How are you my mum?

18. England Camp

Olivia's pov-
The last thing i remember is lying with my mum and mama at the end of the pitches
They must of carried me up to there room, i wake up with no one around
Olivia-"MUM! MAMA! WHERE ARE YOU! i keep screaming
My mum soon runs through the bedroom door
Lucy-"im here babygirl dont worry, im here"
Olivia-"i thought youd left"
Lucy-"no of course not"
Olivia-"when do you train?"
Mama walks in
Keira-"tomorrow, we have our own day today"
Olivia-"what do we do on them"
Keira-"uhh well we play games, and have food together"
My body tenses at the word 'food'
Keira-"if you dont want to, you can come back up here and we will say your tired"
Olivia-"really mama?"
Keira-"of course, we wont push you to do things"
We go down to the games room
I see a ping pong table, i love ping pong, im also quite good at it if i say so myself
Olivia-"mum mum ping pong" i say like an excited kid
Lucy-"you play?"
Olivia-"i used to at school"
Lucy-"game on mini bronze"
Olivia-"i quite like that nickname"
I grab my bat and my mum grabs hers, everyone crowds around the table, i get a bit overwhelmed but put it off as i had to beat my mum
Keira-"come on then bronzes"
We start playing
Im dominating and notice my mum getting competitive
Olivia-"getting competitive are we"
Lucy-"yes"
I was determined to beat my mum
And in fact i do exactly that
I beat my mum
I beat. Lucy Bronze.
Olivia-"yayyyyyyy"
Everyone cheers
My mum looks down at the table in defeat
Lucy-"it was the stupid bat"
She walks out and to me she seems really annoyed that i beat her, i feel really bad but then my mama comes over
Keira-"dont worry kiddo, she just doesnt like losing"
Olivia-"i know but she seems really annoyed"
I follow after my mum she goes to our room
Olivia-"mum im sorry i beat you"
Lucy-"oh no, it wasnt your fault dont be upset, i just hate losing whatever it is"
She lifts her arm to grab something off a shelf on the wall, i flinch and she notices
Lucy-"oh sorry babygirl im not going to hit you dont worry i was just grabbing something"
Olivia-"i know sorry mum"
Lucy-"dont apologise"
Olivia-"can we stay with me please"
Lucy-"yeah ill ask kei to grab me something"
Olivia-"oh wait no im sorry i really am just invading your life, you should go with your friends"
Lucy-"if you want me to stay, im staying"
Olivia-"bu-"
I was quickly cut off
Lucy-"no babygirl"
I accept defeat as i know my mum isnt going anywhere
Olivia-"can i have a cuddle please mum"
Lucy-"of course you can come here"
I lay in my mums arms and tear up not because i dont like it but because ever since that flashback i had, i keep getting reminded of my old house
My mum soon notices my tears as im wetting her shirt
Lucy-"babygirl?"
Olivia-"im sorry mum, i keep getting reminded of everything"
Lucy-"its okay babygirl thank you for telling me"
I wrap myself around lucys body and fall asleep
My mama comes back from food and drops herself on top of lucy
Keira-"they are exhausting alone"
I quietly chuckle to myself
Or well so i thought i did
Keira-"hey kiddo whats so funny"
Olivia-"you"
Keira-"ugh just because i cant cope with them without lucy"
Olivia-"yes its quite funny"
Keira-"oh shush"
(A few days later)
England camp has now finished we won both the games but they were also both very difficult, it was hard for me to sneak around as there was basically cameras everywhere
I grew closer with Lessi, Leah,Beth most of them but i especially liked Lessi and Leah, i mean Rach and Millie were fun but then they were to much at some points
Now, we were on the way back to Manchester
But what my mum and mama didnt know what that while they went down for food with their teammates, i self-harmed
I felt really bad so i didnt say anything, i cant just come into their lives and take over i know that but at some points, i did feel really lonely up there by myself, i just wanted my mum cuddles
I mean i know shes always there to give them me but when she wasnt in honest truth i hated it, i hate being physically touched by other people but my mum and mama i cant go a day without a hug from them
Now. There my everything.
In the taxi i lean against my mama and she puts an arm round me
I love my mama. I love my mum.