[Her] Beautiful Dream [BTS Fanfiction] ✓

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Chapter Ten

I had been walking back and fort inside this little familiar room that had a vast mirror in front since BTS left me here because of something, which I thought was a really serious matter. Dahil hindi naman sila matataranta kung wala lang iyon e. And crap, why was I freaking here again?!

Puwede naman akong lumabas dito, lisanin ang BH Entertainment building at huwag na huwag ng babalik pa rito. Hindi ba't iyon ang ipinangako ko sa sarili ko? Na hindi ko na hahayaan pang mag-cross ang landas namin ng BTS But then I remembered the sole reason why I was here again.

I had already broken that promise. The moment I had listened to my heart awhile ago and ignored my mind, the moment I had decided to go with Jimin earlier had broken that promise already. But I couldn't stay here anymore! If I still wanted to have a peaceful life then I should really get myself out of here.

Huminto ako sa walang katapusang paglalakad-balik at nilingon ang nakapinid na pinto ng mirror room na kinaroroonan ko habang pinaplano sa isipan ko ang pag-alis dito. Though I then remembered RM telling me this… "Stay here. Don't ever go out of that door. This is to keep you safe, miss." And how Jimin looked at me softly before they left.

Sa pangalawang pagkakataon, kailangan ko na namang mamili. Again, between what my heart wanted and what my mind was constantly shouting. Ganoon pa rin ang magiging resulta. I just had to choose because I was torn.

If I left… it would be the end of everything but if I stayed and waited for them, I didn't know what would happen. It could be the best or the worst and I would never know if I wouldn't try. My mind wanted me to leave and my heart wanted me to stay.

I frustratedly combed my hair with my one hand, softly passing strands within my fingers. Was there really a need to choose when I knew all alone that I couldn't resist my heart? It was always the lead. It always overpowered my mind and all.

Fine! This would be the last. Promise, after this, there would be no broken promises anymore.

Tutal naman, sa susunod na araw ay babalik na kami ng Pinas. Kakailanganin ko lang na kalimutan ang lahat ng mga nangyari rito… and then I would go on, my life would be back on its right track just like how the world was continuously spinning.

It took another agonizing hour inside the small room before I heard a knock on the door. Mabilis akong tumakbo palapit sa pinto habang dinig na dinig ang malalakas na pagtapak ng sapatos ko sa sahig. I held the doorknob and immediately pulled it open. Sinalubong ako ng isang pamilyar na lalaki. I remembered him driving the service van of Bulletproof.

He stood straight and signaled me to follow him so I silently did. Lumampas kami sa ilang pinto, we went in the lift down to the basement until we reached the familiar black van. I thought I didn't know what was happening but then, I was just trying to pamper myself.

How pathetic… Alam na alam ko ang mga nangyayari.

Sino ba ako para balikan pa ng Bulletproof sa loob ng kuwartong iyon? Baka sinabi lang sa akin ni RM iyon para hindi ako gumawa ng gulo habang nasa loob ako. Now, they were done with me so there was no reason for them to see me or for me to see them. It was a game over for me. It wasn't for me to end it. This was their way of saying that we were done. They did not have anything to do with me anymore.

Habang nasa daan sa loob ng sasakyan ay wala akong ibang iniisip kung hindi ang lahat ng nangyari. Once again, I was going back to the hotel late at night because of the BTS. Only this time, I didn't feel good at all. I feel pathetic, actually.  Very pathetic…

Kahit nang huminto ang sasakyan sa mismong harap ng hotel na tinutuluyan ko ay hindi pa rin gumagaan ang loob ko. Ni hindi ko na rin binigyan pa ng sulyap ang driver nang bumaba ako para makapagpasalamat man lang dahil sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko. I thought, what if I left earlier, what if I followed what my mind was telling me? Then I wouldn't be feeling sorry to myself right now. I wouldn't have looked pathetic to them.