When daddy left

Brownie Bae pt1

I know he isn't joking about Anthony coming but the thing is how my mother is going to react when she sees him and how they are going to survive a minute under the same roof.

"Daniel are you serious? Anthony is..why didn't he at least give me a call all this time I've been waiting for his call, text or even an email but he went all quiet. I thought he hated me? Do you think he's ever going to forgive me for what happened -"

"Y'vania just calm down. He doesn't hate you. I talked to him but never told him about the baby of course I know that's not my part to play. He's the only person that can make you happy. Ever since that incident you've never been happy,you seem disturbed even in your sleep,shedding tears,saying his name in your  sleep and apologising to him even though none of this is your fault. You need to talk this to someone."

I can't control the floodgate of tears that open up when he finishes. I control myself and look at him.
"That's a lie I never say his name. I don't want to see him ever again."

Liar you always dream about him.

Ever since the incident at the Hamptons hospital most of my dreams consist of either me and Anthony being together and some unknown person separating us or our baby involved or something bad happening to me either by his dad or my Nana and Anthony saving me.

Something convinces me that somewhere along the line he's going to save me from all the harm that's coming my way.

I always try pasting a smile despite all these thoughts I have about him and push all the negative thoughts away ensuring myself that he still loves me but with every second passing I feel him seeping through my fingers.

I feel like am losing him.

Daniel is always good at reading my thoughts even when I shove them in the deepest part of my heart.

"Daniel thank you for standing up for me but are you sure that Anthony is going..going to..to at least forgive -"
He places his index finger on my lips.
"Ssshh! Don't worry. Everything is going to be fine. Remember that your hubby is here. I'm going to protect you and sock him up if he brings his shitty doctor moves okay?" I nod smiling and hug
him.

"Now this husband needs to go and see his special someone. I'll see you later wifey." He says cupping my face and letting out that genuine smile he lets me see whenever she talks about Tessa.

"You're in love with her aren't you?" I ask playing with his wrist band. He blushes slightly and says,
"Don't tell her I said this but I see her running around the house with our kids in the near future."
"Aww! Isn't this so cute I'm I going to be the god mum?"

"god mum to who?" Javier asks giving me my phone which is ringing and surprisingly the caller ID is unknown. I give both of them blank stares. Daniel winks and leaves. Javier shrugs and goes on with the cooking as I go upstairs to answer the call.

Something tells me that these two hobos have a clue to who this unknown caller is.

"Hey who am I talking to?"

"Brownie are you okay?"

Its Anthony. Its Anthony freaking Miller. What a coincidence.

My hands get sweaty and shaky and all the guilt I've been pushing down comes rising up and drives me to the stuttering level.

I thought this panic attacks were over.
No self voice should I tell him?
Not now. Take deep breaths.
Inhale exhale inhale ex-

"Brownie am sorry about everything I know its kind of late but I think its not that late I'd like to put everything straight between us."

Is he breaking up with-
No. I don't think am going to take it.

"Um no..um Anthony am not..don't."

Oh my God What's happening to me?

I sigh sitting on the bed supporting my heavy head with my hand  which is now even shakier and sweatier.

" Y'vania I'm asking for your time,whenever you're free to talk to me between today and the end of this week. I'm around just a call or a text away."

"Okay." I say quietly then hang up cupping my mouth suppressing the sobs and letting out a shaky sigh.

Right now I can't tell if I'm crying tears of joy,relief,guilt or anger.