"I AM always fascinated with buildings and structures" she said without knowing where it came from, pero mabilis ang tibok ng puso niya.
Yung bilis na hindi masakit kundi tila nasasabik. Yung bilis na parang batang gustong gusto ng dumating ang hapon para makalaro sa labas ng bahay. Yung bilis na hindi makapagantay na makawala sa matagal na panahong kinulong at kinalimutan.
She's suddenly telling him her passion. Yung bagay na hindi niya masabi sa iba ay nasabi niya rito.
Nasabi niya kay Atlas.
Sa dinami-dami ay kay Atlas pa.
"I don't know why,but it amazed me how those structures help people, I mean houses provide security for families while bridges connects land by land- it connects people, too. I don't know, I know it sounded so weird for a woman like me--"
"Hey" putol nito sa kanya, "Kung ang pagdodoctor para lang sa babae, weird din ba ako kasi doctor ako?"
Umiling siya, "Of course not! Anyone could be a doctor"
"Not anyone, though" he said, "but Engineering wasn't made for men. It was made for people who have a heart like yours, parang pagdodoctor lang, it was made for people who have a heart of helping, who finds joy in serving" dugtong nito, "Lahat naman ng propesyon hindi lang ginawa para sa isa, ginawa ito para sa lahat, pantay-pantay dahil si Lord, patas Siya gumawa"
Woah. Hindi niya inaasahan na may pagka-preacher ito. Not him. No!No!
"Iba-iba nga lang ang calling natin. Maybe, you loved all things engineering but your calling wasn't for it. Do you hate your job?" Tanong nito.
Do she hate her job? Hmmm, napaisip siya.
Honestly, no. She might find it tiring and draining but she doesn't hate it. What she hate was the people who manipulates her in that job.
Yung mga tao na sinasabi sa kanya ang gagawin, na ang sarap sabihan na 'Edi kayo ang magtrabaho! Alam niyo naman pala,e!' pero hindi niya masasabi kasi papagalitan siya ng Daddy niya.
Umiling siya.
"You know why you don't hate your job?" Tanong ni Atlas sa kanya.
Napailing na lang siyang muli, "Why?"
"Because it's your passion, Luna" sambit nito.
What? She can't understand. Ano ba ang pinagsasabi--
"Your passion was building something up, Luna" pinutol nito ang gulo sa isip niya, "It doesn't matter if its a building, structure or anything, basta may binubuo ka ay masaya ang puso mo"
She stilled. What the hell? Para siyang nabuhusan nang malamig na tubig! How..How could he be so... accurate?
"In your case, you are building your father's image. Your people's image. The business itself. You are building yourself, Luna and that's your passion"
Napayuko siya at tila namuo ang mga luha sa mata. She can't cry.. not now.. not now that she figured herself out somehow..
"H-how could you know all these?" she asked still trying to maintain her composure.
"I told you, naiintindihan kita" sagot nito, "because it happened to me"
He sighed and looked at the stars in the sky, "Passion is everywhere, Luna. Hindi porket hindi mo ito sinunod ay mawawala na ito sa'yo, because no matter where you go, it will follow you and it will effortlessly show."
Napatulala siya rito at kung anu-anong mga salita ang bumalot sa isip niya.
"Happiness is a choice, Luna" dagdag nitong muli, "I know in your line of work, you can't just give it up and be happy, but you can find happiness everywhere, and it should start within you"
Napakunot ang noo niya, "You don't understand, Atlas" aniya, "I can't be that person whom you're telling, hindi pwede.."
Hindi nagsalita si Atlas, tumingin lang ito sa kanya.
"You were telling me to break down my walls, to let my passion show and just be myself" She said, "I get that its what you are implying but I can't!"
"Why not?"
"N-No.." Iling niya, "Kung makikilala lang nila ako, kung ipapakita ko sa kanila kung sino ako baka hindi na nila ako mahalin, Atlas"
"What do you mean?"
"Nobody loves a loser, Atlas" sambit niya, "Nobody"
Naalala niya tuloy ang sinabi sa kanya ng Daddy niya noon. That the essence of her existence is excellence and if she didn't excel, she has to pack her bags.
There's no room for mistake.
"Luna.."
"papasok na ako, Atlas" she said, "inaantok na ako"
Tinignan lang siya nito sa mga mata at hindi naman na nangulit pa, "I'll let you rest then" he said.
Nang akmang papasok na siya sa loob ay naramdaman niya ang mainit nitong palad sa balikat niya, hinarap siya nito at mas lumapit pa sa kanya.
He's now towering her. Hindi niya maiwasan na mapatingala at salubungin ang mata nito.
He put his hand on her shoulder and then, in one quick move, he planted a kiss on her forehead.
She closed her eyes. Tila napayapa ang isip niya sa mga oras na dumampi ang labi nito doon, it gave her a sense of comfort.
Yung comfort na hindi niya naramdaman sa mga halik ng Daddy niyo noon, naramdaman niya kay Atlas.
"Please don't think that people won't love you for who you are, Luna" he murmured, "Kung makikilala ka nila, kung ipapakita mo sa kanila kung sino ka, mamahalin ka pa rin nila"
"Atlas.." she sighed, "You don't understand"
"Then make me understand" he said, "show me"
Napakunot ang noo niya na napatingin sa mata nito,
"What?"
"Show your real self to me and then I'll prove it to you" seryosong sambit nito, "Try me, Luna.. try me"
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