Sorry Anyway ♡-- Dark Romance Bucky Barnes x Reader

Forfeit

Warning!! Chapter may contain consensual but rough sexual play, sexual submission, oral sex and extreme BDSM, sexual and physical violence.

Chapter contains elements of toxic relationships, so trigger warning for that.

Please do not read if you have a problem with anything above.

---Your Point of View ---

"I'm sorry Bucky, it's just a lot to deal with and I am scared."

You put your hand on your baby bump looking down, your daughter had gotten excited – like she normally did hearing Steve's voice, so it honestly made your stomach upset.

"Is it me?" Bucky voice chased ever so slightly, someone who didn't know him wouldn't have noticed, but you knew – you could tell that it wasn't Bucky you were talking to, the darker side of him was still there – no escape from you.

You realized that you were not necessarily scared of him, he was just, intense. He sat down next to you, and you shivered at him being close – not a bad shiver, Bucky and his darker side always had an effect on you – it was involuntary and you found yourself look to the side and blush.

"In part it is..."

You jumped a little bit when he reached out and put a hand on your baby bump, going under and touching your bare skin with his flesh and blood hand.

"You have no idea how beautiful and amazing you are, pressing down slightly, you shivered at the touch, enjoying it.

He moved a little bit closer, pressing a little bit harder, the two of you stayed perfectly still, you could feel your daughter move, around, and he was feeling it as well.

You were focused on his face, he was intently focused on what he was feeling, after a moment he looked up at you, his expression was shocked and there was such joy in his face.

"She is moving."

You let out a genuine laugh, his tone of voice was so shocked, as if he really couldn't fathom the idea of your baby moving in your stomach. Then you thought better of it, he was from the 1940 – maybe there sex education was lack luster.

Reaching down you put your hand over his when he tried to move it.

"She likes you." You teased gently, she was moving more with him interacting with her, something you were shocked about.

"I hope I can be a good father to her."

The way that he said it made your focus on him a little bit more, eyes narrowed you reached out and touched his jaw, he grabbed your hand and pressed his cheek into it, this beautiful blue eyes closing.

You noticed that a tear had fallen down his cheek.

"Bucky...Soldier...what is it?"

He looked up at you, and gave you what you could only describe as a sad and dejected smile.

"What if she finds out what I had done in my past?"

"Oh..." Your heart went out to him, that was something you had never really thought about, for sure your daughter would want to know about her father.

"She doesn't have to know, we don't have to get into your past, you just have to be her father."

"I don't like the idea of lying to her, it's one of the reasons that I was a little bit hesitant to go after you, Steve would have been a better father than me, at least there is nothing dark in his past."

You moved quickly, straddling his legs on the bed, he sat back and looked up at you, putting his bionic hand on your hip, the cool metal almost burning your warm skin.

"I am not ashamed of your past, you beat Hydra, and survives, why wouldn't I want our daughter to know that about you?"

"I have killed people."

"Yes, but you are also a war hero, she will understand, we will be open with her and talk about it."

He looked up at you, his eyes were wide and sad, you looked at them, there was something do deeply disarming about what he was doing.

Slowly leaned down I kissed him on the lips, after a second, he kissed me back, I pulled back, looking at his expression I watched as he transitioned from Bucky to the darker side of him.

Letting our a growl he gently flipped me onto my back, moving on top of me, clearly being mindful of bump.

"I hate the control you have over me..."

"Same..." I thought about my husband, I was a monster, I knew that I couldn't have him and Bucky.

"I want you to forfeit him doll, I want to be your husband and father..." He growled, I sobbed gently.

"And if I don't?"

He let our a dark growl but didn't answer, his silence was menacing, after a second he put his bionic hand on the back of my head, moving me to make it easier to kiss, his body felt hot and I was starting to sweat, I couldn't fight him anymore, I gave into him, letting him take full control of me.