How are you my mum?

96. Pool Partyyyyy

Olivia's pov-
They all get here and all go out into ales garden while mum starts the barbecue.
Mapi-"holaaaaaa liv"
Olivia-"mapi" i smile
Mapi-"right the pool lets go" she walks towards the pool
Ingrid-"maria"
She stops dead in her tracks
Mapi-"ugh"
Ingrid-"come and sit down"
Mapi-"bu-"
Lucy-"hola mapi, help me with the barbecue if you want?"
Mapi-"yay, bye babe see you later"
They both go to the barbecue so i sit with claudia(pina)
Pina-"hey, is it?"
Olivia-"yea, hi"
Pina-"not a fan of the agua?"(water)
Olivia-"water?"
Pina-"si sorry"
Olivia-"no, i dont really like swimming"
Pina-"porque?"(why)
Olivia-"oh uh, i dont like bikinis and swimming costumes" i quickly say
Pina-"your spanish is getting better"
Olivia-"gracias"
She smiles
Pina-"any reason you don't like them?"
Olivia-"y..y..yeah" i look down and fiddle with my fingers
Pina-"hey, i wont make you tell me chica" i nod, her understanding my worry "im gonna get in if thats okay?, also maybe take your hoodie off chica" i shake my head
Olivia-"ill be fine" she nods and gets in the pool
Mama walks over to me with a glass of orange juice
Keira-"drink"
Olivia-"bu-"
Keira-"now"
I roll my eyes and drink it "your not gonna take the hoodie off so you will be drinking lots of juice" i sigh "baba?" She sits down next to me
Olivia-"i want to get in the pool mama" i look down tearing up
Keira-"hey my darling of course you can get in"
I shake my head "no i cant"
Keira-"why not"
Olivia-"it doesnt matter"
Keira-"go to your room, ill be up in 2 minutes and we will talk" i nod and go upstairs
Keira's pov-
I go over to lucy to tell her where im going to be
Keira-"hey lu, im just talking to liv upstairs" i say with a sense of worry across my voice
Lucy-"ok, do you need me?"
Keira-"no no ill tell you later okay" i kiss her
Lucy-"ok"
I go upstairs and knock on her door
Olivia-"its open" she says knowing its me
Keira-"just me beautiful girl"
She nods and wipes her eyes, i sit next to her and wrap my arms around her scooping her into my lap "whats up baba, why cant you get in the pool"
Olivia-"what about my arms?"
Keira-"let me see" she shows them me and they are slightly faded "see baba there slightly faded, no one will even notice" she nods
Olivia-"they will, theyll think there weird" i shake my head "they will"
Keira-"no, remember when they came over to ales when i was here before?" She nods "and i got in the pool for like 5 minutes after your mum pursuaded me to" she nods again "it took me so long to get in exactly because of your reasoning"
Olivia-"what do you mean?"
Keira-"ive self harmed to baba"
"You have?" I nod tearing up a bit
"Dont cry mama, its ok, its nothing to be embarrassed about right?" She says quoting me
"Exactly right darling which is why i got in the pool, this lot wont judge you for that" she nods, understanding me
"Ok but what about my other scars?"
"What other scars baba?"
"You know, my o..o..other ones" i nod getting what she means
"Ive got a t-shirt you can get wet baba" she nods and hugs me
"Thank you mama, for everything i love you, you can just sort everything i come up with i love you"
"Oh baba, i love you to"
I get her a t-shirt out "if you dont feel comfortable, you can get out and get changed, and if you wanted you could always take the t-shirt off" she shakes her head
"No...no..no" the fear evident in her eyes
"Ok ok baba ok, breathe, slow down you dont have to, its okay"
"Can i bring my hoodie"
"Of course" we both go down and she sits back on the chair "ill be in there whenever your ready" she nods
I go over to lucy "hey gorgeous" i kiss her
Lucy-"hey howd it go?"
Keira-"oh yeah she was ok, i had to tell her ive done it to and give her a soare t-shirt she can get wet because she wants to go in the pool"
Luvy-"oh bless her" she looks back at the barbecue and sighs deeply "this is all my fault, it always will be"
Keira-"hey dont start thinking like that again" the tears fill her eyes "hey hey no" i rub her back "shshsh" she wipes her eyes and kisses me "im gonna jump in"
Lucy-"hey wait for me, mapi! Come here watch this"
Mapi-"comin" she agrees to watch the barbecue and me and luce get in the pool, its really warm, i sit on the steps looking at my old scars bringing everything back to when i did it
Lucy-"this is my fault aswell" she points to them
Keira-"what?"
Lucy-"you did that when i went to lyon, there my fault, livs my fault, everythings my fault"
Keira-"hey no, dont think like that please baby dont think that" just then we hear splashes and look up to see liv and pina playing in the pool "you still think shes your fault"
Lucy-"she looks so happy"
Keira-"she does"
Its all going so well until salma asks "hey liv, why you got a t-shirt on?"
Olivia-"oh i uh i don't have a bikini yet, that fits" she asnwers quickly. We think thats it until she then asks "whats that on your arm" her eyes dart down to the scratches, she looks at me with fear before running out the pool upstairs. Shit salma.
Keira-"fuck sake salma"
I jump up and run after her, the doors locked but i know someone who can break through this is seconds. Her mum.
Keira-"lucy! The door now" she runs basically straight through the door and there she is, a shaking ball.
"Baba"
Olivia-"go away"
"You know i cant do that, salma wasnt judging you baba, it was just a genuine question"
"I know but that means someone noticed it"
"Its okay baba" i rock her side to side
"Can i go back?"
"Of course you can baba, i was making sure your ok"
"I am, i think"
I nod and we go back out to the pool
Salma-"olivia im so sorry i didnt mean to ask about it"
Olivia-"no its ok sal, i know"
Salma-"i wasnt judging it, i was just asking" i nod understanding her "come on lets go back to the pool"
"No i think ima stay here for a bit thanks"
"Ok" she walks off from us
Olivia's pov-
I go back to the chair and go on my phone, struggling to see, i close my eyes and accidentally fall asleep.