

He's probably moved on with his life... but this picture... this picture brings him back to me. If I just line it up right her-

"I-I do..."

Huh-

"F-Felix?"

This has to be a dream... he can't be stood here...

"H-hi chan..."

I guess he can..