[Her] Beautiful Dream [BTS Fanfiction] ✓

LXII

Chapter Sixty-two

["Misseu, we are back in Korea."]

Napangiti ako nang marinig kong muli ang malamyos at malambot na boses ni Jimin matapos ang mahabang panahong hindi namin pag-uusap. Dinampot ko ang maliit na bola sa mesa ko na siyang stress reliever ko. I kicked the floor to twirl my swivel chair as I felt my heart twirling in a turmoil too.

Crap, I missed his voice!

"I know. You've been all over my feeds," sagot kong hindi nawawala ang malapad na ngiti sa mga labi ko.

Bago pa siya tumawag ay alam ko nang nasa Korea na sila galing Japan, tapos na ang concert nila at maraming mga airport photos nila ang nagkalat na sa feeds ko. I was just actually waiting for his call, at hindi naman niya ako binigo.

["Oh, really? My girlfriend is my number one fan,"] aniya mula sa kabilang linya. I could hint the obvious giddiness and boasting through his tone, I could even imagine him grinning widely.

Napanguso ako habang mas humihigpit ang hawak ko sa phone ko dahil alam na alam talaga niya ang bagay na iyon. He should! He should also know how lucky, very lucky I felt because he was mine. "That's right! I needed all the updates about you since we couldn't contact each other," sagot ko habang pinaglalaruan ko ang bolang nasa isang kamay ko.

Nataranta ako kanina nang tumunog ang phone ko at makita ko ang combination ng mga numero niya sa screen, kahit na hinihintay ko talaga ang tawag niya. Matagal kaming hindi nagkausap at matagal na nanahimik ang number niya sa phone ko at pakiramdam ko kanina, nilayasan ako ng sarili ko. He was still very illegal for me and his effects to me was no joke, so he should take it slow.

["I'm sorry for that, misseu. I miss you so much. Can I see you?"] He sounded so desperate as I felt my heart pound even more harder. Kung alam lang niya kung gaano ko rin siya ka-miss, hindi sasapat ang isang buong araw para punan ang pagka-miss ko sa kaniya.

I knew, I was getting even more greedy again. Naisip ko tuloy na baka wala pa siyang pahinga, hindi man halata sa boses niya, alam kong masyadong nakakapagod ang mga ginawa nila sa Japan. I wondered if the first thing he did when they arrived home was to call me.

I silently sighed. Of course I missed him too, like so much. I wanted to see him too very badly but his health came first before my whims and greed. Isa pa, hindi kami puwedeng mag-video chat dito ngayong nasa office ako. Mas gugustuhin ko na lang na isakripisyo ang kagustuhan kong makita at maka-usap siya ng mas matagal pa para lang makapagpahinga siya.

"Nah-uh…" Umiling ako kahit hindi niya nakikita. "I'm at work. I miss you too, Jimin, so much but I think you should rest first," sagot ko sa kaniya at inikot nang muli ang upuan ko paharap sa desktop ko. I put the ball back on its corner as I hardly pursed my lips, restricting myself to tell him how I still wanted to talk to him and see him very badly too.

It always took me so much resistance from Jimin. I badly wanted to see him, even only through the screen but I couldn't afford him to deprive himself a rest he deserved just because of my own greed. I still could endure.

["Don't you miss me, misseu?"] he suddenly asked in a low achy tone. Nagda-drama ba siya? Nagda-drama ba ang 'baby' ko dahil alam na alam niya ang sagot sa tanong niyang iyon?

Mas nahihirapan akong magpigil kapag ganyan siya. Sino bang makakatiis sa kaniya? Probably, not me, not my weak heart for him. Kaya hindi niya dapat ako ginaganyan dahil baka mapa-aga na talaga ang lipad ko pa-Korea.

"Jimin, I do…" Huminto ako, I needed to take a deep breath because crap, Jimin on the other line of the phone wasn't helping my chaotic heart right now. "I miss you so much, but I want you to rest first. Can you do that for me, hm…" I pursed my lips so hard before finally deciding to put down my last card. I knew I was going to regret this but if this was what it would only take, then let's get it on. "Hm baby?" I bit my lower lip real hard until my heart started going even wilder, to the point that I needed to clutch it or else, I would have a heart attack.