Kiss Me Right [svt Joshua lvlz Kei] ✔

KMR 31 - What Should I Do

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KISS ME RIGHT 31
What Should I Do?

Kim Kei

I heard the door is open. I put down the letter Joshua left for me.

"I'm home! What's this delicious smell?" it's Mei eonni who just coming back from the hospital. Mei eonni appears in the kitchen. "Oh? You prepared that? It's not Kim Kei's style,"

"Not me," I said. I sit down and start to eat the breakfast Joshua prepared for me. I can't hold my tears anymore. It's hurt. He's not here. It's only me now. Mei eonni sit in front of me. Looking at my crying face.

As the tears falls, I wipe it roughly with the back of my hand. I keep eating the food.

"Break up already?" Mei eonni asked. I just nod. "He's a good guy,"

I just nod and keep eating the food. Letting my tears trickling down my cheeks. Mei eonni take the letter that Joshua left. She know everything about us. I've told her about it before.

"How's the food?" Mei eonni asked.

"It- it's salty," I said in between my sobs. "It's salty, eonni. Eotteokhae?"

"Well, you can still see him at school, right?" Mei eonni said. "You're a strong girl, Kim Kei. You can trough this. Himnae,"

I just nod. Tears keep flowing. Mei eonni leave me alone in the kitchen. How can this food not salty if I'm eating it while crying. But, how can I not crying when I know that he's not with me anymore?

Somehow, I miss him. I miss Joshua Hong.

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I realise that Yein keep glancing at me while we're walking to school. I told her that I will go to school with her.

"Um, Kei-ah," Yein call me.

"Hm?" I look at her. I'm trying my best to fake the 'I'm fine' expression. It's hard. My heart ache. But, I don't want anyone to know about it. I don't want anyone to notice about it.

"Oh. Nothing," Yein said. "Just if you have something to share, you can tell me,"

"Okay. Thanks," I said. I'm trying my best to smile. I'm smiling. Not because I'm really happy. But I don't want other people to know that I'm not really happy.

I sit in the class. But, my mind is not with me. I look at the ribbon that's still tied around my ring finger. I don't want to untie it. Even we already 'break up'.

"Kei-ah. Hongbin sunbae want to meet you," Irene said.

"Oh. Okay. Thanks," I said. I walk toward the front door. Hongbin sunbae is waiting for me there. "Hongbin sunbae,"

"Oh. Kei-ah," Hongbin sunbae walk toward me. "I have something to tell you. Can we meet at the gym during the lunch break?"

"Sure. I'll be there," I said. I know. I know it all. Joshua had told me all last night. But, still. I didn't know what answer should I give to Hongbin sunbae.

When it's already lunch break, I walk toward the gym. Hongbin sunbae is there. Yes. Hongbin sunbae is still here.

"You're here," Hongbin sunbae said.

"What do you want to tell me?" I asked. Pretending not to know anything about it.

"Firstly, I want you to know that today is my birthday," Hongbin sunbae said.