Enzo

Disgusted

Lilly's pov:

Looking in the mirror, my hair messy, my face dirty, my legs stained with blood. Only one feeling got in my mind. Disgust.

I felt disgusted with myself. How could I let this happen?

I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child. I lost my child.

The thought came running in my mind. My mind was flooded with thousands of emotions. Oh no. I grabbed my stomach, feeling empty.

I looked between my legs, that was the blood of my baby. My hand went over my mouth,trying to be quiet as I sobbed.

I heard someone entering the room, my whole body shut down. My body was pushed against another one.

I tried to cover my ears to avoid any sound going in me. Everything was 10 times louder, the voices in my head. The memories from my childhood. The beating that killed my child.

"It's okay," someone whispered. I started bawling my eyes out. I clinged to whoever it was.

Enzo's pov:

Lilly clinged to my body as I tried to comfort her. The realization hit her and I wish I could help with what was going on in her mind. I wanted her to transfer her pain to me. I couldn't watch her get hurt by something that was my fault.

I slowly lifted her on her feet.
"Is it okay if I clean you up?" she nodded slightly. Her face buried in my chest. I started undressing her, her skin shivering with my touch.

Tilting her up and placing her in the shower. I made sure to put it on the right temperature. The water hit her and she almost fell to the floor but I quickly catched her.

We sat down on the floor. Her back resting on my chest as I tried to scrub the blood away.She buried her face in my chest.

I heard she was trying to contain her tears and staying quit. 

"Lilly, its okay to cry, we lost our baby." As I said that she broke down. 

I grabbed a towel and covered her up. Her breathing turned to normal again.
"Do you need anything, food, drinks?" I asked, wanting to make her feel better.
"Some snacks would be fine" she silently told me.

She wrapped her arms around my neck. I placed a soft kiss on her forehead since I knew she liked that. I stood up and her legs wrapped around my waist. I walked to my bedroom and slowly placed her on the bed.

She crawled under the blankets with me moving her whole body close to me. A knock on the door interrupted us. Charlotte walked in with a bunch of snacks. I saw Lilly's face light up which made me feel better.

I put on a movie I knew she would like: Tangled.

She grabbed one of the snacks. White chocolate, she likes that. "
Do you want something?" She asked.
"No, thank you" , placing another kiss on her forehead.

The movie ended, I looked down and Lilly was asleep in my arms. I hope she finds peace when she sleeps.