The Top 100 Things In My Thoughts.

"Lighting strikes"

The moment becomes obsolete.

As the past pretends to know what truly had happened to us.

And the future is just an accumulation of the desires and emotions that seem to be dreamed by the dreamer.

Life and my "life" are separate when you remove me.

Life is still life regardless of what you think of it.

The rain isn't wrong or right it's just rain.

Can't be below or above, accept it.

My thoughts aren't the truth and at times I drown in what I tell myself.

I run into words that only create walls inside me.

So I wait till the lighting strikes, only then when I hear the clash of atoms it's only right.

The light bears the only truth I seek, so I chase it stumbling in the darkness.

I'm reckless and impulsive.

And I admit I try to control things that I can't.

And when I'm wrong I try so hard to hold on.

The time seems to sway, and bend, I'm always ready to leave when I'm halfway gone.

I spend to much of the present thinking of what I did wrong.

Too much time has gone, too much time thinking that I'm alone.

And until the lighting strikes, I help myself with a lending hand.

Always leaving and moving stuck in an endless jam.

And then the lighting comes, and I don't know who I am.

I only know that I am.

Regardless if I want to be.

-JNM