The Top 100 Things In My Thoughts.

"In the grips of the ego"

It seems at times that the best of
The event of ourselves is happening when we don't think about who we are.

What we've done.
What has happened to us?
What we do to others.
How we react to the situations we find ourselves in.

When we truly live in the moment, the moment returns the energy we invest into our awareness.

I find myself drowning in my thoughts believing it's oxygen when I realize maybe I don't even know the difference between breathing and being.

But when it's too late I find those I care about already leaving.

And at times my thoughts can seem so demeaning, always trying to turn what I find hope into false meaning.

But once you let go of opinions it doesn't matter, cause half the chatter is what we tell ourselves and the other half is what we never tell others.

And it confuses me, what do I really mean?

Nonetheless, it's like I've avoided the death of my ego and ran and created another one for myself.

But I bring that into my awareness and I explain to myself that it's what you make it.

And the truth will prosper and the mask we wear doesn't matter, because the mask I wear is what I'd rather show than feel.

And in order to be, I have to be okay without knowing.

And then that part of awareness is the simplicity of the air blowing.

So I'm in the entanglement of my humanity and my desire.

It's a mirror and all I can see is the light of the fire, and the shadow of the darkness.

-JNM