Hide And Seek ~ Josh Dun

Chapter 53

"She's the tear in my heart, I'm alive. She's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire." Josh sings quietly while scrolling through his Twitter feed. Over the past weeks, I have grown so used to just lounging around with him and him singing all the time. The sound has easily become one of my favorite things in this world.

Tomorrow we are going to be on T.V. for Silent Library, and he might not know it, but I can tell how nervous Josh is. He's more jittery than normal, singing more fast paced. His anxiety has been this bad lately, so it makes me want to get his mind off of it.

"Jishawa." I sing, laying my head down in his lap. When he is still just scrolling through his phone, I push away his phone so I can stare at him. He just keeps looking at his phone, but I don't move my eyes away. As I gaze over his face, I can't help but let a smile take over my face.

"Abs, you keep on staring at me like that and I'll start blushing." Josh finally answers, putting his phone down. He starts playing with my hair and I sign happily.

"You're cute when you blush though." He does he lopsided smirk and my heart flutters. He just stares down at me as if falling in love with me for the first time.

"My taste in music is your face." With that, he leans down and kisses my nose and I roll my eyes, grinning widely. After staring at me for a couple more seconds, he goes back to paying attention to his phone. I huff and stand up.

"Lil Dun will love me." Josh smirks at me as I strut over to Lil Dun who is playfully wagging his tail. I flop down on the ground and he flies into my lap, tongue falling out of the side of his mouth.

"Daddy is such a mean person. Yes he is." I coo to the pup, who barks in response. Josh just raises his eyebrows at me, biting his lip. Lil Dun quickly looks at Josh who is patting his lap. I glare at them both as they play together, leaving me all alone.

"Daddy isn't such a bad guy, Lil one. Mommy just doesn't like me." Josh scratches behind the dogs ear, causing his tail to go into overdrive. Crossing my arms, I stand up and walk to the bathroom.

"I guess I'll just take a shower without you." I blink for barely a second and the next thing I know, Josh is standing next to the door with a pout on his face. "Oh, ok. You can join."

Josh's face lights up, and before he can step forward, Lil Dun runs into the bathroom and I quickly close the door.

"That's not cool." He whines from outside the door. I laugh, starting the shower.

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A whine is what snaps me out of my trance. I blink slowly and glance around. I'm on the bed with the tv blaring. I remember after my shower I decided to watch a movie. That was at six the afternoon. The sun is now disappearing, causing a purple flow to take over the sky.

Looking towards what brought me back, I see Lil Dun crying at the end of the bed. Bending over, I lift him up and he attacks me with love. I blink repeatedly, trying to clear my head. Wiggling my toes, I wish for the numbness to vanish.

"Where's Josh?" I ask the puppy, who immediately starts whining in response and jumps off of the bed. I remember him going to get us food. Over an hour and he is still not back..

I grab my phone and I can feel my heart fall out of my chest.

LoverBoy: baby what do you want to eat? xo

LoverBoy: baby girllll

LoverBoy: maybe you're asleep. I'll just guess for you then

LoverBoy: I don't know what's wrong but I don't feel right

LoverBoy: I can't breathe

LoverBoy: I don't know where I am

LoverBoy: you'll have to come and find me

LoverBoy: Abby, please

LoverBoy: Abby-Lynn I need you

LoverBoy: please...

Tears rushing to my eyes, I look at the timing of the messages. He hasn't sent me a text in over ten minutes. Quickly hitting the call button, I slip on shoes and grab my room key.

"Abby." Josh's voice cracks, and I bite the inside of my cheek so I don't cry.

"I'm here baby. Where are you." I'm running down the halls of the hotel. Soon enough, I'm outside. Even though the sun is still setting, it feels as if the darkness has taken over.

"I... I don't know. I don't know." He repeats that over and over again, voice growing more and more frantic.

"Josh, listen to me. Tell me what you're around. I'll come find you." I hear shuffling on his side of the phone followed by a couple of sniffles.

"I'm near a bridge." His voice cracks, and I start running to where I remember passing a bridge while driving to the hotel. It's not far, about six minutes, but it's a long bridge.

"I'm here baby. Keep an eye out for me." I breathe into the phone. I'm not fit enough for this. I jog alongside the bridge, frantically searching for my man.

"Abby." I hear him whisper through the phone, and I stop in my tracks, looking towards the shops. There he was, sitting on the ground with his knees pulled to his chest. I run to him, tears threatening to escape.

When I make it over to him, my heart breaks. His face is tear stained, eyes red and puffy. His SnapBack is laying on the ground next to him and his hair is messy from him running his hands through it. What breaks my heart the most is seeing the scratch marks that cover his arms.

Wrapping my arms around him, he sobs into my shirt. I rub his back, whispering to him that it's ok. Soon his crying is less frequent, so I pull back and look into his face.

"What happened, baby." His lip slightly shakes when I ask this and he just wraps his arms around me again, pulling me into my lap.

"I-I don't know. I was walking, trying to find food for us. And like, I started thinking about you. And then your sickness came to mind. I started thinking badly... What if you die? I wasn't paying attention to where I was going anymore and the next thing I knew I was st-standing on the bridge with really bad thoughts." He buries his head into my neck, and I can't hold it back anymore. I let a sob take over as I cling onto his shirt.

I never knew I hurt him this much. I have to go to a doctors soon. For him. So he can stop worrying.

"Baby, it's going to be ok. After this tour I'm going to the doctors and we are going to find out whatever is wrong, ok?" I whisper against his chest. We both have stopped crying now.

"But what if it's not ok. I can't lose you, Abby-Lynn. I love you. I do. I can barely go a couple hours without seeing you, how could
I possible last a lifetime?" He pulls away and looks into my eyes. His eyes are glossy and full of pain. I take his hand and put it on my cheek, leaning into it.

"I'm not going anywhere, Josh. It's going to be ok. You're stuck with me whether you like it or not." He leans his forehead against mine and takes a deep breath.

"You're mine, Abby. Forever. I'm never letting you go. I love you." He pulls me close and kisses me, a kiss full of desperation. After, I wrap my arms around his neck and put my nose against his.

"Always. I love you, Joshua William Dun." He smiles slightly when I say his middle name, and I stand up. He looks up at me with big eyes. "Let's find some food, baby. You deserve it." He takes my hand with a smile.

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(No P.O.V.)

"Oh yeah, this is the one. No doubt about it."

"This is gonna be sick as frick, dude."